im finally fucking HAPPY
and this is the best feeling
ive ever had
in my entire life.

i wish they could put this feeling in the form of a pill. id be hooked for life. who knows?

hes doing coke again
and im sorry to say, but i wont be saving him again this time.

shit fuck fuck.
mother fucking fuck,
goddamn son of a bitch.

hello world.

it will all be ending very very soon.

I never thought I'd turn out like this.

I'm pathetic. like, I hear myself talk and I hate everything I say. I hate how I feel.

my goal is to stop caring, as bad as it sounds. I'm shutting down on 2/13/07 at 11:24 pm. goodbye.

I have no time. There are 168 hours in a week. I spend an average of 40 working, 40 at school, 56 sleeping. So that leaves me with about 4 hours free everyday.

Fuck that shit, man.

Christmas is a depressing time.

Something happened. It's killing me. I can't show it. I have this lump in my throat.

It feels like I'm falling apart.
I hate you for this.

You get one million brownie points for trying to fuck an actual girlscout.

Find someone who isn't six years younger.
You pathetic mother fucker.
I hope it rots off.

I hate you

My heart is playing this sick game with me.

My solution to this problem is going to be a hard one to make up.

But you're making this choice much easier.

you, I hate you.