2010

[lustforcontrol]

As the year draws to an end, tell me a secret about 2010 - something you regret, something you're proud of, something you wish you could cry out in the middle of a crowded room but couldn't. Tell me about this year.

Comments

[anonymous]

after three years of this, i finally feel like i don't need my eating disorder to define me....but i don't think this feeling will last.

[anonymous]

I ate a cupcake and didn't die.
But I started purging this year too.

[anonymous]

I've had more fun this year than I have in a long time. In fact, these last 2-3 years that I have been getting better, I've probably had more fun than in the rest of my life put together.

I hate that despite being happy and having a good time, all I am usually thinking about is how fat I have let myself get. I realize that these things are connected. I allow myself to eat/ drink with friends and I have a way better time than if I am starving/ binging alone. But it still bothers me. I can't look in a mirror anymore without getting upset... but I'm still so much happier than I was.

[anonymous]

Mom is having an affair.

Actually, no, I'm not graduating next semester. Actually, I am failing 2 out of 3 classes this semester. Actually, I don't give a fuck anymore.

I have a suicide plan. If things keep getting worse, like they have been, I might actually go through with it. Either that or pack my things and run far far away, cut off all contact with everyone and never look back. I'm not sure yet.

[anonymous]

These past few months have been spent with someone who makes me happier than I have ever been...but I've also been severely restricting again. I hate what I've become.