Fic: What in Me Is Dark Illumine

[djarum99]

Title: What in Me Is Dark Illumine
Author: djarum99
Rating: N17
Pairing: J/E
Characters: Jack and Elizabeth
Warnings: AWE, angst and sex
Disclaimer: The Mouse owns them, and has made a handsome profit; I own nothing, and profit not at all
A/N: Well. This was born in a place far distant from the universe of Sympathy and December’s Children, on a moonlit

Comments

[sparrows_swann]

Gorgeous. Both Jack and Elizabeth are just beautiful in this fic even with..no, especially with their flaws, regrets, anger, etc. You represented just how much alike they are, that they do share a connection and they both know it both to their annoyance, but maybe also to their relief. I love exploring the possiblities just what happened between Jack electing Elizabeth and the dawn. And we all know there was something more to that look they gave each other after he elected her in AWE. And that talk about Elizabeth killing Jack was so sadly missing from the movie.
In conclusion, really beautiful, beautiful representation of the characters and the emotions really come through in this one.

[djarum99]

how much alike they are, that they do share a connection and they both know it both to their annoyance, but maybe also to their relief

Yes - I was hoping that relief would come through in this, beneath the bitterness and taunts. They're both looking for that connection again, trying to regain it in spite of not trusting each other at all, at this point.

I don't know what happened at Disney with regards to AWE. How can you make a film in which one major character lusts after another major character, ensures his death, fights to resurrect him, and then - no talkie. Nope. Not a word. Sigh.

Thanks so much for the read and comment ♥

[whitemunin]

Oooh, lovely. There's a bitterness running through this entire story, but with the edge blunted by what these two leave unsaid. So hard to forgive, so difficult to love, but they can't help themselves.

Ya know, I liked Will Turner, truly. A noble character who really came into his own in DMC and showed himself a natural leader of men. But despite all that, I always thought Elizabeth a little too complex for him--that Jack was not only her match but her soul mate. You truly captured that here.

Gorgeous as always. Brava! **winks**

[djarum99]

There's a bitterness running through this entire story, but with the edge blunted by what these two leave unsaid

Yes - that "thing of little consequence" that died; a major revelation, for Jack, in spite of his dismissal. They really can't help themselves, even at this point and as far away as they are from the possibility of intimacy.

Jack was not only her match but her soul mate

No secret that I agree with you there, and no, it's not about Will or any flaws in his character. It's just about what I see in J/E, in the films and in fanfic.

Thank you! And thanks for the Brava *g*

[djarum99]

There's a special melancholy that comes with fall, and I do love Halloween :-)

Jack more masculine, less the poseur than I commonly see in fanfic

It seemed clear to me (well, 'clear' being a relative term when paired with Disney) that the "poseur" aspect of Jack's character was something he overplayed, wore like a mask. It made the moments when he became effective, or deadly (like the Isla de Muerta scene, when he shot Barbossa) real throat-grabbers.

Thanks so much, and a Halloween KABOOM! for Marvin *g*

[fried_flamingo]

Oh this was wonderful. The Milton fangirl in me loved the references.

Jack removing her splinters was sad but so intimate at the same time.

Favourite lines:

You want the world of a tradesman’s wife, a litter of mewling bantlings and a life measured in hours spent waiting for something more, for the wind to remind you of the sea, of what you’ve lost?”

Spot on interpretation. I think Jack would be frustrated with Elizabeth's aparent willingness to accept a life like that when she clearly desires so much more.

He had not kissed her, not once; without the mercy of another sunset, she would always be sorry for that.

Excellent last line and excelent fic. Now, go do your homework!

[djarum99]

Jack removing her splinters was sad but so intimate at the same time

He can't really conceal what he feels for her - he doesn't think about it, just won't let her go into battle without full use of her sword hand. But, he's angry, hurt, doesn't trust her at all.

I think Jack would be frustrated with Elizabeth's aparent willingness to accept a life like that when she clearly desires so much more

Yes. And he desires her, but he also wants to see her in all her glory, free to be the woman he sees.

Now, go do your homework!

Yes, Mom *g* Is it OK that it includes more writing of pirate smut?

[fried_flamingo]

He can't really conceal what he feels for her - he doesn't think about it, just won't let her go into battle without full use of her sword hand

I loved that little touch about the sword hand. It spoke volumes about his regard for her, about his admiration for her as a warrior, about the reality of their lives as pirates and about the feat they are about to undertake.

Yes. And he desires her, but he also wants to see her in all her glory, free to be the woman he sees.

Oh without a doubt! I think this is the thing that makes him desire her most in fact. I think he's almost transfixed by the power she possesses (what a shame they didn't capitalise on that in AWE)

Is it OK that it includes more writing of pirate smut?

Is there any other kind of homework? ;)

Been working on me own pirate smut as it happens. First chapter should be going up tonight so keep 'em peeled!

[djarum99]

I think he's almost transfixed by the power she possesses (what a shame they didn't capitalise on that in AWE)

Yes - one of many flaws :-)

Been working on me own pirate smut as it happens. First chapter should be going up tonight so keep 'em peeled!

Squeeeeee! Thanks in advance *g*

[salr323]

I loved this so much, so very dark and Jack so very angry.

You didn’t kill me - made my own bargains with a host of other demons, long before you crossed my path. ‘Twas something else you killed that day, and a thing of little consequence, at that.”

This quite broke my heart. Poor Jack. I so wanted him to spell it out for her!

This too, is just as I see Jack:

“You’ve no right to answers, Lizzie, no right to know.”

Ever since we've known him, he's played his cards close to his chest. It's right that he'd be more guarded than ever after her betrayal.

Oh, I can't get enough of the angst! :) More on the way?

[djarum99]

I so wanted him to spell it out for her!

That's as close as he can come at this point, but I think that when Elizabeth has the time and the peace to consider his meaning, she'll understand. Unfortunately, neither of them have the luxury of peace or time on the night before that battle. For me, the most heart-breaking thing about AWE was that it became clear to me she truly didn't know that he loved her, until he sacrificed immortality for Will, and for her.

It's right that he'd be more guarded than ever after her betrayal

Oh, yeah. He condemns himself in the locker for those aspects of self that make him a good man; his ability to trust, to love, would be high on the list.

There will be angst of a different sort in C.5 of December's Children. I may continue this one, AU to my AU, with another scene after the battle and Lizzie's "one day" with Will, a J/E encounter at the Cove before he sails off with Barbossa. I do love me some angst *g* More from you soon?

[salr323]

For me, the most heart-breaking thing about AWE was that it became clear to me she truly didn't know that he loved her, until he sacrificed immortality for Will, and for her.

You know, I've never really thought of it like that, but you're right. Although part of me wonders if she even knew it then... *ponders*

There will be angst of a different sort in C.5 of December's Children.

Excellent! Can't wait for that. :) And I love the idea of a continuation of this too - I can already feel the pain of their encounter at the Cove before he sails away!

More from you soon?

Because I'm loaded with other projects right now, I decided to write a short J/E Christmas fic. Inevitably, for me, it's turning into a long J/E Christmas fic! With luck, it will be finished by Christmas - if not, it might be a New Year fic. Or perhaps a Valentine's Day fic! ;)

[djarum99]

part of me wonders if she even knew it then...

Perhaps she didn't. Awareness and reflective moments are hard to come by when you're in the middle of a hurricane, focusing on survival, continually in "fire bad, tree pretty" mode. I've always been struck by what she didn't know about Jack; she's seen his trickery and betrayal at least as often as she's seen the good man.

I do hope you're able to gift us with fic for Christmas ♥