fic: Babe I'm Gonna Leave You | j2 | NC-17 | for poor_choices
title: Babe I'm Gonna Leave You
author: earthquakedream
pairing: Jared/Jensen (as girls), minor Danneel/Sophia
rating: NC-17
warnings: graphic femslash, bit o' angst, underage drinking, J2 as girls
word count: 6100 words
disclaimer: These people aren't mine.
summary: Jared breaks up with Jensen for no reason, but Jensen is determined to not let that ruin her first year of college. College AU with girl!J2
author's note: After several false starts and idea changes, I have finally finished my spn_j2_xmas fic for the lovely, awesome poor_choices. She wanted a j2 au with Jared&Jensen as girls and I know she is fond of college AUs. I hope this isn't too angsty and that you enjoy it lots! I owe LOTS of thanks to bekkis for sticking with me through all my ideas and being an awesome beta. Also thanks to enablelove for believing in me and helping me get over my writer's block, and everyone on Twitter who listened to me whine about this. I LOVE YOU GUYS. <3
Jared and Jensen started dating about halfway through senior year. Jensen had been crushing on Jared for a few years at that point, but Jared was oblivious and hadn't realized it. Then Jensen got super drunk after homecoming and climbed into Jared's lap, kissing her till neither of them could breathe.
Then they both freaked out for a couple months until Jared showed up at Christmas and told Jensen she wasn't getting her present until after they figured everything out. They ended up making out again instead of talking, but by the time Jensen's mom called them down for dinner, they'd decided it'd be easier to just be girlfriends.
Not that they told anyone. Danneel had known since Jensen first started to like Jared that they would end up together and Mike and Misha caught them together at Mike's New Year's party. Other than that, and Jared's best friend Chad, who just wanted to watch them have sex - which was not going to happen - they didn't tell anyone.
Jensen was happy as hell about the whole thing. She hated lying to her parents about it, but it was worth it to be able to have Jared stay over most nights so they could make out in Jensen's bed, or get each other off quietly after everyone else was asleep.
They knew Jensen was a lesbian, had for years, but Jared's parents were severely anti-gay and Jared was too scared that they would find out. So Jensen kept it a secret. They were all going to UT in Austin next year anyways. Jensen and Danneel were planning on being roommates and Jared convinced her parents to shell out for a single room.
It was going perfectly well until Jared called her one day and said, in a flat, emotionless voice, "It's not working out."
Jensen laughed. "You're joking, right? C'mon, Jay." She'd just spent ninety bucks on a bracelet for Jared for her 18th birthday, which was also the sixth month mark in their relationship.
"I'm not joking, Jensen," Jared said, and now she just sounded sad. "I'm sorry. I have to break up with you."
"No," Jensen said. "No, you can't do this to me. I thought we were happy."
"Stop it," Jared pleaded. "Please, just...just let it go."
"I can't. I love you. Don't...don't leave me." Her voice broke and she felt pathetic because of it. But she'd never had her heart broken before.
"Bye, Jensen," Jared whispered, then hung up.
Jensen threw her phone down hard enough to send the back flying off, the battery popping out and sliding under her bed before she curled up and clutched a pillow to her chest. It smelled like Jared, who had been there just yesterday, attacking Jensen with kisses and tickling fingers while they laughed so loudly that Jensen's mom yelled at them.
And now, for no reason at all, Jared didn't want to be with her anymore. Jensen buried her face in the pillow and it soaked up her tears until she couldn't cry anymore. She finally managed to sit up, wiping at her sore, swollen eyes, and searched around under her bed until she found not her battery, but the box of pictures she'd collected after her parents got her this awesome Nikon camera for Christmas.
Most of them were of Jared, her long limbs, gorgeous hair, smiling and showing her dimples off. Jensen looked through them, shaking with the effort not to rip them up - she wasn't sad anymore. She was just pissed. Instead she threw them back into the box and shoved it to the farthest corner underneath her bed, against the wall.
She finally found her cell battery and put it back in so she could text Danneel. Nothing dramatic, just j broke up w/ me but im fine, then shoved it in her pocket and went downstairs to convince her mom to make steak for dinner.
Jensen just felt like stabbing something. Meat would work well enough for now. Tomorrow she'd steal her brother's BB gun and take it out to the back field to shoot some cans. She'd forget about Jared everything would be okay.
After dinner, she went back upstairs and saw the box containing the thin silver bracelet she bought for Jared. It had Jared's birthstone and her name engraved in it. Jensen had saved up for months to buy it because Jared always bought cheap jewelry that broke easily.
Jensen wanted her to have something beautiful, but it was worthless now. She shoved the box under her bed with her pictures. She had the rest of the summer to forget about Jared Padalecki. And she was going to make it happen.
College started in the fall and Jensen wasn't going to let anything ruin the fun she planned to have.
~~~~~~
"Jenny!" Mike called out from across the suite. Jensen was on her way to drunk but still not ready to talk to Mike about anything.
Apparently she had no choice, though, because Mike sat next to her and shoved a shot of something neon green into her hand. She shrugged and downed it.
"Mm, what's goin' on?" she asked once the burning went away. Jensen looked at Mike with blurry eyes, unsure if her contacts were missing or if it was the alcohol.
"I need you to do me a favor. I have a friend who been having trouble being real social. She won't come out to any parties, just sits in her room and studies all the time. Think you can meet her and try to teach her how to have fun?"
Jensen shrugged. She'd been having a lot of fun since she got to UT. Mike brought her to all the best parties, she studied with Misha, and Danneel took her shopping every so often. She'd made other friends too, with some guys in her Linguistics class and people from the gay-straight alliance, which was surprisingly big for a college in Texas.
"Sure, why not. I'm a good samaritan. I'll show her how it's done."
"Great!" Mike said, and there was something about his expression that Jensen didn't like, but she ignored it.
"Where is she?" Jensen stood up and fixed her shirt, which was riding up and showing way too much skin. Some guy was staring at her chest and she flipped him off, scowling.
"Probably in her room. It's just one floor up."
"Lead the way!" Jensen let Mike lead her up the stairs, stealing an unopened bottle of booze from a random cooler on her way out. She had to hang onto Mike's arm as they walked up, but he was one of the few guys who weren't constantly staring down her shirt, so it was okay.
Because she couldn't see for shit right now - she remembered wearing her glasses to the party and Danneel stealing them for some reason - she didn't see what the nametag on the door said as Mike knocked and it opened.
But she did recognize the beautiful girl staring at them from the doorway, in those adorable shorts that showed off her long legs and a too-big t-shirt that she got from a blood drive. Jensen clutched at her beer bottle and cleared her throat.
"Hey, Jared," she said. Jared just kept staring.
Mike grinned. "Oh wait, I forgot you two already knew each other! What's that? Misha's calling my name, gotta go!" And then he was racing back down the stairs. Jensen sighed.
"Sorry about that. He told me he wanted me to meet a friend of his who was being anti-social and failed to mention it was you. Didn't mean to interrupt...whatever."
"Jared, who is this!" This short, curvy girl popped up from behind Jared, smiling widely at Jensen. "I'm Sandy!"
She was wearing one of Jared's shirts and what looked like nothing else underneath. Jensen felt her jaw clench hard and she shook her head. "Looks like I was interrupting, I'm sorry." With that, Jensen turned and walked away, ignoring Jared calling her name.
Jensen was going to get wasted and find her own girl. Jared seemed to have moved on. Now it was time for Jensen to do the same.
~~~~~~
Turns out that finding a girlfriend was harder than Jensen thought it would be. There were some very nice, willing girls at GSA but none that Jensen was interested in. Danneel offered to be her friend-with-benefits, but Jensen was too scared of messing up their friendship. She'd already lost Jared.
