phyllis seems to have awoken from a months-long slumber. for the first time since cold weather set in, she has finally arisen from her post in the laundry room and rejoined the living. she and fitzwilliam were playing together last night! they love the hanukkah cat toys camille brought home. phyllis was juggling the dreidel on two legs while fitz ( Read more... )

is it just poets that get stuck on seemingly meaningless, trivial things, and turn them into weighty life metaphors? i don't know, but there is about a teaspoon of water that is driving me crazy at the moment. it's stuck in my middle ear, in the curve of a canal, behind a wall of wax. it is inhibiting my sense of hearing and balance. it's making me ( Read more... )

it seems you let the cerebral cease ( Read more... )

waiting to go into demo, where they are going to explain our practical final. we have to demonstrate classical knife cuts, break down a chicken, make perfectly clear consomme, rice pilaf, blanch green beans, and i don't even know what else. it's stressing me out. i know i'll be fine. i'm mostly nervous about getting the consomme clear and grease- ( Read more... )

"i am the walrus". this song popped up on the animal collective station on pandora. i can see why. the association i have with it is this: one hot summer in new jersey, must have been 2006, it seems i was always driving around in my first car, edith, a 1986 buick skylark. digital speedometer, cassette player, plush seats, bad brakes. five hundred ( Read more... )

haven't cooked in a few days. probably won't til lab friday. it's pan-frying this week. we're doing trout, with boiled rice, sauteed zucchini, beurre blanc and red pepper coulis. the only thing i'm a bit nervous about is the beurre blanc. we made it towards the beginning of the semester, and i honestly don't remember it at all. feels like a billion ( Read more... )

oh gee, i can't believe i let this happen again. but i think it is time to once again bring this livejournal back to life after leaving it out in the cold forever ( Read more... )

i've always been familiar with the sentiment of ambivalence, but i've never felt it more acutely than i do now. i feel so incredibly uncertain of everything in my life. i feel as though the rug has been pulled from under me when the rug wasn't even complete. i don't know if i want to do great things or if i want to just be. i can't tell if i'm hot ( Read more... )

i've spent all afternoon and evening in the kitchen. making good use of my brand new mixer, starting on christmas tins, listening to music, enjoying time to myself for once. i made meringue cookies, a double batch of whole wheat sandwich bread, and ganache for truffles. now i'm cooking up some rice and urad daal for dinner. had an appetizer of ( Read more... )

it has actually been nine weeks since i've posted. the sort of thing started happening where i felt guilty for not posting, but then i felt like i couldn't post because it had been so long ( Read more... )