Comments | dj_muse: Sometimes...

dj_muse

Sometimes...

Nov 15, 2006 01:33

...I just feel like I'm babbling into empty air.

Epecially when nobody notices.

Today was horrible. Tomorrow will probably set a land-speed record for reaching the same point.

emptiness, desire, loneliness

Comments 9

radioactiveart November 15 2006, 10:15:41 UTC

people are listening.

breathe.

dj_muse November 15 2006, 15:17:10 UTC

Thank you, Tony.

I needed that. You've always been a good friend,a nd I trule appreciate you. Now is a time where I'm trying to just put one foot in front of the other. Sometimes I stumble.

It's good there are people who are willing to help me back up.

sassenach1970 November 15 2006, 20:21:03 UTC

(((((HUG)))))

dj_muse November 15 2006, 21:25:09 UTC

Thank you, Chris. I just feel like I'm swimming through molasses lately.

What really bothers me is how everyone says i'm such a caring person and can't understand why I want to share my life with someone I care about and who cares back and wants to make me happy (too many boyfriends haven't given a thought to how I felt or what I needed). I want someone to care back for a change.

But I'm okay. Trying to look at the positives, and I think i need to get out of the house or I'm going to go insane.

sassenach1970 November 15 2006, 21:44:41 UTC

sweetie, you know you can always call me.... what happened with the nice, quiet boy who came to the party? ... he seemed cool....

dj_muse November 16 2006, 01:07:39 UTC

He was a very sweet boy, Chris. He just said there were "too many things" that were "dark" in me and he couldn't deal with all of them at the same time - he was overwhelmed ( ... )

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dj_muse November 16 2006, 06:16:44 UTC

Thank you, nicole. I'll email sometime soon just because I want to. :)

It's nice to know that people notice, and especially that they care.

Ps - you're right about the internet and your phone - you're a damn hottie and are pervs everywhere. *hugs*

dj_muse November 16 2006, 15:31:13 UTC

I think you put it all in the proper perspective - it takes a man to understand that you are a sum of your experiences, "dark" or "light." I was indeed thinking that going out as DJ Muse and having that confidence is something to attract someone - but you know what? Your "boots bitch" and my "DJ" persona are each an aspect of our personality. Realizing that we can be that confident anytime we want, it's a liberating feeling ( ... )