So instead she just kept going to parties and hanging with Mike and Misha, who had recently - finally - gotten together. They were happy as hell and had fun shoving their relationship in everyone's faces...particularly the homophobes who kept calling Misha a hippie fag.
One memorable night happened shortly after midterms were over and they were all hanging at a bar that was pretty lax on carding. Jensen, Danneel, Mike, and Misha were all having fun, playing darts and drinking.
Then one guy caught Misha talking to his girlfriend about yoga and took offense.
"Stay away from my girl. You can't have her," the guy - Jensen thought his name might be Aaron - said, grabbing onto Misha's shirt. Mike rolled his eyes and stood up, starting for them. Jensen just watched.
"You sound like a five year old bitching about his favorite toy. And man, she's not your property. She's a human being, and we were just talking about yoga. You should think about taking it up. It really helps with anger issues." Misha smiled warmly.
Aaron growled and got into Misha's face. "I'll show you anger issues, you asshole!" He pulled back his fist, ready to cause some real trouble, but before he could do anything some hulk of a guy grabbed onto him and pulled him off.
"You're out of here. No fighting in this bar." Aaron was thrown out and Hulk came back over.
"Sorry about him. This happens...way too much actually. Should probably ban him." He shrugged and smiled at their group. "I'm Tom. Sorta the bouncer for this place."
Misha brushed himself off and held out his hand. "Misha. Thanks for saving my pretty face."
"I'd like to second that," Mike said, clapping Tom on the shoulder, and Jensen just knew that Tom was going to be joining their little group. She sighed and looked at Danneel.
"We need to find some girls to hang out with. All this testosterone is making me sick."
"Good luck with that," Danneel said, smirking at her. "I just found a lovely lady I'm going to take back to our dorm tonight."
"No," Jensen said, following Danneel's eyesight. The girl was hot - tall and slender with a great smile and dark hair - but Jensen refused to let Danneel exile her for sex. "Nuh uh, Danni, we agreed that there wasn't going to be any of that."
"Changed my mind. Sorry!" She disappeared into the crowd and Jensen sighed. Now she had to find a ride home and somewhere to sleep for the night.
Jensen managed to get back to the dorm relatively quickly for a busy Saturday night. It was pretty fortunate that the bus stopped right outside the bar and she had some cash on her. She changed from contacts to her glasses, pulled on a comfy pair of pajamas that weren't too revealing, and shoved some books and her laptop in her bag. With a sigh, she grabbed a blanket and her pillow too. The couches couldn't be all that bad to sleep on.
When she ventured out to the lounge on her floor, it was already occupied by a group of guys playing Dungeons and Dragons. She decided to go to the next floor and she had just stepped out of the stairwell when she ran into Jared. Of course.
Strong hangs grabbed onto her arms to keep her from falling and Jensen resisted the urge to grab back at her and hold her close.
"What are you doing up here, Jensen?" Jared asked, looking down at her.
"Danneel's bringing a girl back to the room and I wanted to get out of there before I saw anything too pornographic." It was pretty amazing how long Jensen had gone without seeing Jared at all, considering their rooms were just a floor apart. Apparently she was just really good at avoidance.
"Oh. Do you have somewhere else to stay?" Jared finally stepped back. Jensen could still smell the apple perfume Jared loved to wear.
"No, but I'll figure something out, I'm sure." She shrugged and glanced down towards the lounge.
"You can stay in my room," Jared said hesitantly. "I have a single, but I also have an air mattress for when Sandy stays over."
Jensen went tense at the mention of Sandy, she couldn't help it. Jared noticed and bit her lip.
"Look, Jen, Sandy's not...we're not together. She's just my friend and she hates her roommate, so she stays over a lot."
"Okay, whatever," Jensen said. "It's not my business who you date anyways, is it?" She couldn't help the way her chest loosened at that though. It was ridiculous, to feel relieved that her ex-girlfriend was just as single and alone as Jensen was.
"Right," Jared sighed. "Just...come on, you don't have to sleep in the lounge. The couches are disgusting. I know for a fact that Chad's had sex on one of them."
That pretty much sealed the deal for Jensen. She was not taking the chance of sleeping on a couch that anyone - especially Chad - had fucked on before. "Fine, okay."
She caught the hint of a smile before Jared turned away and headed for her room. Jensen followed her, hitching her bag on her back. She idly wished that she had worn something sexier, but that was stupid. Jared didn't want her anymore.
"So, how have you been?" Jared asked as Jensen laid out her blanket and pillow on the air mattress. It was small, but it'd be better than a dirty couch in the lounge.
"Fine," Jensen answered, grabbing out her book. It was some stupid lesbian erotica book that Danneel had given her as a graduation present before Jared broke up with her. Jared used to read it out loud to her and they'd giggle over how bad it was. But it was fun and Jensen had told herself that she wasn't going to let those memories ruin it for her.
Maybe it had been a bad idea to pull it out in front of Jared. Because now Jared was looking at her sadly, hands clenched into fists. "Jen, we should..."
"No," Jensen said. "We shouldn't do anything right now but sleep. I'm tired and still sorta drunk. It's over, Jared. That was your decision. You can't...you can't change that."
"I know," Jared whispered, then shut off her lamp and climbed into bed. Jensen wasn't in the mood to read anymore - not that she could in the dark anyways - so she curled up under her thin blanket and tried to fall asleep, listening to Jared lay awake in her bed. It was awkward and this was such a bad idea, but now she was stuck here so she might as well make the best of it.
Try as she might, though, Jensen didn't fall asleep for another few hours. When she woke up, Jared was gone and there was a note on the door telling Jensen that she was at work till one, but it was fine to leave the door unlocked.
Jensen thought for a long moment about looking through Jared's stuff to see if she could find any explanation about why Jared had broken up with her, but it was almost one and she didn't want to be here when Jared got back. She gathered up her stuff and went back to her room, which was empty and barely smelt like sex.
Thank god for small favors.
Unfortunately Danneel came in about five minutes later, wrapped in a towel and wet from her shower. Jensen snorted. "You have like five hickies on your chest. Classy."
Danneel shrugged. "Sophia's a biter. It was hot."
"So you had a good night, then?" Jensen asked.
"God, yes," Danneel said with a wicked grin. "The things that girl could do with her tongue..." She paused and looked at Jensen. "Where did you stay last night? I looked for you in the lounge because I figure you'd be stupid enough to sleep there."
"Nah, I...found a friend who took me in."
"What friend? All our friends were at the bar last night."
"I have friends other than you guys," Jensen said defensively. "Give me some credit here."
"Uh huh. Who was it, Jenny? You looked exhausted."
Jensen sighed. "It was Jared, okay? I ran into her when I was on my way to the lounge upstairs. I slept on her air mattress."
"Oh, sweetheart," Danneel started, reaching out for Jensen, but Jensen shook her head and pulled away.
"It was fine. She tried to talk to me about shit, but I blew her off and we just slept. That's it."
"Why'd you blow her off?" Danneel frowned. "You could have got some answers about why she broke it off with you."
"I don't care anymore, Danneel. It was months ago and I'm over it."
"Do you feel like a big girl, telling your big girl lies? C'mon. I know you're not over her. And she regrets breaking up with you, too."
"How do you know?" Jensen asked. "Have you talked to her?"
Danneel looked down and sighed. "Yes, Jen. I've talked to her. I'm your best friend and I hate that she hurt you, but me and Jared are friends too. She won't tell me why either, but she wants you back. So just...talk to her, please?"
"Maybe. I'm not promising anything, but if I run into her again soon, then I'll talk to her, okay?"
"Fine," Danneel said. She dropped her towel and got dressed. "Now let's go get some food, I am fucking starving."
