yeah

[douhave2knowme]

not cool. I am really fucked up. Yeah wish I were sober right now. Anyways so I got to get this out. Yeah no wait thats not what i meant. UGH. Oh like I was saying I had this great talk with a friend of mine that I never really ever get to talk to one on one so my night was made. Ofcourse i was slightly upset that he didn't want to date anyone

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SIGH

[adorableed]

Why don't you just relax, darlin? I'm glad we talked last night, but were you totally honest with me about how you felt?

Re: SIGH

[douhave2knowme]

Yeah for the most part. But when I am messed up things I don't usually say or think have a way of coming out. I am just really hurt right now Edward and I know having a boyfriend won't change it. That is not what I am after. It would be nice to have some idea that in the near future I will have someone who loved me like he did. It is just hard. I am over for the most part but I think what I miss most is our friendship. Nobody really knows what to think of me anymore. I went two months thinking that Mitchell might just be the guy for me right now. Our relationship was good for the most part. He would get upset at something and we didn't really argue we just stayed away and the next day he was calling me hoping I wasn't mad at him. I am trying to go out and have as much fun as possible but it just dosen't feel right anymore. I am growing up and things aren't as petty now as they where in highschool. It's just I have been thru so many changes in the past year I have lost count. I have lost someone I love to an extent and my