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Wedding: Bliss, Vows, Dress
So I've been working on the wedding a bit. I've changed my mind about a lot of things for the wedding. I was thinking it had to be this fancy, black-tie to-do thing... and I was wrong. That's not what I want for my "wedding celebration". I'd much rather just have some of my closest friends (the ones I grew up with) and my immediate family (i.e. my ( Read more... ) -
Slacking
Okay, I know it's been a while since the last time I posted and I'm sorry. Mara's been taking up most of my time. When I did have a free moment tonight I was going to go to a birthday part at Eric & Ally's house but I didn't leave early enough and everyone was leaving by the time I was getting ready (it's a Saturday night, I figured they'd all be ( Read more... ) -
I won't linger anymore...
If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade ( Read more... ) -
Spinning in my head
Mara is slowly consuming my life - and I love it. I call and talk to Craig maybe two or three times a day and if Mara's awake she talks to him too. She loves to be on my stomach so we're close and I love that time too. My mother keeps telling me not to cosleep, but I want to spend as much time clinging to her like this as I can - before she doesn't ( Read more... ) -
Baby Fever
Okay, so I never though a peice of rotting vein could be such a big deal when it falls off of you - but apparently it can ( Read more... ) -
Finally
I'm finally holding my little girl! She's so beautiful! It's kinda hard to breastfeed and type at the same time, so I'll keep this short.
I was in and out of Vista in 3 days, as promised. I have a session with my therapist on the 25th (not really looking forward to that).
My parents have temporary legal guardianship over her and I can't be alone with ( Read more... ) -
Inducing
So I'm going to be induced tomorrow. I don't know what else to do. People that were supposed to help me failed me - what's the point in trusting anyone anymore ( Read more... ) -
More visitors
Craig was here, he stayed for about an hour. Nancy, the director of the floor said he could stay the night, but it was up to the night director and apparently Baker Acts aren't allowed to have over-night visitors, so he had to go. We didn't know that or we would have had a ride for him. Now we have no idea how he's getting home. He said he was ( Read more... ) -
Coming home...
Craig is on his way here. His flight leaves in one hour. He should be in town by 10 and here by 10:30/11pm. I'm looking forward to seeing him and I told Rich today that if it came down to it, if Craig asked me to take him back I would say yes on the condition that we marry within 6 months. This is simply because I want my daughter to have a better ( Read more... )