~~~~~~
It was almost finals time before Jensen ran into Jared again. This time she actually had been going out of her way to avoid the other girl because she just wasn't ready to have that discussion with Jared.
Jensen was depressed after Jared broke up with her, then angry, then she just tried to forget about it. That had worked, for the most part. Sure, Jensen still missed Jared and wished they'd never broken up because she was still so damn in love with the girl that it hurt whenever she remembered how thing used to be....
So maybe it wasn't work at all, but Jensen was good at pretending. That's why she wanted to be a writer.
When she finally ran into Jared again, it was right outside Jensen's room. Jensen was coming back after a long day of classes and ready to pass out, and Jared was just...standing there. Like she was waiting for Jensen.
"What are you doing here?" Jensen asked, keeping her tone even.
"Waiting for you. Danneel told me you wanted to talk?"
Damn her. "Right," Jensen sighed. "Come in."
She let Jared into her room, glad she and Danneel had just cleaned since Sophia was starting to spend more time in the room, when Jensen wasn't there - and sometimes when she was, but luckily Sophia wasn't a big fan of PDA. She gestured to her desk chair and sat in Danneel's, watching Jared.
Jared sat awkwardly, pulling her long legs to her chest and hugging them. Her hair was cut short now, framing her face in messy waves. She looked tired and sad and Jensen thought she may have even lost some weight.
"Are you okay?" Jensen asked without meaning too. "You look like shit, Jared."
"Thanks," Jared snorted. "And...no, Jen. I'm not okay."
"Yeah, well. Me either." Jensen sighed. She had told Danneel, and Mike, and even Jared she didn't want to have this conversation. Not ever. But she was actually desperate to know the reason Jared had just dumped her so abruptly over the summer.
"Tell me why you did it."
Jared let her legs drop down and tangled her fingers together in her lap, not looking at Jensen. "For some really stupid reason that's going to make you hate me even more." She took a deep breath and Jensen stayed silent, just waiting.
"I told my mom I was a lesbian. I told her I was with you and happy and she...she pretended it never happened. She just walked away and did the dishes, made dinner, and...and then told me I should start trying to date some nice boys and think about my future." Jared shrugged. "She kept inviting guys over to the house after that, trying to get me to like them and ignoring me whenever I told her I had a girlfriend."
Jensen frowned. "You never told me about any of this, Jared."
"I know. I just...I wanted everything to be okay. And I didn't want you to worry because we were so happy."
"But I would have wanted to know this. You told me everything, and you didn't think I wouldn't have wanted to know that your mom was trying to set you up with guys?"
"I'm sorry, Jen, I really am. It was stupid, but she was already all disappointed because I wanted to keep the name my alcoholic father gave me, and because I wanted to stay close to home and go to school to be a computer programmer. I couldn't take her being disappointed in me anymore."
"So you broke up with me instead of telling me?" Jensen didn't know if that made Jared's decision better or worse. It hurt that Jared didn't trust her, but at least it wasn't anything Jensen did.
And...and at least it wasn't because she didn't love Jensen anymore.
"I'm sorry. I can't ever tell you how sorry I am that I broke up with you. I should have told you, I know that, and I really fucked up." Jared swallowed. "But...could you try to forgive me? I miss you, Jen."
Jensen wanted to say no, because she was still hurt and confused by everything...but she couldn't refuse Jared. Despite everything, she still loved her and understood why she did it. Sort of.
"I'm...I'm not saying we're back together, Jay, but...yeah. I forgive you." She took Jared's hand and squeezed it gently, smiling. "We can work on being friends again, okay?"
Jared's entire face lit up and it struck something deep within Jensen. She was still so damn beautiful. "Okay. Yeah."
~~~~~~
Finals were hell but Jared was a great study partner and kept Jensen from staying up too late and going out to parties when she shouldn't. She managed to pass all her classes and they all drove home in Mike's van, singing Christmas carols really badly.
Jared was the loudest of all of them - and the most off key. She was smiling, though, bright and happy, so Jensen couldn't make herself care too much.
"Can you drop us both off at my house?" Jensen asked Mike when they got close to home. Jared tilted her head at Jensen and Jensen shrugged. "I have some stuff for you."
"Oh," Jared said softly, running her fingers through her messy hair like she did when she was nervous. "Yeah, okay."
Jensen knew why she was nervous - she thought Jensen was going to give back all the stuff Jared had ever given her and all the stuff Jared had left at the house. Which had been tempting before, when Jensen was still angry about everything. But at Thanksgiving, Jensen had gone through all that stuff and made a decision.
She forgave Jared for screwing up with their relationship. Jensen couldn't imagine being in her situation and she knew it had been hard on Jared. And after everything...she still loved Jared. Maybe she was setting herself up to be hurt again, but Jensen knew she couldn't be scared of that and still hope to have Jared again.
When Mike let them out at Jensen's house, they brought their bags inside. Jensen's mom greeted them, surprised to see Jared even if she didn't show it.
"How was your first semester?" she asked them as they toed off their shoes in the doorway.
"Good," Jensen said, looking over at Jared and smiling widely. "It was good, Mom."
Jared nodded in agreement, still looking nervous but smiling anyways.
"That's great! Are you hungry? I was on my way out to grab some groceries."
"Anything but pizza," Jared said. "That's all we've lived on these last few weeks."
"Seriously, it was ridiculous. But we didn't have time to do anything but order out while we were studying."
Jensen's mom laughed. "Okay, no pizza. I'll make pork chops then. You girls be good while I'm gone!" She pulled on her coat and left with a kiss to Jensen's cheek.
Jensen grinned. If this went the way she was hoping, she wouldn't be obeying her mom at all.
"C'mon," she said, and led Jared up to her room. Jared climbed the stairs hesitantly, too slow for Jensen's patience, so Jensen grabbed her hand and pulled her along faster.
Once they got to Jensen's room, Jensen closed and locked the door behind them. Another thing she had done over Thanksgiving was put up the pictures she'd shoved under her bed last July. There was a huge collage of her and all her friends - Danneel, Mike and Misha, Jared - and more recent pictures too, from the parties she'd gone to at school.
"I like what you've done with the place," Jared said, looking at the pictures and smiling widely. "You took most of these, right?"
"Yep. Lots of Kodak moments going on at school. Mike introduced me to some of the craziest people."
"That's what Mike does," Jared pointed out, grinning. She brushed her fingers over a picture of her and Jensen leaning against each other, smiling. "I can't believe you kept the ones of me. After what I did."
"Shut up," Jensen said, shaking her head. "Honestly, I was going to throw them away, but I just shoved them under my bed until I was home for Thanksgiving. I'm over it now, Jay. We're friends again, right?"
Jared looked over at her, hopeful and trying not to show it. "Yeah, we are." She looked down at Jensen's desk, and Jensen saw the exact moment Jared noticed her Christmas present.
"You got me something?" she asked. "Jen, you shouldn't have."
Jensen shrugged. "It was actually going to be your birthday present. But you're here now, so...open it."
"Are you sure? I mean...Christmas is still over a week away and--"
"Just open it, okay?" Jensen said, cutting her off. "I want you to open it."
"Okay," Jared said, then carefully pulled open the wrapping paper, making sure not to tear it. Jensen knew Jared was usually the type to rip into her presents eagerly, so this made her belly clench up, hopeful that what she was planning would go over well.
Jared opened the box slowly and gasped when she saw the bracelet. "Oh, Jensen, you...you're amazing, this is too much. I don't deserve this."
Jensen scoffed and moved closer to her. "I want you to have it. I bought it for you because I knew it would look beautiful on you, and that hasn't changed." She exhaled slowly. "And neither have my feelings for you."
Setting the box down, Jared looked up at her. "What do you mean?"
