fic: through the hidden door

[dime_for_12]

Okay, so I almost don't know what this is. Something I started way before the s6 premiere? Check. An excuse for angst? Check. Woobie!Sam? Check...I think (or my version of woobie!Sam, ahahaha). Big brother!Dean? Check (again, my version). This was supposed to be another post-Season 5 returned!Sam fic, and then I didn't finish it, and then I

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[mimblexwimble]

Maybe, if Sam’s really honest, he’d admit he’d thought that maybe they’d both quit. Dean would talk Sam into staying with him, living a normal life like they’ve done everything else. In each other’s pockets, there and brutal and safe.

Sam watches him walk way. He doesn’t follow. Dean doesn’t ask.

Oh, that hurts so hard.

This was so painful but also, perfect.

[dime_for_12]

Ha, those lines gave me the hardest time (I almost cut them so many times), so I kind of love that you quoted them!

Thank you :DDDD

[de_nugis]

This is so dark and unresolved and so heavy with emotion that not only isn't said, it isn't accessible enough to be felt. How do you do the relationship so well, with the stellar distances that are also claustrophobic?

[dime_for_12]

I think it's because I completely *suck* at having them actually talking to each other. More than a sentence and I feel like I'm ... making them OOC, I don't even know :C

I just do angst and silence and then more angst, and then use names.

... it seems to work, ahahaha

[cece_away]

Oh my gosh, this is almost painful to read, but I had to anyway. There are some great great lines in this that just made me hurt. Beautiful writing.

[dime_for_12]

aw, thank you! I don't think I know how to write them any other way, so I'm glad it's working for now *g*

[vail_kagami]

Heartbreaking and lovely. Mostly heartbreaking - I just love the way you write.
And, oh, boys! You make my heart bleed, you really do.
I love how this fic reflects their elemental inability to talk about stuff with each other and always end up hurting.

I wish we would have had something like this on the show, but then, with fics like this around, I'm oddly okay with the anticlimatic reunion of the episode. It was totally not what everyone pictured, and for me that works. (Also, there was something fundamentally broken in the very calm and emotionless way Sam acted, and that works for me too, as long as the show knows where it's going with this.)

[dime_for_12]

thanks :D and, yeah, the *finished* piece came about like it is, simply because I was a little put out about the actual show. I have faith, though, so hopefully the writers know what they're doing. 'Til then, fic it is :DDDD

[faege]

Sam doesn’t say, I was waiting. I was trying to find room in your life to fit me in again.

He doesn’t say, I couldn’t find it.

This broke me.

[dime_for_12]

I <3 quotes :D (and those happen to be my fav.s from this fic, too!)

Thank you for reading!