I've got a better suggestion. How about you go finish disappearing up your own asshole and leave the rest of us in peace? Seriously. You never have anything constructive to add, you're a raging, trolly douche, and I'd kill you myself except that a week in Zero isn't worth the few hours of relief from you. I guarantee that almost everyone on the Barge is waiting for the day you wash out and disappear so we don't have to deal with your bullshit any longer.
Short form: shut the fuck up, or I will find you and show you what a real black-magic hex looks like.
Actually, that's not what I was going to say, although with how he trolls I'm pretty sure he gets off on people assaulting him, or at least enjoys whining about it afterward.
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I just...I get why you feel betrayed by the wardens and everything, especially when Franklin got to...after what he did and...I just wanted to say...
Well, for one thing, even though I'm pretty sure Crane had to sleep with someone to get his psychology degree, be careful what you say in his journal without a filter. He'll probably try to use it against you later, if he decides he wants to break you down mentally.
Also, as your warden I don't want you to beat him up, because then it'll be my responsibility to do something about it, and I want to be able to silently cheer on whoever beats him up from the stands.
And believe me, I'm pretty sure there's a line waiting to do that.
I don't intend to listen to that wormy little flatscan long enough for him to get under my skin. Next time I'll just tell him I'm coming after him from the outset and watch him run.
Anyway, I don't plan to be around on this shithole long enough for him to retaliate. I want you to send me home.
If Franklin gets to go home unpunished for what he did to me, then there's no justice in this hellhole. I would rather be dead than stay. Either graduate me or let me go. People far more evil than me should not be allowed redemption while I have to stay.
Wanda...wardens don't actually have the power to do that. It's something the Admiral does without the wardens knowing until their item tells them or something. I guess he does that to keep wardens from cheating and 'graduating' their inmates early to complete the deal.
Unless you mean you want me to get you to where you need to be for the Admiral to say you've graduated.
There's nothing wrong with me compared to the other Inmates. I came here and everyone was mistaking me for a Warden. That dirtbag Iago is even a Warden now. There's no order or logic or fairness to any of this If I can't go...
...then just let me go my own way and don't bring me back.
And no. I know what happened to you, I can imagine how traumatic it was for you. I've had things happen to me that were pretty damn traumatic, too, but the solution isn't to give up. It isn't to break or go crazy or be angry all the time. You learn, maybe you get harder, but you stand back up and go on and make the best of the situation you can, and if that damn bastard ever comes back you kill him.
...except for the kill him part. That slipped out.
People don't choose to break. I just broke. And I don't want to stand back up and go on and make the best of this hellhole. He wasn't punished. The only one hurting and dealing with aftermath, the only one being punished, is me. His victim. And I have to live with it every minute of every day.
You won't give me back what the Admiral took, even knowing what this place is and that it's only a matter of time before someone victimizes me again. In doing that you're a party to the torture I'm going through. You're letting the Admiral fuck me like he did when Franklin graduated without punishment. And yet you claim to care about me.
I need real help, not just empty reassurances and a puppy. What the hell is it going to take before anyone takes me seriously?
Re: [private]tadwizardOctober 6 2011, 01:58:55 UTC
I know. And a lot of the stuff you won't be able to do anything about. Nightmares, flashbacks, all that crap you're stuck with until it goes away. But...you can control what you keep telling yourself. You can keep thinking of yourself as a helpless victim, who will just be victimized over and over, or you can think of yourself as a survivor, who has scars, most of them mental, but who can pull through.
I do care but I'm just worried. What happens if I talk the Admiral into giving your powers back, and he does it during an emotional high point and you lose control? Will that just make everything worse if you get hurt then? And then there are women on the Barge who have no powers, but no one dares mess with them. Rex's sister was like that, and I wouldn't want to mess with Shego, powers or not. Maybe if you found someone to train you in hand to hand combat? And in the movies, martial arts always teaches people like...emotional stability. If that actually works that way, it would also fit in well with power increases.
Short form: shut the fuck up, or I will find you and show you what a real black-magic hex looks like.
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I just...I get why you feel betrayed by the wardens and everything, especially when Franklin got to...after what he did and...I just wanted to say...
Well, for one thing, even though I'm pretty sure Crane had to sleep with someone to get his psychology degree, be careful what you say in his journal without a filter. He'll probably try to use it against you later, if he decides he wants to break you down mentally.
Also, as your warden I don't want you to beat him up, because then it'll be my responsibility to do something about it, and I want to be able to silently cheer on whoever beats him up from the stands.
And believe me, I'm pretty sure there's a line waiting to do that.
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Anyway, I don't plan to be around on this shithole long enough for him to retaliate. I want you to send me home.
If Franklin gets to go home unpunished for what he did to me, then there's no justice in this hellhole. I would rather be dead than stay. Either graduate me or let me go. People far more evil than me should not be allowed redemption while I have to stay.
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Unless you mean you want me to get you to where you need to be for the Admiral to say you've graduated.
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...then just let me go my own way and don't bring me back.
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And no. I know what happened to you, I can imagine how traumatic it was for you. I've had things happen to me that were pretty damn traumatic, too, but the solution isn't to give up. It isn't to break or go crazy or be angry all the time. You learn, maybe you get harder, but you stand back up and go on and make the best of the situation you can, and if that damn bastard ever comes back you kill him.
...except for the kill him part. That slipped out.
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You won't give me back what the Admiral took, even knowing what this place is and that it's only a matter of time before someone victimizes me again. In doing that you're a party to the torture I'm going through. You're letting the Admiral fuck me like he did when Franklin graduated without punishment. And yet you claim to care about me.
I need real help, not just empty reassurances and a puppy. What the hell is it going to take before anyone takes me seriously?
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I do care but I'm just worried. What happens if I talk the Admiral into giving your powers back, and he does it during an emotional high point and you lose control? Will that just make everything worse if you get hurt then? And then there are women on the Barge who have no powers, but no one dares mess with them. Rex's sister was like that, and I wouldn't want to mess with Shego, powers or not. Maybe if you found someone to train you in hand to hand combat? And in the movies, martial arts always teaches people like...emotional stability. If that actually works that way, it would also fit in well with power increases.
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I'll...I'll try it. But...Jesus, Tony, it hurts so bad I can barely move sometimes.
[A long, thoughtful pause as she takes in his idea.]
I want someone to train the living crap out of me. You'll see that I can put the work in.
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