Yes, so i'm feeling really unloved. I know i can never truly have Erics heart, it belongs to someone else. I don't feel used or anything, just...kind of forgotten. I feel like a shadow, something that fades into the backround. It sucks but hey, so does life. I made this up in Math Class, tell me how you like it ( Read more... )

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You know, right now I just feel like I can't feel love. I can't deal with myself right now. If i had a choice, i wouldn't feel anymore, at least that way i would be hurting. I get hurt so easily, even the smallest things can make me sad. I don't want to be sad. All in all i feel very sad right now. I feel lost,alone,second-rate,shunned, broken... ( Read more... )

OK, now i'm depressed and pissed off. I found out today, a few things about my upcoming summer vacation that i really don't like ( Read more... )

This is getting really annoying! I'm sitting here writing this fucking love story for a fanfiction contest and it sucks cause i'm all lonely and shit. I feel really disconnected from the world cause i don't see anyone after school! Than an i get super horney and i can't do shit bout it! Grrrrr ( Read more... )

God its Sooooo boring over here! I remeber now why i never like being over here longer than two days.The Rock COnert thingy at the school was kool, i really liked the last band, though i have no clue what the name of it is.*shrug* Well anyway, went to work today, finished um...4 drawings of my characters, all in couples cause i'm lonely. ~_~ And i ( Read more... )

^_^ I can go online again! I'm glad cause i was getting kinda worried about my Fanfics and shit. Well, I'm actually stuck at my Dad's house until Monday...not kool at all. It is REALLY boring here. I have so far completed 2 new drawing. Both couples...yeah i'm loney. I hate being lonely it sucks. I'm glad to have move freedom though, i was getting ( Read more... )

OK, not exactally supose to be on the computer, but i wanted to update. I'm grounded till further notice (not cool) and they are still gonna think up some more punishments for me. I promised i wasn't going to dirctly disobey him anymore and i'm tecnically not. He said ' not tv. no computer, no lights, no nothing." Tecnically no nothing translates ( Read more... )

Well, i desided to update my journal before i'm punished. I had eric over my house, no one home but me him, and my sis. I am not suppose to have guys over my house. My step-dad walked it. I am in deep shit. I don't have a clue what to expect either, and that sucks more. I was fucking shaking after he left. I don't want him to freak out on me, i ( Read more... )

I was so bored i wrote a short story, the beginning of a new fanfiction, and i attempted to continue on my GW one, but failed out of the need to move around after like the 3rd paragraph ( Read more... )