I'm totally your Eyore icon. I've cried so much over the past 4 days, I feel like I'm drowning, but the waves just keep coming, crashing over my head.
Debbie and Carrie were two amazing women I've admired for practically my whole life. They were both so fiercely, blazingly talented, both hilarious (if you never saw the interviews Craig Ferguson did with them, I highly recommend them -- a bunch are up on YT), both laid their lives bare and fought for people with stigmatizing illnesses. I just adored them SO DAMN MUCH. And now they're both gone, like a one-two punch right to the heart.
And George... I loved his music and energy since I first heard Bad Boys. And reading about all the generous things he did privately for others made me admire him even more than I already did.
Don't be sorry at all, that's what LJ is for, to share this kind of stuff so we are all less alone with the grief. I feel the same way you do. I actually kind of lost it a little over George Michael's death; he meant a lot to me when I was a teenager. Likewise Florence Henderson when I was a kid, actually. It's been a terrible year for losing people who mattered to those of our generation, and some of the deaths have just been shocking to me. I don't know why. Maybe because I lost so many RL friends this year, too. Mortality is a bitch.
Florence Henderson was a shock, too. I know she was 82, but she seemed so energetic, fit, and healthy.
So many favorites in one year has been awful. I'm still super-emotional about Bowie, Rickman, Prince, Wilder, and Vaughn, FFS, so this week has really messed me up.
Devastated. I can only harbor some relief that Debbie doesn't have to suffer without her, but god. My heart aches. My thoughts go to Billie and Todd. Constantly close to tears.
Me, too. It's just so sad. I do believe the heart is fragile enough that it can crack, when things are too much. I can't imagine what kind of a blow the heart sustains when a person loses their child.
There really is a medical condition nicknamed broken heart syndrome. Stress hormones from a traumatic loss can trigger heart attacks, paralyze part of the heart muscle, and cause blood clots that could potentially travel to the brain and cause a stroke. Most of the time people recover, but not always.
Todd said his mom's last words were, "I miss her so much, I want to be with Carrie," so I can totally believe that's what happened.
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Debbie and Carrie were two amazing women I've admired for practically my whole life. They were both so fiercely, blazingly talented, both hilarious (if you never saw the interviews Craig Ferguson did with them, I highly recommend them -- a bunch are up on YT), both laid their lives bare and fought for people with stigmatizing illnesses. I just adored them SO DAMN MUCH. And now they're both gone, like a one-two punch right to the heart.
And George... I loved his music and energy since I first heard Bad Boys. And reading about all the generous things he did privately for others made me admire him even more than I already did.
I'm just so sad.
Sorry for dumping all of this here.
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So many favorites in one year has been awful. I'm still super-emotional about Bowie, Rickman, Prince, Wilder, and Vaughn, FFS, so this week has really messed me up.
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Todd said his mom's last words were, "I miss her so much, I want to be with Carrie," so I can totally believe that's what happened.
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