A friend of mine (restricting anoretic) ended up in the hospital with organ failure. The doctors said she probably would not make it.
I made a promise to myself the night I found out that the next day, I would eat a "normal" amount of food. I figured I didn't have a "real problem", I was just on a "diet" (nevermind the fact that I was emaciated at the time), and that I was absolutely capable of eating just like anyone else.
I couldn't do it. I truly thought I would be able to, but I was wrong.
That was about two years ago. Most days, I still don't think I have a problem, but on that day I knew that it was a problem.
i knew i hated my body but in terms of a full-blow eating disorder: i was in high school, lost about 10 pounds over the course of roughly two months, which meant something to me at the time and nothing to me now. at the time i was like, oh shit! i'm eating so much less, i'm exercising, i like the way i look a lot more, i'm looking at pictures of mary-kate olsen and pro-anorexia websites (i started out just looking at them because they were in the news). this was before i started throwing up. ~if only i knew then what i know now~ at the end of those months i knew. sigh.
When I started taking ice cold baths and sleeping with the temperature at 50 degrees Fahrenheit without blankets, because I had heard you burn more calories when your body is cold.
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I made a promise to myself the night I found out that the next day, I would eat a "normal" amount of food. I figured I didn't have a "real problem", I was just on a "diet" (nevermind the fact that I was emaciated at the time), and that I was absolutely capable of eating just like anyone else.
I couldn't do it. I truly thought I would be able to, but I was wrong.
That was about two years ago. Most days, I still don't think I have a problem, but on that day I knew that it was a problem.
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i was in high school, lost about 10 pounds over the course of roughly two months, which meant something to me at the time and nothing to me now. at the time i was like, oh shit! i'm eating so much less, i'm exercising, i like the way i look a lot more, i'm looking at pictures of mary-kate olsen and pro-anorexia websites (i started out just looking at them because they were in the news). this was before i started throwing up. ~if only i knew then what i know now~
at the end of those months i knew. sigh.
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