it always feels like the renewed love and fortitude will never come, but it does... your entries are always so lovely, the recent quote about bauldelaire's speaking of cities and this one, too. i should read him i guess :) thank you :) (i'm going to bolivia to study anthropology and politics for a semester)
i try more and more to be okay with night. to be okay with sleeping in the day and the stress on my body. i try to be okay about the fact that everything changes and grows. everybody changes and grows, people fall in and out of my life.
but the truth is i'm not okay with it yet. i still hold everyone so close.
just promise me that we can both keep trying together.
i love you, good luck in bolivia, and don't be afraid to email. xo.
i've been thinking about you a lot lately. it was so great to see you when you were in california. i loved every moment. i really really did. i miss you. i thought of you when at the sigur ros concert down in hollywood. jonsi came outside at one point and ran across the street to the car with the rest of the band, and he ran similarly to how you do, there was something about it, the way he lifted his shoulders and arms and delicately hopped... i can't describe it... :) if you see them in toronto, keep a look out for his boyfriend alex, selling "toothfaeries" shirts. he is the most beautiful adorable person i have ever met, i couldn't believe it. i fell in love immediately. you are so close in my heart, no matter how much we drift. please email me while i am away, i will respond and be thinking of you xo
I just found out Thea from CSSSA works at the hostel where alex works. I actually met her and I thought she looked AWFULLY familiar but didn't know why & now I know. (alex saw that she was friendsters with you..) a small world, for sure.
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your entries are always so lovely, the recent quote about bauldelaire's speaking of cities and this one, too. i should read him i guess :)
thank you :)
(i'm going to bolivia to study anthropology and politics for a semester)
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but the truth is i'm not okay with it yet. i still hold everyone so close.
just promise me that we can both keep trying together.
i love you,
good luck in bolivia, and don't be afraid to email. xo.
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you are so close in my heart, no matter how much we drift.
please email me while i am away, i will respond and be thinking of you
xo
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This is most amazing.
speechless.
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I just found out Thea from CSSSA works at the hostel where alex works. I actually met her and I thought she looked AWFULLY familiar but didn't know why & now I know. (alex saw that she was friendsters with you..) a small world, for sure.
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