Fandom:Supernatural
Subject:Bela/Meg
Title:Don't Let Me Break You
Warnings/Notes:Brief mentions of torture/blood. Follows canon through season 5 in the explanation, but then veers off. Bela has become a demon for the purposes of this mix, as well, though she's still got her original body ('Lauren Cohen is extremely attractive and I hate recasting' is a good enough reason for this, ok?).
Meg is a demon, snarky, twisted, and loyal to Lucifer, who she views as her god. When the plans for the Apocalypse go south, she becomes a hunted rebel instead of following Crowley, the new king of Hell. She watches out for herself above all others and was one of Alastair's students in torture.
Bela Talbot is a thief ("a GREAT thief"), in the market for items of a supernatural nature. She sold her soul when she was younger to get out of an abusive home life (which resulted in the death of her abusive parents), and has been on her own ever since. She's extremely self-reliant and resourceful; shortly before her deal came due she stole the Colt from the Winchesters and gave it to Crowley, presumably as part of some type of deal.
This is where the mix picks up (I'm firmly in the camp where Bela traded the Colt for a high position in Crowley's new order once he took over Hell). She doesn't foresee any way of getting out of Hell, so Bela decides to make her way up the ranks as quickly as possible; Meg is one of her torturers when she's on the rack, and attraction of a sort develops between them (it's fucked up, but it's demons, so). By the time we actually meet Crowley in canon, Bela is a full-fledged demon and working with him. However, once he begins his reign as king of Hell, he drops those who helped him on his way to the top, including Bela. Looking out for herself, she decides to defect and be a lone demon. Somewhere along the way she runs into Meg again, who lets her stay because there's safety and power in numbers. She even teaches Bela some of her tricks she's picked up along the way. Eventually, they start to trust each other and even fall into a sort of love.
¿Viva La Gloria? (Little Girl) - Green Day
Little girl, little girl why are you crying?
Inside your restless soul your heart is dying.
Little one, little one your soul is purging.
Of love and razor blades your blood is surging.
Run away from the river to the street,
and find yourself with your face in the gutter.
You’re a stray for the salvation army.
There is no place like home when you’ve got no place to go.
Helter Skelter (Beatles cover) - Dana Fuchs
When I get to the bottom I go back to the top of the slide
and I stop and I turn and I go for a ride.
And I get to the bottom and I see you again,
yeah yeah yeah.
Well do you, don’t you want me to make you?
I’m coming down fast but don’t let me break you.
Tell me, tell me, tell me the answer;
you may be a lover but you ain’t no dancer.
Look out, helter skelter!
Feel - Matchbox Twenty
Well, I’m a wreck, I’m a mess, I’m a spot on the pavement.
I’m a number on your wall; I make your soul tired.
And I don’t think I like this game no more.
It goes around and round and round.
I’ll tell you one more time, yeah, one more time.
...
I’m only asking because I wanna know.
How you wanna feel?
Feel It - Jakalope
Is that you doing that to me,
with your stare?
I feel the temperature start to rise and I
really take it from there.
How Strange - Emilie Autumn
I’m more than happy in my candlelight.
How strange, how strange that you
should come to my dominion
in the middle of the darkest night.
How strange, how strange that you should even try.
...
If you can tell me why I should wait around
then I may be coming down,
but until then this means
you can see me in your dreams.
D Is For Dangerous - Allison Iraheta
I can’t leave, oh,
‘cuz I’ll never make it if I’m not living on the edge.
It’s for the risk, it’s just for games,
‘cuz I never want out of this.
You’re taking me under, stolen my thunder.
And I’m all out of fight, I want you to win.
All that I ever was is burning with this lust.
Love is a weapon and it’s turning me to dust.
Hands Clean - Alanis Morissette
You’re essentially an employee
and I like you having to depend on me.
You’re a kind of protégé
and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me.
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian.
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it.
If I Fell (Beatles cover) - Evan Rachel Wood
If I trust in you oh, please, don’t run and hide.
If I love you, too, oh, please don’t hurt my pride like her.
‘Cuz I couldn’t stand the pain.
Love Love Love (demo) - Of Monsters And Men
Well, maybe I’m a crook for stealing your heart away.
Yeah, maybe I’m a crook for not caring for it.
Yeah, maybe I’m a bad, bad, bad person.
Well, baby I know.
Oh, Maker - Janelle Monáe
Oh, Maker tell me did you know
this love would burn so yellow?
Becoming orange and in its time
explode from grey to black then bloody white.
La da die da die da die da die da die.
...
So much hurt on this earth.
But you loved me
and I really dared to love you too.
Perhaps what I mean to say is
that it’s amazing that your love was mine.
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