"I mean...I still care about you. I still want to be with you." She took Jared's hand. "I never got over you, okay? I've moved on from how it ended and I get why you did it, but that doesn't change the fact that I want us to be together again. Maybe not exactly how we were before, but something like that."
Jared was just staring at her, disbelieving. Jensen had run out of words though, so she just...leaned in and pressed her lips to Jared's, soft and hopeful.
It didn't take long for Jared to start kissing back, her long fingers sliding into Jensen's hair and holding her there, tongue swiping over her lips before pressing inside. Jared's kisses felt even better than Jensen remembered, deep but unhurried.
Jensen somehow navigated them back towards the bed and laid back on it, pulling Jared on top of her and sliding her hands under Jared's shirt. She could feel goosebumps break out on Jared's skin as her fingers glided over her sides. They both shivered and Jensen laughed softly.
"Missed this," she breathed, lips brushing over Jared's jaw and up to her ear, inhaling the scent of her shampoo. Jared still used coconut. At least that hadn't changed.
"Me too," Jared whispered and pulled back so she could get her shirt off.
Jensen could swear Jared's chest had grown since the last time they were together. She cupped her hands over Jared's simple blue bra, the weight of Jared's tits in her hand heavier than she remembered.
"Nice." Jensen pulled off her own shirt, a little jealous that Jared had grown up even more while Jensen was still stuck with a B cup. Then Jared hands were on her, squeezing gently and moving back to unhook Jensen's bra and she didn't really mind who was bigger once Jared's tongue was running over the crease of her tit before her lips closed over a nipple and sucked. "Oh fuck, Jay, yeah."
She felt Jared's smile against her skin as she moved her mouth to Jensen's other tit, tongue sliding along the stark blue veins obvious on her pale skin, tongue rubbing over the hard nub of her nipple before she bit gently. Jensen felt her pussy go wet and hot and squeezed her thighs together, trying to get some friction from her jeans.
"Still so fucking gorgeous," Jared breathed, her hands sliding over Jensen's belly to the top of her jeans. "Wanna just lay you out and get you off till you can't move anymore."
"I'm totally okay with that," Jensen laughed. She lifted her hips when Jared started working on her jeans, wiggling to help Jared out a little. Then she was just wearing her favorite pair of soft green panties, sticking to her cunt from how wet she was. "You need to get naked too."
"Okay," Jared said easily. She got off the bed and unhooked her bra in the front, revealing her perfect tits. Jensen squirmed slightly and watched as Jared slid off her sweatpants. She wasn't wearing any underwear.
"Naughty!" Jensen grinned and sat up, reaching out to grab onto Jared's hips and tug her close. She nipped at Jared's belly, which was softer than it was when Jared was constantly playing sports. She didn't mind. Her hands cupped Jared ass and squeezed. "Wanna get my mouth on you. Is that okay?"
"Please," Jared said, practically whimpering. She laid back on Jensen's bed, spread out over Jensen dark duvet just how Jensen always loved to see her.
Jensen crawled forward on the bed and got down on her elbows between Jared's legs, fingers sliding over the sparse curls between Jared's legs. Jared used to always keep herself trimmed clean when they were together and the fact that she hadn't bothered recently didn't turn Jensen off at all. It just reassured her that Jared hadn't been with anyone else.
Jared was embarrassed though, blushing and looking away. "Sorry, I didn't think..."
"It's more than fine, Jay," Jensen said, ducking her head to kiss Jared's thigh. "You don't have to be bare to be sexy to me, okay?"
Jared looked down at her. "Are you sure?"
"Positive." Jensen smiled and leaned in, using her thumbs to spread Jared's pussy. She was so wet already and Jensen just had to lean in and lick, get Jared's taste on her tongue. It was just as good as she remembered. She let out a soft moan and pressed her face closer, sucking at Jared's swollen clit and pressing a finger into her.
Jared's legs fell right open, letting Jensen get as close as she wanted while Jared went wild, grabbing at Jensen's long hair and arching her hips. She was making a lot of noise and Jensen was so glad her mom was gone because there was no mistaking what was going on here.
It didn't take long before Jensen had three fingers in Jared's cunt and her tongue working hard on her clit. Jared's fingers were twisted tight in Jensen's duvet, and she was slick and dripping down Jensen's chin. Without warning she went still and let out a cry as she came, thighs going tight around Jensen's head.
Jensen let her down slowly, tongue soothing over Jared's pussy before she sat up and grabbed her discarded shirt to wipe her mouth clean. Jared let out a laugh and pulled Jensen in for a kiss, all dirty and deep.
"Mmm, fuck, really missed that," Jared said when she broke it, panting quietly. "Jesus, it's been a long time."
"For me too," Jensen murmured. She kissed Jared again, smiling into it.
"Your turn, then." Jared grabbed at her hips. "Get up here."
Jensen grinned and yanked off her panties before kneeling over Jared's face. "Like this?"
"Glad I'm not the only one who hasn't been worried about grooming," Jared said softly.
"I'm just lazy," Jensen teased, then wiggled her hips. "Get to work."
"Demanding bitch."
Jared grabbed onto Jensen's thighs and pulled her down until her cunt was pressed against Jared's mouth. Jensen couldn't stop moaning as Jared's tongue worked her over, sucking and licking at her clit until Jensen was shaking so hard she couldn't stay up right, falling forward on her hands. Jared didn't let up though, just pushed two fingers into her and fucked her deep.
Jensen was a mess, practically sobbing as she rubbed her pussy over Jared's eager mouth, so wet she could barely feel the way Jared's tongue was pressed against her throbbing clit. When she came, it rushed through her so fast she collapsed and had to roll to the side so she didn't hurt Jared, hips jerking slightly. Jared grinned and kissed her, reaching her slick fingers down and moving them gently over Jensen's cunt until Jensen melted back against the bed, panting harshly.
"Oh my god, that was awesome," she managed to get out after a few moments. "Jesus Christ, Jay."
"Mmm, I'm a sex goddess."
"Sure, sure." Jensen leaned over to lick her slickness off of Jared's face, then wiped the rest off with her shirt. She pressed a soft kiss to Jared's swollen lips and smiled softly.
"I really am so--"
Jensen pressed her fingers to Jared's lips and shook her head. "No more apologizing. We're letting it all go and we're just going to focus on now, okay?"
Jared nodded and kissed Jensen's fingers. "Okay. Focusing on now."
"And right now...my mom's home." Jensen grinned. "So we should get dressed and go help with the groceries, hm?"
Jared laughed and grabbed for her sweats. "Okay. I'm starving."
~~~~~~
After dinner, Jared called to let her mom know she was staying at Jensen's, and thankfully Jared's mom didn't question it.
The bracelet box was still sitting on her desk and while they were curled up on Jensen's bed, watching a movie on her laptop, Jensen could see Jared keep glancing over at it. Finally she closed the computer and stood up to grab the bracelet.
"Put it on," she said, holding it out to Jared.
Jared hesitated, then held out her arm. "Put it on me," she murmured, looking up at Jensen with a soft smile.
Jensen smiled back and clipped the diamond bracelet around Jared's wrist, then took her hand and kissed her palm gently.
With a soft sigh, Jared pulled Jensen back down and kissed her. "I love you," she said. "I never stopped.
"Me either." Jensen curled up against her side, wrapping an arm around her waist. "I'm not going to lie, I tried to...but I couldn't help it."
"I'm going to make it up to you, you know. I'll do whatever it takes."
Jensen shook her head. "Jay, you don't get it. If I have you, that's enough."
"I'm still going to try."
"Stubborn bitch."
Jared grinned. "You love me. Stubborn bitchiness and all."
"I can't take it back, can I?"
"Nope! And you don't want to."
