Drama alert (morning after guilt)

[dibsditch]

Irregardless of any logical thoughts or feelings about a situation, I can't stand being yelled at. I hate it when people are mad at me, whether or not (but especially) when I've done something wrong. And the waiting to talk. The waiting for feelings to pass

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[carerica]

hmm i keep waiting for a mind-stimulator to come along and see what it will do to my relationship.

i don't know if you should feel guilty about it, i mean.. unless you think that eso te hizo faltar respeto a tu relacion. which then, ok you were flirting. sucks.

but then again you start asking questions about being fulfilled and whatnot. which in my opinion are very important questions, vital to said longterm plan.

[dibsditch]

I know, that's a constant danger, the mind stimulator! Jesus.

Bueno creo que getting drunk with a male friend, desagradecimiente, es en si falta de respeto. At least con respeto a la relación latina. Even if you make an argument against that, well, I ditched our plans to drink with D. (and since Ro doesn't drink, he's a little less tolerant of the necessity to descargar via booze).

And, flirting. Ahem. No degree of mental stimulation can cloak it.

The fulfillment, I know! The longterm planning, I know! It is, in general, my weak point, and I begin to just let time pass. But these are also interconnected. I'm not sure I see a LTP in Mexico, or with R., and thus feel more unfulfilled.

What's up with your chico and your move?!

Is gossip as valued in Chile as here?

[carerica]

Yeah i have a lot of guy friends here in Chile, who i've been friends with since before i started dating Cris, so he's pretty accepting of me going out with them. claro but the not showing up thing, eso duele.

i can't imagine being in a relationship with someone who doesn't drink. i'd feel like.. maybe.. judged or uncomfortable or wouldn't drink as much as i normally would.

Mi chico está posulando a magisters en australia. if he doesn't get in he might go to the states. but yeah, whatever happens. i think i'm not too worried. i know it will hurt etc but i'm looking forward to being mentally stimulated at school and that's what i am really missing here in chile.

oh, and chile runs on gossip. cultural lifeblood.

[dibsditch]

Re: dry relationship.
It's funny, right? I don't consider myself an alcoholic but that is important. But that was actually one of the things that first attracted me about Ro, I figured if he doesn't party, he must do so much else! And that he's NA to me meant that he had his shit together (albeit with a fierce dedication to the group). Judged, I guess, a little, but not so much.
I do drink less often but probably not less quantity. Which is ok with me too. At least I thought so.
Lately, I'm admiring relationships like yours. I've got this all-or-nothing pedo. Despite being unable to commit. Ugh.