Tomorrow's Way
Title: Tomorrow's Way
Author: Me
Pairing/Subject: YamaChii, Yamada-centric
Rating: PG
Genre: Fluff, Slice of life
Summary: Don't run from the future, don't hope to go back to the past.
A/N: Special thanks for ai_no_messeji and nodoka06 for made me realize what's the most important being a writer. The inspiration is from YUI's song with the same title.
Why did people live?
Eventhough challenges keep come, why they seems enjoy it?
I don't understand. Every minutes, all things changed without everyone know. They easily let their memories fly away like it's nothing. Aren't they thinking to back to the past? When all smiles still there, everyone still same...
I want to destroy those kind of memories.
The end of the past that killing me inside. That haunt me until now, make me notice how small I am in this world. I tried to throw it away, but once I can, I always want to hold them again. Because the memories that I keep, are the most important of my life. Part of things that can make me smile and continue my life as usual. Sometimes I can be so strong, sometimes I can be so weak. Just because those past memories.
What is it? How weird.
What's wrong with me?
Change to be a different person is so difficult, not all people can do it. But me, I can. Slowly I make a big distance to all people I know. I try my best to not look behind, letting the past poisoning my future mind. It's won't gonna be easy, I know. As the sunset gone, I keep looking the darken sky through the window, let everything pass away from my mind. I perfectly realize that I'm hiding the real me from the sociality. I just can't.
Not because I have bad past but... I'm scared of being haunted from my will to have a life like before, a life when everybody still give me the pureness of smile.
Not a fake smile of wanting to get a 'name' for getting my trust, as people know me as an 'Ice hearted guy'. Not like before, they called me 'warm smiled boy'.
Ah, I can't say I don't care. Because I keep thinking about that too.
Life never been easy.
People live under secrets, fake, lies... Is it so hard to spill out one of the truth? Are something called 'fact' and 'truth' so expensive to be said? As someone grow up, the life become so much harder and difficult. Just them who can stand those things and continue this life with a strong will who can face the world.
"Ryosuke..."
As that beautiful voice calling my name, I want to run so badly. I want to run to the future who calling me, leaving the past that I want to get back. But I'm scared of the future. How if it change again. Call me weird then, for being such a baby... scared of future, wishing the past. My self don't ready yet to face it. Although I want to, I'm scared of being lost.
"It's ok for feeling doubt and hesitate. I'm here to tell you, to guide you, what should you do tomorrow, the nearest future we should face. You'll be okay," Yuri hugs me as if I'll dissapear.
No, he just gives me his warm aura, calming me from anything that crossing my mind, for being a weird guy who have a future-phobia. I'm indeed still a kid maybe. Sometimes I can't hold myself to not cry. If I really can back to the past, I want him to stay beside me, so when I want to go to 'recent', 'current', yes... 'future', he'll guide me to the most safe way so I'll safe without losing my way. Guide me with his 'daijoubu'-smile, so I can trust him very well. If this kind of mind-ill can't go away from me, I think it's ok to feel it.
Because Yuri is my life guide, my life's sun, my only medicine to feel better.
I'm doubting nights, I'm loving days. This heartbeat of nervousness for something called 'tomorrow' is so troubling me. Another surprises of destiny that can make me cry instantly. Really, am I this crybaby? What the heck with this dilemma that I feel everyday?
"Yuri..."
I'm walking to a wrong way as panick attacking my mind. Where is the truth? I want to search it. I'm sick already of this life. Pure heart is so rare, where is it? Where...
"Ryosuke!" I get a warm hug, lighten my mind, Yuri sees me with a warm smile can be seen on his lovely face. "Don't let your dilemma take your logical mind away. Nothing's gonna be change. If it is, I'll protect you," he says, as gently helps me to stand up.
He made me believe of the shining future. Yet I can't prove it by myslef, but I'll try to make him know I'll be okay soon. The past of my past, a little boy with such an innocent smile, didn't know how hard the life is yet. Tomorrow's way of life, is what I'm scared of. But as those hands pull me to follow his way, I know I can't back again. But this time I also realize.
Future welcomes me with full of hopes, I don't need to run again. I just need to make what I'm wishing for become true.
This little lover of mine, the one who really know what I'm looking for. Why do I need to run? Truth and fact can be found if I do the best to get them.
The End
It's short... o_o Ha... hahahahha? I'm being crazy lately. Once again, a failed fic from me. Enjoy it!