Jensen couldn't help but grin too. "No, I really don't."
end
author: earthquakedream
pairing: Jared/Jensen (as girls), minor Danneel/Sophia
rating: NC-17
warnings: graphic femslash, bit o' angst, underage drinking, J2 as girls
word count: 6100 words
disclaimer: These people aren't mine.
summary: Jared breaks up with Jensen for no reason, but Jensen is determined to not let that ruin her first year of college. College AU with girl!J2
author's note: After several false starts and idea changes, I have finally finished my spn_j2_xmas fic for the lovely, awesome poor_choices. She wanted a j2 au with Jared&Jensen as girls and I know she is fond of college AUs. I hope this isn't too angsty and that you enjoy it lots! I owe LOTS of thanks to bekkis for sticking with me through all my ideas and being an awesome beta. Also thanks to enablelove for believing in me and helping me get over my writer's block, and everyone on Twitter who listened to me whine about this. I LOVE YOU GUYS. <3
Jared and Jensen started dating about halfway through senior year. Jensen had been crushing on Jared for a few years at that point, but Jared was oblivious and hadn't realized it. Then Jensen got super drunk after homecoming and climbed into Jared's lap, kissing her till neither of them could breathe.
Then they both freaked out for a couple months until Jared showed up at Christmas and told Jensen she wasn't getting her present until after they figured everything out. They ended up making out again instead of talking, but by the time Jensen's mom called them down for dinner, they'd decided it'd be easier to just be girlfriends.
Not that they told anyone. Danneel had known since Jensen first started to like Jared that they would end up together and Mike and Misha caught them together at Mike's New Year's party. Other than that, and Jared's best friend Chad, who just wanted to watch them have sex - which was not going to happen - they didn't tell anyone.
Jensen was happy as hell about the whole thing. She hated lying to her parents about it, but it was worth it to be able to have Jared stay over most nights so they could make out in Jensen's bed, or get each other off quietly after everyone else was asleep.
They knew Jensen was a lesbian, had for years, but Jared's parents were severely anti-gay and Jared was too scared that they would find out. So Jensen kept it a secret. They were all going to UT in Austin next year anyways. Jensen and Danneel were planning on being roommates and Jared convinced her parents to shell out for a single room.
It was going perfectly well until Jared called her one day and said, in a flat, emotionless voice, "It's not working out."
Jensen laughed. "You're joking, right? C'mon, Jay." She'd just spent ninety bucks on a bracelet for Jared for her 18th birthday, which was also the sixth month mark in their relationship.
"I'm not joking, Jensen," Jared said, and now she just sounded sad. "I'm sorry. I have to break up with you."
"No," Jensen said. "No, you can't do this to me. I thought we were happy."
"Stop it," Jared pleaded. "Please, just...just let it go."
"I can't. I love you. Don't...don't leave me." Her voice broke and she felt pathetic because of it. But she'd never had her heart broken before.
"Bye, Jensen," Jared whispered, then hung up.
Jensen threw her phone down hard enough to send the back flying off, the battery popping out and sliding under her bed before she curled up and clutched a pillow to her chest. It smelled like Jared, who had been there just yesterday, attacking Jensen with kisses and tickling fingers while they laughed so loudly that Jensen's mom yelled at them.
And now, for no reason at all, Jared didn't want to be with her anymore. Jensen buried her face in the pillow and it soaked up her tears until she couldn't cry anymore. She finally managed to sit up, wiping at her sore, swollen eyes, and searched around under her bed until she found not her battery, but the box of pictures she'd collected after her parents got her this awesome Nikon camera for Christmas.
Most of them were of Jared, her long limbs, gorgeous hair, smiling and showing her dimples off. Jensen looked through them, shaking with the effort not to rip them up - she wasn't sad anymore. She was just pissed. Instead she threw them back into the box and shoved it to the farthest corner underneath her bed, against the wall.
She finally found her cell battery and put it back in so she could text Danneel. Nothing dramatic, just j broke up w/ me but im fine, then shoved it in her pocket and went downstairs to convince her mom to make steak for dinner.
Jensen just felt like stabbing something. Meat would work well enough for now. Tomorrow she'd steal her brother's BB gun and take it out to the back field to shoot some cans. She'd forget about Jared everything would be okay.
After dinner, she went back upstairs and saw the box containing the thin silver bracelet she bought for Jared. It had Jared's birthstone and her name engraved in it. Jensen had saved up for months to buy it because Jared always bought cheap jewelry that broke easily.
Jensen wanted her to have something beautiful, but it was worthless now. She shoved the box under her bed with her pictures. She had the rest of the summer to forget about Jared Padalecki. And she was going to make it happen.
College started in the fall and Jensen wasn't going to let anything ruin the fun she planned to have.
~~~~~~
"Jenny!" Mike called out from across the suite. Jensen was on her way to drunk but still not ready to talk to Mike about anything.
Apparently she had no choice, though, because Mike sat next to her and shoved a shot of something neon green into her hand. She shrugged and downed it.
"Mm, what's goin' on?" she asked once the burning went away. Jensen looked at Mike with blurry eyes, unsure if her contacts were missing or if it was the alcohol.
"I need you to do me a favor. I have a friend who been having trouble being real social. She won't come out to any parties, just sits in her room and studies all the time. Think you can meet her and try to teach her how to have fun?"
Jensen shrugged. She'd been having a lot of fun since she got to UT. Mike brought her to all the best parties, she studied with Misha, and Danneel took her shopping every so often. She'd made other friends too, with some guys in her Linguistics class and people from the gay-straight alliance, which was surprisingly big for a college in Texas.
"Sure, why not. I'm a good samaritan. I'll show her how it's done."
"Great!" Mike said, and there was something about his expression that Jensen didn't like, but she ignored it.
"Where is she?" Jensen stood up and fixed her shirt, which was riding up and showing way too much skin. Some guy was staring at her chest and she flipped him off, scowling.
"Probably in her room. It's just one floor up."
"Lead the way!" Jensen let Mike lead her up the stairs, stealing an unopened bottle of booze from a random cooler on her way out. She had to hang onto Mike's arm as they walked up, but he was one of the few guys who weren't constantly staring down her shirt, so it was okay.
Because she couldn't see for shit right now - she remembered wearing her glasses to the party and Danneel stealing them for some reason - she didn't see what the nametag on the door said as Mike knocked and it opened.
But she did recognize the beautiful girl staring at them from the doorway, in those adorable shorts that showed off her long legs and a too-big t-shirt that she got from a blood drive. Jensen clutched at her beer bottle and cleared her throat.
"Hey, Jared," she said. Jared just kept staring.
Mike grinned. "Oh wait, I forgot you two already knew each other! What's that? Misha's calling my name, gotta go!" And then he was racing back down the stairs. Jensen sighed.
"Sorry about that. He told me he wanted me to meet a friend of his who was being anti-social and failed to mention it was you. Didn't mean to interrupt...whatever."
"Jared, who is this!" This short, curvy girl popped up from behind Jared, smiling widely at Jensen. "I'm Sandy!"
She was wearing one of Jared's shirts and what looked like nothing else underneath. Jensen felt her jaw clench hard and she shook her head. "Looks like I was interrupting, I'm sorry." With that, Jensen turned and walked away, ignoring Jared calling her name.
Jensen was going to get wasted and find her own girl. Jared seemed to have moved on. Now it was time for Jensen to do the same.
~~~~~~
Turns out that finding a girlfriend was harder than Jensen thought it would be. There were some very nice, willing girls at GSA but none that Jensen was interested in. Danneel offered to be her friend-with-benefits, but Jensen was too scared of messing up their friendship. She'd already lost Jared.
