Time for some deep entries

[drama_angel3189]

So you know how you stay worried about something for a while. Then you tell some people about it.
Then all of a sudden it all works out?

That sounds like my life right now. Then I wonder why am I not telling people earlier? Is it because I don't feel like they should know? That they will think of my differently? That I'm not worth worrying about?

Comments

[kdsorceress]

So I guess I am truly convincing myself that I am not worth your time.

Dude.
*dude*.

You sound like me. You sound a LOT like me. Seriously, you sound exactly like me from a couple of hours ago.

Lets make a deal. You are certainly totally *TOTALLY* worth my time. Whenever you be all uncertain, you should call/e-mail/IM me and be all "Kat I feel worthless" and then I will go "Veronica, you are beautiful beyond all belief, both inside and out. Actually, your insides are probably gooshy and squishy and not entirely pleasant to look at. But the rest is nice"

And you do the same for me, or something. Deal?

~Kat

[drama_angel3189]

Sounds like a deal to me.
And your we are all pretty on the inside in a keeping us alive sort of way.

similar...

[nannyspoons]

I could never keep a journal either - I think 'kids' today are almost told they have to journal- I'd rather read everyone elses - I'm not doing much - but I like to live vicariously and it helps to keep in touch somehow.
The papers you're writing sound exhausting! I never had to internalize so much of my psyc classes....I did feel pretty mentally healthy tho reading about all the stuff people can go thru.

love you - you too Kat!

[harena]

So you know how you stay worried about something for a while. Then you tell some people about it.
Then all of a sudden it all works out?

i discovered an amazing thing during the height of my panic attack era. i discovered that when i felt like a panic attack was coming on, that if i told [trusted] people about it, the attack would all but dissapate. It was like once other people knew about it, it lost its power over me.

i continue to find that if i say something to someone, be it in IRL or on the Internet, i suddenly find that it is no longer as Big as it had been. S'like it was this Huge Burbling thing in there but once it sees the light of day, it shrivels & shrinks.

Now, i realize that probly isn't quite the same thing as what you were talking about but i think it's kinda related so i babbled it at you...

... o O (and yar, you totally aren't alone in the whole "i'm not worth anyone's time" thing ... i almost din't post this ;P)