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dubhlainn

My Weekend (or Oh Shit, Did That Just Happen?)

Sep 08, 2010 14:36

Some of you may remember I have been working with/exploring an idea of building an American Hearth culture. I even created a liturgical calendar. Monday was Labor Day and so this past weekend I did a rite exploring the celebration of labor and the joyous release of the hard labor. While working with with a specifically American hearth it is ( Read more... )

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qorinda September 8 2010, 19:37:55 UTC

I would say that the gods probably opened YOU to the possibility but all the rest was what was to be. Some part of the other wanted it or it wouldn't have happened. The embarrassment is probably just not knowing how to handle the change in your usual pattern - you opened it to a new level of intimacy, even if nothing else ever comes of it. I'm sure all will be well again. Sounds like you have a genuine connection and time will allow that to be the true connection that it is.

Also, a part of me wants to go Woo hoo!!! a dream come true!

dubhlainn September 8 2010, 19:56:36 UTC

Yes, I think some part of him wanted it to happen as well. We are always very flirty with each other (let's face it, I flirt with everyone) but that night, even before what happened, happened, he had taken it up a notch.

Also, a part of me wants to go Woo hoo!!! a dream come true!

Yeah me too, but since I am trying to keep it on the down-low around our friends, due to his embarrassment, the only people who even know it happened are the three of us that were there and Rich, of course, who does not really know the details.

athenamsb September 9 2010, 10:31:30 UTC

I asked for "help" in a romantic/sexual situation this year, and I got it. It's a very long and personal story, but it changed everything between us, and I still don't know if it is good or not. I mean, I have been good, and I can see how time apart has been good for me, but I'm still not sure how I feel overall. Sorry for the cryptic message. I just mean that if you want to exchange stories and discuss this more, this concept of the Gods intervening in physical relations, we should do so off list.

Don't regret the experience. It was beautiful and should be treasured. You might just need some time to come back out of your headspace, you two. :) Oh, and ditto Linda's Whoo-Hoo!!

dubhlainn September 9 2010, 20:33:52 UTC

Thanks Missy!

It was good and, in it's own way, beautiful. It is hard for me though. You know me, I love to talk things through. Listen and share. My friend can't give me that right now. He is also (even though he is, Gods, A LOT younger then me) much more experienced sexually. For me every encounter is sacred. I am not saying every encounter is with someone I love like I do him but every encounter means SOMETHING. It is killing me not being able to share that with him.

I know he is afraid that I am going to be all heads over heals and stalkery with him (yes, I made up that word). But really I just want to express what it meant to me. I will probably see him on Saturday and I have no idea what to expect.

athenamsb September 10 2010, 01:04:43 UTC

Expect him to be your friend, and give that to him in return. He may be weird at first in anticipation of how you're going to be, so give him the gift of returning to friendship at its best, and he will relax, too. :) And then squee again when you get home. >:)

Sigh....I think I am going to email you this weekend.

just_lisbet September 10 2010, 04:55:23 UTC

Hi, just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you, and seconding what Linda and Missy both said. And just be your natural friendly self with him, and the awkwardness should go away in time, once he realizes you're not going to be stalkerish or anything:)

Anyway it sounds like you received a beautiful blessing from the gods that night, and I am happy for you!