So instead she just kept going to parties and hanging with Mike and Misha, who had recently - finally - gotten together. They were happy as hell and had fun shoving their relationship in everyone's faces...particularly the homophobes who kept calling Misha a hippie fag.
One memorable night happened shortly after midterms were over and they were all hanging at a bar that was pretty lax on carding. Jensen, Danneel, Mike, and Misha were all having fun, playing darts and drinking.
Then one guy caught Misha talking to his girlfriend about yoga and took offense.
"Stay away from my girl. You can't have her," the guy - Jensen thought his name might be Aaron - said, grabbing onto Misha's shirt. Mike rolled his eyes and stood up, starting for them. Jensen just watched.
"You sound like a five year old bitching about his favorite toy. And man, she's not your property. She's a human being, and we were just talking about yoga. You should think about taking it up. It really helps with anger issues." Misha smiled warmly.
Aaron growled and got into Misha's face. "I'll show you anger issues, you asshole!" He pulled back his fist, ready to cause some real trouble, but before he could do anything some hulk of a guy grabbed onto him and pulled him off.
"You're out of here. No fighting in this bar." Aaron was thrown out and Hulk came back over.
"Sorry about him. This happens...way too much actually. Should probably ban him." He shrugged and smiled at their group. "I'm Tom. Sorta the bouncer for this place."
Misha brushed himself off and held out his hand. "Misha. Thanks for saving my pretty face."
"I'd like to second that," Mike said, clapping Tom on the shoulder, and Jensen just knew that Tom was going to be joining their little group. She sighed and looked at Danneel.
"We need to find some girls to hang out with. All this testosterone is making me sick."
"Good luck with that," Danneel said, smirking at her. "I just found a lovely lady I'm going to take back to our dorm tonight."
"No," Jensen said, following Danneel's eyesight. The girl was hot - tall and slender with a great smile and dark hair - but Jensen refused to let Danneel exile her for sex. "Nuh uh, Danni, we agreed that there wasn't going to be any of that."
"Changed my mind. Sorry!" She disappeared into the crowd and Jensen sighed. Now she had to find a ride home and somewhere to sleep for the night.
Jensen managed to get back to the dorm relatively quickly for a busy Saturday night. It was pretty fortunate that the bus stopped right outside the bar and she had some cash on her. She changed from contacts to her glasses, pulled on a comfy pair of pajamas that weren't too revealing, and shoved some books and her laptop in her bag. With a sigh, she grabbed a blanket and her pillow too. The couches couldn't be all that bad to sleep on.
When she ventured out to the lounge on her floor, it was already occupied by a group of guys playing Dungeons and Dragons. She decided to go to the next floor and she had just stepped out of the stairwell when she ran into Jared. Of course.
Strong hangs grabbed onto her arms to keep her from falling and Jensen resisted the urge to grab back at her and hold her close.
"What are you doing up here, Jensen?" Jared asked, looking down at her.
"Danneel's bringing a girl back to the room and I wanted to get out of there before I saw anything too pornographic." It was pretty amazing how long Jensen had gone without seeing Jared at all, considering their rooms were just a floor apart. Apparently she was just really good at avoidance.
"Oh. Do you have somewhere else to stay?" Jared finally stepped back. Jensen could still smell the apple perfume Jared loved to wear.
"No, but I'll figure something out, I'm sure." She shrugged and glanced down towards the lounge.
"You can stay in my room," Jared said hesitantly. "I have a single, but I also have an air mattress for when Sandy stays over."
Jensen went tense at the mention of Sandy, she couldn't help it. Jared noticed and bit her lip.
"Look, Jen, Sandy's not...we're not together. She's just my friend and she hates her roommate, so she stays over a lot."
"Okay, whatever," Jensen said. "It's not my business who you date anyways, is it?" She couldn't help the way her chest loosened at that though. It was ridiculous, to feel relieved that her ex-girlfriend was just as single and alone as Jensen was.
"Right," Jared sighed. "Just...come on, you don't have to sleep in the lounge. The couches are disgusting. I know for a fact that Chad's had sex on one of them."
That pretty much sealed the deal for Jensen. She was not taking the chance of sleeping on a couch that anyone - especially Chad - had fucked on before. "Fine, okay."
She caught the hint of a smile before Jared turned away and headed for her room. Jensen followed her, hitching her bag on her back. She idly wished that she had worn something sexier, but that was stupid. Jared didn't want her anymore.
"So, how have you been?" Jared asked as Jensen laid out her blanket and pillow on the air mattress. It was small, but it'd be better than a dirty couch in the lounge.
"Fine," Jensen answered, grabbing out her book. It was some stupid lesbian erotica book that Danneel had given her as a graduation present before Jared broke up with her. Jared used to read it out loud to her and they'd giggle over how bad it was. But it was fun and Jensen had told herself that she wasn't going to let those memories ruin it for her.
Maybe it had been a bad idea to pull it out in front of Jared. Because now Jared was looking at her sadly, hands clenched into fists. "Jen, we should..."
"No," Jensen said. "We shouldn't do anything right now but sleep. I'm tired and still sorta drunk. It's over, Jared. That was your decision. You can't...you can't change that."
"I know," Jared whispered, then shut off her lamp and climbed into bed. Jensen wasn't in the mood to read anymore - not that she could in the dark anyways - so she curled up under her thin blanket and tried to fall asleep, listening to Jared lay awake in her bed. It was awkward and this was such a bad idea, but now she was stuck here so she might as well make the best of it.
Try as she might, though, Jensen didn't fall asleep for another few hours. When she woke up, Jared was gone and there was a note on the door telling Jensen that she was at work till one, but it was fine to leave the door unlocked.
Jensen thought for a long moment about looking through Jared's stuff to see if she could find any explanation about why Jared had broken up with her, but it was almost one and she didn't want to be here when Jared got back. She gathered up her stuff and went back to her room, which was empty and barely smelt like sex.
Thank god for small favors.
Unfortunately Danneel came in about five minutes later, wrapped in a towel and wet from her shower. Jensen snorted. "You have like five hickies on your chest. Classy."
Danneel shrugged. "Sophia's a biter. It was hot."
"So you had a good night, then?" Jensen asked.
"God, yes," Danneel said with a wicked grin. "The things that girl could do with her tongue..." She paused and looked at Jensen. "Where did you stay last night? I looked for you in the lounge because I figure you'd be stupid enough to sleep there."
"Nah, I...found a friend who took me in."
"What friend? All our friends were at the bar last night."
"I have friends other than you guys," Jensen said defensively. "Give me some credit here."
"Uh huh. Who was it, Jenny? You looked exhausted."
Jensen sighed. "It was Jared, okay? I ran into her when I was on my way to the lounge upstairs. I slept on her air mattress."
"Oh, sweetheart," Danneel started, reaching out for Jensen, but Jensen shook her head and pulled away.
"It was fine. She tried to talk to me about shit, but I blew her off and we just slept. That's it."
"Why'd you blow her off?" Danneel frowned. "You could have got some answers about why she broke it off with you."
"I don't care anymore, Danneel. It was months ago and I'm over it."
"Do you feel like a big girl, telling your big girl lies? C'mon. I know you're not over her. And she regrets breaking up with you, too."
"How do you know?" Jensen asked. "Have you talked to her?"
Danneel looked down and sighed. "Yes, Jen. I've talked to her. I'm your best friend and I hate that she hurt you, but me and Jared are friends too. She won't tell me why either, but she wants you back. So just...talk to her, please?"
"Maybe. I'm not promising anything, but if I run into her again soon, then I'll talk to her, okay?"
"Fine," Danneel said. She dropped her towel and got dressed. "Now let's go get some food, I am fucking starving."
