Comments | dougalofthewind: Again, I falter. It's an empty day.

dougalofthewind

Again, I falter. It's an empty day.

Oct 12, 2008 19:13

Sometimes, one just desires a different story than the norm, especially when the norm tends to be a reminder of one's personal failures. So this time as another potential relationship failed, I took her out, since I wanted to be able to remember our last date as something good, and then we wandered downtown for a little while. She wanted me to ( Read more... )

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wicked_abandon October 13 2008, 04:48:46 UTC

I'm so sorry you're going through this, again. I know you're the good guy, and you have a policy against being bitter against your exes/allowing bitterness toward them from your friends, but my protectiveness and love for you usurp your want for me to be that nice, which isn't in my nature anyway. :P I hope, even if you don't, that one day these women wake up and realize what they gave up in you.

And one day, when you're sitting in your own little house with Mrs. Gourley-Right, maybe planning your next vacation, maybe talking about whether or not you want kids, maybe even just eating way too much dessert together because you're married now and that means you can be chubby without getting dumped, YOU will realize that you got the better end of the deal in the long run.

dougalofthewind October 13 2008, 06:31:16 UTC

I think, because I can never take it particularly seriously that in some ways it hurts more. Y'know, she was yet another person who lasted about a month. Nobody save Becki ever hung around longer. And the way Becki dodges, I'm pretty sure that in our few stumblings upon one another that she wants nothing to do with me, though I've never found out why. And I suppose I can live with never really knowing.

I don't really want anything horrible for any of them. I just wish my time would come with somebody I could love AND trust to stay. And though fate appears to have other plans, I desperately wish I could have something long lasting now, even if the true one isn't for a long time later, as opposed to just waiting around with nothing ever changing.

dougalofthewind October 13 2008, 06:33:57 UTC

I guess it's harder to maintain any level of self-esteem when this kind of shit consistently happens.

theswex October 24 2008, 12:19:55 UTC

Hey bud long time no talk. Keep your chin up man. Though it concerns me that this keeps happening. If a guy like you can't succeed, how the hell is a loser like me gonna make it?

In all seriousness, if you ever need anything you know where to find me. I can relate to the self esteem thing, though I too have pretty much given up for now on the dating thing. If something comes along cool. If not I've oddly found myself ok with it. Cheyenne can be lonely but I've found ways to occupy myself. I just live in the gym. Lifting massive amounts of weights.

That's definitely good to hear. dougalofthewind October 29 2008, 09:09:36 UTC

You should come up sometime, we'd love to see you. As always, the vice versa remains true. Should I make it to Cheyenne, I'll let you know.
It's always good to hear from you. And you're not a loser. Admittedly though, I'm not sure you have the avenue of opportunity that I should have given the number of individuals our age in constant contact with me, due to the location.

One can only hope our situations change.

Re: That's definitely good to hear. theswex October 29 2008, 22:24:27 UTC

I'm sure one day our fortunes will change for the better. I find the more time I spend in the gym the less I've been worrying about a lot of the BS life throws around. I can say I'm content at the very least. I'll try to find a good time to maybe come to Laramie.