Life is so beautiful. My words could never give it justice.

I thought Guy wasn't getting out until May but last night he got sentenced and turns out he'll be out sooner than we thought! YAY! =) He sent me over 20 letters in two months and I think I sent him 17. We discussed a plan for him when he gets out so that he can get help with his drinking problem. He's going to be on probation for another year and ( Read more... )

whatever.. fuck the world im going to get drunk and forget that I exist.

My head is in a really bizarre place right now and I've been wanting to post something to just put it out there and maybe see if I get some comments that will make me look at the situation differently, feel support, or just get a comment at all. I've tried probably 2 or 3 times this week but nothing I say seems justified. So then I went to the ( Read more... )

my stress level is unusually high. I do all my homework and get decent grades on everything but i missed class today, due to a lack of enthusiasm to drive there, and forgot i needed to turn in my project that i had finished early and should have just turned it in last class. But im so goddam focused on the fact that ill get a letter grade less now ( Read more... )

The other night I was trying to sleep but guy and his cousin, cousin's wife, and uncle were all up boozing. Guy came into our room and dragged me out of bed. Now I have this gash on my arm and bruises galore. At that point I asked myself, "Self? What are you doing?" So I packed my things and moved the heck out of there. Now I'm living at my parents ( Read more... )

i've been having really weird dreams lately so i've been going to barnes and nobles and looking up what they mean.. it blows my mind how an emotion i feel conciously is set up in a dream situation. Each dream is entirely mine and means something only to me whether i can understand it or not. It helps decipher the hidden problems i find in my own ( Read more... )

so i need a better job.. rite aid is one big fuckin joke.. im getting an apartment in marchish if i can find i better job which i shouldnt have a problem doing. I've been really missing a lot of people so im going to re-connect with many of them shortly.. As for now, im just looking forward to thanksgiving and seeing my grandparents again.. i ( Read more... )

ugh so my car decided not to start the other day = HUGEFUCKINGPAININMYASS.. however.. i got it fixed and i finally can be home.. i stayed at guy's house all last week which was interesting and lovely. His uncle is a riot. Its good to be home so i could get all my chores done and see loki who (as my mother told me) missed me so much that he would ( Read more... )

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sinking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let's turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?