~~~~~~
It was almost finals time before Jensen ran into Jared again. This time she actually had been going out of her way to avoid the other girl because she just wasn't ready to have that discussion with Jared.
Jensen was depressed after Jared broke up with her, then angry, then she just tried to forget about it. That had worked, for the most part. Sure, Jensen still missed Jared and wished they'd never broken up because she was still so damn in love with the girl that it hurt whenever she remembered how thing used to be....
So maybe it wasn't work at all, but Jensen was good at pretending. That's why she wanted to be a writer.
When she finally ran into Jared again, it was right outside Jensen's room. Jensen was coming back after a long day of classes and ready to pass out, and Jared was just...standing there. Like she was waiting for Jensen.
"What are you doing here?" Jensen asked, keeping her tone even.
"Waiting for you. Danneel told me you wanted to talk?"
Damn her. "Right," Jensen sighed. "Come in."
She let Jared into her room, glad she and Danneel had just cleaned since Sophia was starting to spend more time in the room, when Jensen wasn't there - and sometimes when she was, but luckily Sophia wasn't a big fan of PDA. She gestured to her desk chair and sat in Danneel's, watching Jared.
Jared sat awkwardly, pulling her long legs to her chest and hugging them. Her hair was cut short now, framing her face in messy waves. She looked tired and sad and Jensen thought she may have even lost some weight.
"Are you okay?" Jensen asked without meaning too. "You look like shit, Jared."
"Thanks," Jared snorted. "And...no, Jen. I'm not okay."
"Yeah, well. Me either." Jensen sighed. She had told Danneel, and Mike, and even Jared she didn't want to have this conversation. Not ever. But she was actually desperate to know the reason Jared had just dumped her so abruptly over the summer.
"Tell me why you did it."
Jared let her legs drop down and tangled her fingers together in her lap, not looking at Jensen. "For some really stupid reason that's going to make you hate me even more." She took a deep breath and Jensen stayed silent, just waiting.
"I told my mom I was a lesbian. I told her I was with you and happy and she...she pretended it never happened. She just walked away and did the dishes, made dinner, and...and then told me I should start trying to date some nice boys and think about my future." Jared shrugged. "She kept inviting guys over to the house after that, trying to get me to like them and ignoring me whenever I told her I had a girlfriend."
Jensen frowned. "You never told me about any of this, Jared."
"I know. I just...I wanted everything to be okay. And I didn't want you to worry because we were so happy."
"But I would have wanted to know this. You told me everything, and you didn't think I wouldn't have wanted to know that your mom was trying to set you up with guys?"
"I'm sorry, Jen, I really am. It was stupid, but she was already all disappointed because I wanted to keep the name my alcoholic father gave me, and because I wanted to stay close to home and go to school to be a computer programmer. I couldn't take her being disappointed in me anymore."
"So you broke up with me instead of telling me?" Jensen didn't know if that made Jared's decision better or worse. It hurt that Jared didn't trust her, but at least it wasn't anything Jensen did.
And...and at least it wasn't because she didn't love Jensen anymore.
"I'm sorry. I can't ever tell you how sorry I am that I broke up with you. I should have told you, I know that, and I really fucked up." Jared swallowed. "But...could you try to forgive me? I miss you, Jen."
Jensen wanted to say no, because she was still hurt and confused by everything...but she couldn't refuse Jared. Despite everything, she still loved her and understood why she did it. Sort of.
"I'm...I'm not saying we're back together, Jay, but...yeah. I forgive you." She took Jared's hand and squeezed it gently, smiling. "We can work on being friends again, okay?"
Jared's entire face lit up and it struck something deep within Jensen. She was still so damn beautiful. "Okay. Yeah."
~~~~~~
Finals were hell but Jared was a great study partner and kept Jensen from staying up too late and going out to parties when she shouldn't. She managed to pass all her classes and they all drove home in Mike's van, singing Christmas carols really badly.
Jared was the loudest of all of them - and the most off key. She was smiling, though, bright and happy, so Jensen couldn't make herself care too much.
"Can you drop us both off at my house?" Jensen asked Mike when they got close to home. Jared tilted her head at Jensen and Jensen shrugged. "I have some stuff for you."
"Oh," Jared said softly, running her fingers through her messy hair like she did when she was nervous. "Yeah, okay."
Jensen knew why she was nervous - she thought Jensen was going to give back all the stuff Jared had ever given her and all the stuff Jared had left at the house. Which had been tempting before, when Jensen was still angry about everything. But at Thanksgiving, Jensen had gone through all that stuff and made a decision.
She forgave Jared for screwing up with their relationship. Jensen couldn't imagine being in her situation and she knew it had been hard on Jared. And after everything...she still loved Jared. Maybe she was setting herself up to be hurt again, but Jensen knew she couldn't be scared of that and still hope to have Jared again.
When Mike let them out at Jensen's house, they brought their bags inside. Jensen's mom greeted them, surprised to see Jared even if she didn't show it.
"How was your first semester?" she asked them as they toed off their shoes in the doorway.
"Good," Jensen said, looking over at Jared and smiling widely. "It was good, Mom."
Jared nodded in agreement, still looking nervous but smiling anyways.
"That's great! Are you hungry? I was on my way out to grab some groceries."
"Anything but pizza," Jared said. "That's all we've lived on these last few weeks."
"Seriously, it was ridiculous. But we didn't have time to do anything but order out while we were studying."
Jensen's mom laughed. "Okay, no pizza. I'll make pork chops then. You girls be good while I'm gone!" She pulled on her coat and left with a kiss to Jensen's cheek.
Jensen grinned. If this went the way she was hoping, she wouldn't be obeying her mom at all.
"C'mon," she said, and led Jared up to her room. Jared climbed the stairs hesitantly, too slow for Jensen's patience, so Jensen grabbed her hand and pulled her along faster.
Once they got to Jensen's room, Jensen closed and locked the door behind them. Another thing she had done over Thanksgiving was put up the pictures she'd shoved under her bed last July. There was a huge collage of her and all her friends - Danneel, Mike and Misha, Jared - and more recent pictures too, from the parties she'd gone to at school.
"I like what you've done with the place," Jared said, looking at the pictures and smiling widely. "You took most of these, right?"
"Yep. Lots of Kodak moments going on at school. Mike introduced me to some of the craziest people."
"That's what Mike does," Jared pointed out, grinning. She brushed her fingers over a picture of her and Jensen leaning against each other, smiling. "I can't believe you kept the ones of me. After what I did."
"Shut up," Jensen said, shaking her head. "Honestly, I was going to throw them away, but I just shoved them under my bed until I was home for Thanksgiving. I'm over it now, Jay. We're friends again, right?"
Jared looked over at her, hopeful and trying not to show it. "Yeah, we are." She looked down at Jensen's desk, and Jensen saw the exact moment Jared noticed her Christmas present.
"You got me something?" she asked. "Jen, you shouldn't have."
Jensen shrugged. "It was actually going to be your birthday present. But you're here now, so...open it."
"Are you sure? I mean...Christmas is still over a week away and--"
"Just open it, okay?" Jensen said, cutting her off. "I want you to open it."
"Okay," Jared said, then carefully pulled open the wrapping paper, making sure not to tear it. Jensen knew Jared was usually the type to rip into her presents eagerly, so this made her belly clench up, hopeful that what she was planning would go over well.
Jared opened the box slowly and gasped when she saw the bracelet. "Oh, Jensen, you...you're amazing, this is too much. I don't deserve this."
Jensen scoffed and moved closer to her. "I want you to have it. I bought it for you because I knew it would look beautiful on you, and that hasn't changed." She exhaled slowly. "And neither have my feelings for you."
Setting the box down, Jared looked up at her. "What do you mean?"
