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[drummerboy1031]

How can people be so happy being and doing nothing worthwhile? Am I the one missing the message, trying to be something great so hard that I'm missing this empty happiness? I don't want empty happiness. I wonder everyday why I am the way I am, why do I think like I do, why do I look at other people and see their drunken smiles and question why I

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[televised_war]

it's okay, i go to one of the biggest party schools in the state and it's kind of embarrassing to admit, but i don't really have many friends, or none that i'm very close to or hang out with, anyway. i feel like a lot of the people in my classes are assholes that just party all the time in the company of other assholes, that that's all their lives revolve around, and that they aren't very nice people. i wonder what kind of life experiences they really gather from their experiences and each other. people say that you meet the person you marry in college, that you make the kind of friends you invite to your wedding and baby showers, but it's weird. not me. i feel kind of different from most of the people i meet here and it's pretty lonely.

not only that, but i kind of hate the idea of learning all of this stupid stuff so that i can gear up to join the workforce and do the same thing forever and ever until i can retire. it just sounds bleak and tiring.

i don't know why i just wrote you a novel in an lj comment, but it kind of hit home.

[drummerboy1031]

I enjoyed your novel very much, Hope. Those thoughts in my entry plague me everyday. I'm lost and I don't know what to do about it. Maybe I'm destined to just float on, but that's hard to believe when I have a hard time believing in destiny. Hah. Oh what lives we live.

[el_cubano]

the fact that i could possibly work a job that i hate till retirement scares the fuck out of me. i enjoy hanging out with my friends, and partying but i guess thats kinda why i started slacking in college so much. i was terrified of finishing and becoming another statistic or something i never wanted to be.

im not happy with my major (let alone my life at the moment), but i chose it because its the realistic thing to do. im not a realistic thinker (in my opinion). i want to do something that i love, and i think most people should. im 21 years old, living at home with my parents, working at an ice cream shop trying to figure out what to do with my life. but i believe ill figure it out eventually.

i hope this made sense lol.

[drummerboy1031]

To be honest, I totally agree with you. I wish I could just stay the careless and young person that I am now because I wholeheartedly refuse to work a job that makes me miserable. I want to write, I want to teach, I want to leave my mark on this world and maybe spark a few glimmers of hope and wonder in the disillusioned eyes of the future generations of America, and even the world. This task seems so impossible to me, but I'd rather fail trying to do that than work for some money-hungry war-mongering American company.

You will figure it out, I was listening to music on shuffle the other day and the song "Someday never comes" by Creedence Clearwater Revival came on. Give it a listen, it cleared a few things up for me.