Author: Me
Pairing/Subject: YamaChii, Yamada-centric
Rating: PG
Genre: Fluff, Slice of life
Summary: Don't run from the future, don't hope to go back to the past.
A/N: Special thanks for ai_no_messeji and nodoka06 for made me realize what's the most important being a writer. The inspiration is from YUI's song with the same title.
Why did people live?
Eventhough challenges keep come, why they seems enjoy it?
I don't understand. Every minutes, all things changed without everyone know. They easily let their memories fly away like it's nothing. Aren't they thinking to back to the past? When all smiles still there, everyone still same...
I want to destroy those kind of memories.
The end of the past that killing me inside. That haunt me until now, make me notice how small I am in this world. I tried to throw it away, but once I can, I always want to hold them again. Because the memories that I keep, are the most important of my life. Part of things that can make me smile and continue my life as usual. Sometimes I can be so strong, sometimes I can be so weak. Just because those past memories.
What is it? How weird.
What's wrong with me?
Change to be a different person is so difficult, not all people can do it. But me, I can. Slowly I make a big distance to all people I know. I try my best to not look behind, letting the past poisoning my future mind. It's won't gonna be easy, I know. As the sunset gone, I keep looking the darken sky through the window, let everything pass away from my mind. I perfectly realize that I'm hiding the real me from the sociality. I just can't.
Not because I have bad past but... I'm scared of being haunted from my will to have a life like before, a life when everybody still give me the pureness of smile.
Not a fake smile of wanting to get a 'name' for getting my trust, as people know me as an 'Ice hearted guy'. Not like before, they called me 'warm smiled boy'.
Ah, I can't say I don't care. Because I keep thinking about that too.
Life never been easy.
People live under secrets, fake, lies... Is it so hard to spill out one of the truth? Are something called 'fact' and 'truth' so expensive to be said? As someone grow up, the life become so much harder and difficult. Just them who can stand those things and continue this life with a strong will who can face the world.
"Ryosuke..."
As that beautiful voice calling my name, I want to run so badly. I want to run to the future who calling me, leaving the past that I want to get back. But I'm scared of the future. How if it change again. Call me weird then, for being such a baby... scared of future, wishing the past. My self don't ready yet to face it. Although I want to, I'm scared of being lost.
"It's ok for feeling doubt and hesitate. I'm here to tell you, to guide you, what should you do tomorrow, the nearest future we should face. You'll be okay," Yuri hugs me as if I'll dissapear.
No, he just gives me his warm aura, calming me from anything that crossing my mind, for being a weird guy who have a future-phobia. I'm indeed still a kid maybe. Sometimes I can't hold myself to not cry. If I really can back to the past, I want him to stay beside me, so when I want to go to 'recent', 'current', yes... 'future', he'll guide me to the most safe way so I'll safe without losing my way. Guide me with his 'daijoubu'-smile, so I can trust him very well. If this kind of mind-ill can't go away from me, I think it's ok to feel it.
Because Yuri is my life guide, my life's sun, my only medicine to feel better.
I'm doubting nights, I'm loving days. This heartbeat of nervousness for something called 'tomorrow' is so troubling me. Another surprises of destiny that can make me cry instantly. Really, am I this crybaby? What the heck with this dilemma that I feel everyday?
"Yuri..."
I'm walking to a wrong way as panick attacking my mind. Where is the truth? I want to search it. I'm sick already of this life. Pure heart is so rare, where is it? Where...
"Ryosuke!" I get a warm hug, lighten my mind, Yuri sees me with a warm smile can be seen on his lovely face. "Don't let your dilemma take your logical mind away. Nothing's gonna be change. If it is, I'll protect you," he says, as gently helps me to stand up.
He made me believe of the shining future. Yet I can't prove it by myslef, but I'll try to make him know I'll be okay soon. The past of my past, a little boy with such an innocent smile, didn't know how hard the life is yet. Tomorrow's way of life, is what I'm scared of. But as those hands pull me to follow his way, I know I can't back again. But this time I also realize.
Future welcomes me with full of hopes, I don't need to run again. I just need to make what I'm wishing for become true.
This little lover of mine, the one who really know what I'm looking for. Why do I need to run? Truth and fact can be found if I do the best to get them.
The End
It's short... o_o Ha... hahahahha? I'm being crazy lately. Once again, a failed fic from me. Enjoy it!