"I mean...I still care about you. I still want to be with you." She took Jared's hand. "I never got over you, okay? I've moved on from how it ended and I get why you did it, but that doesn't change the fact that I want us to be together again. Maybe not exactly how we were before, but something like that."
Jared was just staring at her, disbelieving. Jensen had run out of words though, so she just...leaned in and pressed her lips to Jared's, soft and hopeful.
It didn't take long for Jared to start kissing back, her long fingers sliding into Jensen's hair and holding her there, tongue swiping over her lips before pressing inside. Jared's kisses felt even better than Jensen remembered, deep but unhurried.
Jensen somehow navigated them back towards the bed and laid back on it, pulling Jared on top of her and sliding her hands under Jared's shirt. She could feel goosebumps break out on Jared's skin as her fingers glided over her sides. They both shivered and Jensen laughed softly.
"Missed this," she breathed, lips brushing over Jared's jaw and up to her ear, inhaling the scent of her shampoo. Jared still used coconut. At least that hadn't changed.
"Me too," Jared whispered and pulled back so she could get her shirt off.
Jensen could swear Jared's chest had grown since the last time they were together. She cupped her hands over Jared's simple blue bra, the weight of Jared's tits in her hand heavier than she remembered.
"Nice." Jensen pulled off her own shirt, a little jealous that Jared had grown up even more while Jensen was still stuck with a B cup. Then Jared hands were on her, squeezing gently and moving back to unhook Jensen's bra and she didn't really mind who was bigger once Jared's tongue was running over the crease of her tit before her lips closed over a nipple and sucked. "Oh fuck, Jay, yeah."
She felt Jared's smile against her skin as she moved her mouth to Jensen's other tit, tongue sliding along the stark blue veins obvious on her pale skin, tongue rubbing over the hard nub of her nipple before she bit gently. Jensen felt her pussy go wet and hot and squeezed her thighs together, trying to get some friction from her jeans.
"Still so fucking gorgeous," Jared breathed, her hands sliding over Jensen's belly to the top of her jeans. "Wanna just lay you out and get you off till you can't move anymore."
"I'm totally okay with that," Jensen laughed. She lifted her hips when Jared started working on her jeans, wiggling to help Jared out a little. Then she was just wearing her favorite pair of soft green panties, sticking to her cunt from how wet she was. "You need to get naked too."
"Okay," Jared said easily. She got off the bed and unhooked her bra in the front, revealing her perfect tits. Jensen squirmed slightly and watched as Jared slid off her sweatpants. She wasn't wearing any underwear.
"Naughty!" Jensen grinned and sat up, reaching out to grab onto Jared's hips and tug her close. She nipped at Jared's belly, which was softer than it was when Jared was constantly playing sports. She didn't mind. Her hands cupped Jared ass and squeezed. "Wanna get my mouth on you. Is that okay?"
"Please," Jared said, practically whimpering. She laid back on Jensen's bed, spread out over Jensen dark duvet just how Jensen always loved to see her.
Jensen crawled forward on the bed and got down on her elbows between Jared's legs, fingers sliding over the sparse curls between Jared's legs. Jared used to always keep herself trimmed clean when they were together and the fact that she hadn't bothered recently didn't turn Jensen off at all. It just reassured her that Jared hadn't been with anyone else.
Jared was embarrassed though, blushing and looking away. "Sorry, I didn't think..."
"It's more than fine, Jay," Jensen said, ducking her head to kiss Jared's thigh. "You don't have to be bare to be sexy to me, okay?"
Jared looked down at her. "Are you sure?"
"Positive." Jensen smiled and leaned in, using her thumbs to spread Jared's pussy. She was so wet already and Jensen just had to lean in and lick, get Jared's taste on her tongue. It was just as good as she remembered. She let out a soft moan and pressed her face closer, sucking at Jared's swollen clit and pressing a finger into her.
Jared's legs fell right open, letting Jensen get as close as she wanted while Jared went wild, grabbing at Jensen's long hair and arching her hips. She was making a lot of noise and Jensen was so glad her mom was gone because there was no mistaking what was going on here.
It didn't take long before Jensen had three fingers in Jared's cunt and her tongue working hard on her clit. Jared's fingers were twisted tight in Jensen's duvet, and she was slick and dripping down Jensen's chin. Without warning she went still and let out a cry as she came, thighs going tight around Jensen's head.
Jensen let her down slowly, tongue soothing over Jared's pussy before she sat up and grabbed her discarded shirt to wipe her mouth clean. Jared let out a laugh and pulled Jensen in for a kiss, all dirty and deep.
"Mmm, fuck, really missed that," Jared said when she broke it, panting quietly. "Jesus, it's been a long time."
"For me too," Jensen murmured. She kissed Jared again, smiling into it.
"Your turn, then." Jared grabbed at her hips. "Get up here."
Jensen grinned and yanked off her panties before kneeling over Jared's face. "Like this?"
"Glad I'm not the only one who hasn't been worried about grooming," Jared said softly.
"I'm just lazy," Jensen teased, then wiggled her hips. "Get to work."
"Demanding bitch."
Jared grabbed onto Jensen's thighs and pulled her down until her cunt was pressed against Jared's mouth. Jensen couldn't stop moaning as Jared's tongue worked her over, sucking and licking at her clit until Jensen was shaking so hard she couldn't stay up right, falling forward on her hands. Jared didn't let up though, just pushed two fingers into her and fucked her deep.
Jensen was a mess, practically sobbing as she rubbed her pussy over Jared's eager mouth, so wet she could barely feel the way Jared's tongue was pressed against her throbbing clit. When she came, it rushed through her so fast she collapsed and had to roll to the side so she didn't hurt Jared, hips jerking slightly. Jared grinned and kissed her, reaching her slick fingers down and moving them gently over Jensen's cunt until Jensen melted back against the bed, panting harshly.
"Oh my god, that was awesome," she managed to get out after a few moments. "Jesus Christ, Jay."
"Mmm, I'm a sex goddess."
"Sure, sure." Jensen leaned over to lick her slickness off of Jared's face, then wiped the rest off with her shirt. She pressed a soft kiss to Jared's swollen lips and smiled softly.
"I really am so--"
Jensen pressed her fingers to Jared's lips and shook her head. "No more apologizing. We're letting it all go and we're just going to focus on now, okay?"
Jared nodded and kissed Jensen's fingers. "Okay. Focusing on now."
"And right now...my mom's home." Jensen grinned. "So we should get dressed and go help with the groceries, hm?"
Jared laughed and grabbed for her sweats. "Okay. I'm starving."
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After dinner, Jared called to let her mom know she was staying at Jensen's, and thankfully Jared's mom didn't question it.
The bracelet box was still sitting on her desk and while they were curled up on Jensen's bed, watching a movie on her laptop, Jensen could see Jared keep glancing over at it. Finally she closed the computer and stood up to grab the bracelet.
"Put it on," she said, holding it out to Jared.
Jared hesitated, then held out her arm. "Put it on me," she murmured, looking up at Jensen with a soft smile.
Jensen smiled back and clipped the diamond bracelet around Jared's wrist, then took her hand and kissed her palm gently.
With a soft sigh, Jared pulled Jensen back down and kissed her. "I love you," she said. "I never stopped.
"Me either." Jensen curled up against her side, wrapping an arm around her waist. "I'm not going to lie, I tried to...but I couldn't help it."
"I'm going to make it up to you, you know. I'll do whatever it takes."
Jensen shook her head. "Jay, you don't get it. If I have you, that's enough."
"I'm still going to try."
"Stubborn bitch."
Jared grinned. "You love me. Stubborn bitchiness and all."
"I can't take it back, can I?"
"Nope! And you don't want to."
Jensen couldn't help but grin too. "No, I really don't."
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