my life as list
~ Alright it has come to this -- tomorrow I'm doing the Friday morning class without having reviewed the chapters I assigned to the students. True, I did read them the last time I taught this class, but that's a whole year ago. But being that my memory is officially gone to really & completely mush-state, all prior readings are now rendered invalid and expired. Luckily I can improvise and manage to sound like I know something. Usually.
~ Mammogram is this coming Thursday. I raised a bit 'o hell and now it is going to happen soon. I haven't had time to feel too stressed, scared, or otherwise freaked out about all of the various bad possibilities that are afoot. Too much happening right now to think much (or read or write for that matter). There are moments though, when all the hustle & bustle stops and I find myself alone with my potentially madly and malignantly multiplying cells and that feeling just sucks. I'll be thrilled when I can report the all-clear on the breast issue. Yes I will.
~ My mother arrives in the morning, something that makes me very happy.
~ I also started to see a new therapist today, one who is old and wise and oh so very Jungian. My soon-to-be ex-therapist (who I still have to 'fire' so to speak) was just a bit too text-booky. I haven't read those chapters either, mind you, but could still predict every one of her questions and responses before they happened (that's when you know you are wasting your money). Mr. Wise Jungian (who as it also happens is an official shrink) will not push me towards anti-depressants since he's not into them either. I like him. Never thought I'd be seeing a male therapist, but this guy seems quite amazing & brilliant. I'm in need of amazing & brilliant all around so it seems like a positive change. Be prepared to hear about my dreams.
~ It seems as if I am perfecting the my-life-as-a-list form of LJ entry and am feeling a deep need and pull to write something more fleshy and substantial. I can't promise amazing or brilliant (it's highly unlikely in fact), but I can most likely do fleshy. Hopefully soon.
~ Mammogram is this coming Thursday. I raised a bit 'o hell and now it is going to happen soon. I haven't had time to feel too stressed, scared, or otherwise freaked out about all of the various bad possibilities that are afoot. Too much happening right now to think much (or read or write for that matter). There are moments though, when all the hustle & bustle stops and I find myself alone with my potentially madly and malignantly multiplying cells and that feeling just sucks. I'll be thrilled when I can report the all-clear on the breast issue. Yes I will.
~ My mother arrives in the morning, something that makes me very happy.
~ I also started to see a new therapist today, one who is old and wise and oh so very Jungian. My soon-to-be ex-therapist (who I still have to 'fire' so to speak) was just a bit too text-booky. I haven't read those chapters either, mind you, but could still predict every one of her questions and responses before they happened (that's when you know you are wasting your money). Mr. Wise Jungian (who as it also happens is an official shrink) will not push me towards anti-depressants since he's not into them either. I like him. Never thought I'd be seeing a male therapist, but this guy seems quite amazing & brilliant. I'm in need of amazing & brilliant all around so it seems like a positive change. Be prepared to hear about my dreams.
~ It seems as if I am perfecting the my-life-as-a-list form of LJ entry and am feeling a deep need and pull to write something more fleshy and substantial. I can't promise amazing or brilliant (it's highly unlikely in fact), but I can most likely do fleshy. Hopefully soon.