I can't do it anymore.

Lately this realisation had been hitting me over and over again non stop. It's this realisation that I'm never ever going to see my Dad again, and that he isn't coming back. And yes, I probably should have realised that over 2 and a half years ago that day he died. But I didn't and I still haven't. Everytime I think about it I still feel so shocked ( Read more... )

1. I know it's hard, but think of one of your favorites memory of 2008?: Um, my cousins hen night with all my Irish family. 
2. Did you do any community service this year? What was it?: No.

3. Are you planning on making a New Year's resolution? What will it be?: I haven't thought of any yet.

4. How many people have you kissed this year? Who were they ( Read more... )

I don't want to do it anymore. The arguments we have in my house are beyond.
I dont even know where my Mum is at the moment cuz she's just left the house.
I don't know how to deal with all this and to be honest I don't even want to anymore.

Yesterday was my parents wedding anniversary.
And if it made me feel as awful and upset as I did, I can't imagine how my Mum felt.

I just found this on Postsecret


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So, I'm seeing Lauren tomorrow. For the 1st time in over a year. The last time I saw her was the day we said goodbye to each other when she left Hong Kong ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what to do.

I don't really want to be here anymore.

I realised last night that I still know my Dad's mobile number. I hadn't thought about it for a while, but last night, for some reason I did. And even though I haven't dialled that number in over 2 years, I still remember it. I can't even remember my own mobile number, but I remember that.
I mean, until I got a new phone at Christmas it was still ( Read more... )

Happy Fathers Day, Dad.

I spent the whole of yesterday in town with my friends who were all trying to find something for their Dad's for Fathers Day. Apparently, they didn't think enough to realise that would be hard for me to be around.