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dreamfairygurl

Ode to my screwed up head...

Jun 23, 2005 02:17

So I guess my three days off are coming to an end now. gah! It's sad that I wish I had a few more days off...but I guess I can't do anything about it. At least I only have Thursday and Friday, and then I have Saturday off again. Scary thing is..I haven't checked any of my future shedules! I'm kinda worried about them ( Read more... )

rant, sad, greg, marc and jen

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jensgts03 June 23 2005, 01:57:53 UTC

Jen, I know exactly how you feel. I've told you about my long distance relationship from a while back. It was no fun at all and when we did see eachother it felt wierd for some reason. I vow to not do that again, it causes more hurt than enjoyment. For me it caused more bitterness to be honest. I would bitch at everyone who was sooo happy.

Anyway, it's not helping that the guy I'm sort of seeing lives in Tucson. It's only 2 hours away, but it's not possible to go down there every weekend. Luckily we are nothing serious and won't be at least until I move down there next year. Who knows...

dreamfairygurl June 23 2005, 22:55:45 UTC

hmpf..yea it is a screwy situation. I try to not bitch at people that are happy, because I am truely happy they are happy in life. I guess I just want some enjoyment too.

Well with all the things going on for you lately I'm sure you have your work cut out for you...but I do hope things work out for you too! ^_^

jensgts03 June 24 2005, 15:51:24 UTC

Yeah seriously, you deserve some all the time lovin' too. ^_^

My life is going through a huge change this year so who knows what could come about. I mean, that guy Lee REALLY likes me and I'm happy he likes me how I am now, it's just hard with him being 2 hours away although I've been planning to move down there next year which is totally convenient, but I have no clue what's in store. Guess I can just sit down and see where it all goes.

colorguardangel June 23 2005, 04:47:26 UTC

Jen hunny I'm sorry.. I know how you feel though, JD and I were together two years, and were only physically together for about five or six weeks total. I'm sorry, we know what it's like.. and I know what it feels like to hear all this stuff, and crap.. I also know what it's like to be torn. Marc is a great guy, and I don't want to see you lose that, I almost did because I was torn and it was difficult. You'll figure something out, I know you will.. but I love you, and just tell me that this is all a bit much for you.. you know this is what I was worried about when he left.

dreamfairygurl June 23 2005, 23:10:00 UTC

::sigh:: yea I know, I should have figured that's what everyone was worried about when he left. Even I was worried, but I hoped I could handle it. I guess not.

I'm sorry you had to go through all that with JD. :-( At least you two don't have to deal with it anymore. ^_^ I know I'll try to figure something out. Not sure what it will be...I'm still very confused about stuff. But I know I need to stop stressing myself, coz that might be part of the reason my back was this bad. Thanks for everything hun. I love you lots too!! I hope things get better for you too! <333

colorguardangel June 24 2005, 04:43:47 UTC

just relax hun, and let things work themselves out... whatever is meant to be will be... and you know I'm here if you need someone to listen, cuz I am your friend first, and I will just listen if ever you need.

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dreamfairygurl June 23 2005, 23:11:15 UTC

::sigh:: i know he is...the fact that he is kills me even more that he's so far. I need like mirrors that transport people within seconds..heheh ^_^

dreamfairygurl June 23 2005, 23:16:50 UTC

::sigh::...whether I Like it or not?? Umm...that sounds..uhh...I don't know. I like that you love me, I love you too! I know that it feels to you like I'm your girlfriend. Hon..but also keep in mind that 1. you're wanted me since last summer, 2. like I've said before, you're not used to having a girlfriend around all the time to begin with. But you know all this. It's different for me, however...yea I know and hope I'll make the right choice. Even though I'm still as confused as hell and don't know what to do. Still my feelings are true for you and I do love you very much. You just need to get your ass over here now...so I'm not alone anymore. <3

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dreamfairygurl June 23 2005, 23:31:23 UTC

well I guess you're just lucky to have him nearby. I mean like you said to me, you have just as much right to bitch about not seeing your boyfriend yesterday ( ... )