It Was As If The Dead Man Stood Upon The Air

[eaterofthedead]

So I sit here wondering.
Wondering if I will actually do it this time.
Wondering why I shoudn't and not thinking of anyhting.
Wondering exactly what the point is to NOT do it.
Wondering why I bother to fight it.
Wondering why it matters anyway.
Wondering if anything really matters.

Fuck it.

I don't care anymore.

Comments

[angel_machine]

o.o

don't say things like that...

do you need to talk to me? i can call you when i get off work tonight.

[eaterofthedead]

I greatly appreciate your concern, however, telephones terrify me. Thank you for showing care and concern it warms me. I do believe I will make it through this. Thank you again, you're a sweetheart.

[angel_machine]

*snuggles* i still have your number... if you have caller ID and you get a number with a 615 area code, that's me, ok?

[eaterofthedead]

*hugs* I don't have caller ID but I do have an answering machine that takes my calls for me. So if you do call just say who you are to it and I'll answer if I'm home. I've been trying to spend alot of time with other people to combat the feelings and it's been helping. I have mostly been spending time with a friend's 14 year old daughter watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

[gunbattle]

let's forget about life and have sex. ^^

[gunbattle]

mhm, mhm. let's begin.

[eaterofthedead]

*hugs* You make me smile.

[eccentricvertix]

I so know how you feel cause I ask those things myself all the time but I'm overcoming it too and I hope you get back to your sexy self *hugzz* ^_^ luv ya! =3 =D

[eaterofthedead]

*hugs* Thank you for your support. I appreciate it greatly. Your strange cuteness never fails to make me smile.

[eccentricvertix]

:3 glad to make ya smile, makes me smile too see! =^_^= so can't resist my strange cuteness huh? awww~ I love you all over again!! *snugglecuddle*

[eaterofthedead]

*pokepokesnuggle*

[shades_of_mists]

Sweetlings... please don't think like that. You are one of the few bright spots in my world and I don't know what I'd do if you went away. You always cheer me up and I hope one day i can pay you back, but i can't if your gone so please stay. I think you have my e-mail or drop me a note on devia if you want ot talk or something. *cuddles and kisses*

[eaterofthedead]

*nuzzles*

Fucking fuckity fuck

[lostprincssofoz]

I'd like to know what the problem is and why I can't seem to help. Is it me? Are you considering leaving? Why are you talking to this computer about things that are bothering you, but not me? What exactly have I done that makes you not able to trust me, or not able to come to me when something is wrong? I worry about you all the time.

Fucking fuckity fuck

[eaterofthedead]

"Fucking fuckity fuck"
Sounds good to me!