yesterday ( Read more... )

my first day back @ school was kick ass!

im HOME. they gave me one last chance. im on intense probation. i guess i'm good now. i fucking hated it there & i'll never go back. ugh. fuck that place i'm never talking about it. anyway- i got my hair cut a bunch.. it's good to be home. chads changed. i don't think i like it.

right now im at a foster home, i have to type fast though.... im going back 2 the childrens home soon............ ill be out thursday, and then uhm either going home or back here. i like it here.. its real nice. ill write when i can.. ahh.. :/ fuck life...

this is my last entry for a while, i'm guessing. tommorow im getting sent away. i'm grounded, so i cant even hang out with my friends one last time. this.. this hurts. ive been crying and cutting for a while. i'm going to miss chad so much.. i'm going to miss everyone so much.. except my mother. my mom hurts me. i cant stand her. knowone helps me ( Read more... )

my entire arm, overlapping in cuts. im disgusted with myself, and i despise my mom.. i need help. i need serious help now. i know bleeding can't be the answer.

happy easter. i need to get some new fucking freinds! uhm yesterday was cool. :)

going to mykes later, ill write in the morning. bye:)

last night was crazy. me and julie went out for a whiiillee... to dennys, to mykes house (smoked.. eh.), to a party thing, and just drove around :) it was fun. makin this spring break count :D goin to a party on saturday for kicks

I miss chad so much it hurts. :( i hope he calls or something soon.

today was.. idk. well, i woke up @ 10. and i went to therapy. and then out to get coffee and food with my mom. i went to school, and chad was different. i was talking to him on the bus and i asked if he wanted to come over, he said "i dont feel like it today". things aren't going so well between us lately. i love him so much it turns to hate. eh. ( Read more... )