Put it this way, in the hypothetical sense. Supposing something did happen to you -- would you rather leave a legacy for your child as the man who hated himself because of his pain management issues that was out of his control, or would you rather your legacy be the man who was completely and utterly devoted to his child?
I won't pretend to be able to understand everything you've got going on...but I can understand the addiction part. Hating the dependency but fearing what you are without it. I won't presume to offer to be a sponsor; I've been a lousy one in the past, anyway, but if you ever need an ear, feel free.
I thought that there was a difference between being physically dependent and being an addict. That if it doesn't affect your behavior or have a negative impact on your life, you weren't addicted.
Ah see but when I take the pills? I feel better before they've even gone into the bloodstream. Just knowing that the pain is going to go away makes it. It's in my head.
I could always enter your mind and make you believe that there is no pain any longer. Granted, it wouldn't be fun for me to keep it up all the goddamn time -- but it would be far easier than the hurt of your leg or the suffering in your mind knowing you are still addicted.
Emma, I could never in good conscience allow you to do that. Plus even with the pain gone or masked, I still wouldn't be able to do everything normally. There's dead muscle and cut nerves to contend with.
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You can't have both.
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And I hate myself for it.
Hey, you and me both, doc. Turns out we got something in fucking common, even if you do listen to Billy Talent.
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And I thought it was 'Billy Fucking Talent'?
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*snorts* Billy Fucking Tallent is reserved for the man of honour. The band only gets it when they're lucky. Or when I'm pissed.
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*grins* Ah. Thank you for clarifying.
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At least that's what I've heard.
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I've heard it too. It's a lot of grey area.
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