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[despairthisday]

I have never felt this alone. I hate so much. I love more than I care to. My life is full of people that want to get closer, and I refuse to allow that to happen. I have become too shut-off, too jaded, to be a good person. I am a self-important asshole. I hate myself. It should have been me in that coffin.

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[jafsica]

Te quiero.

You mean a lot to me, Bill.

You are going through a hard time right now, as am I.
I think yours is worse.

I am here for you.

And I don't expect you to be perfect or always happy.

Your sister loves you.

And, you know what, I think she loves me, too.

I know exactly how you feel in wanted to take someone's pain away like that.

but, you know what, it can't be done.

I'm positive, that if there is a possibility of it, your sister is watching over you right now, cheering you on. She's there for you, just not in the way she was before.

And, I think she's watching over me, too. Even though I never met her, maybe I'm crazy, but I feel a peace from her, like she's watching over me and trying to guide me. She seems like such a caring and genuine person, with a great sense of humor.

Give it time.

And remember, I'm here for you as much as I can be.

A lot of us love you.

[reject]

Bill, you know that's bullshit. You know you're not alone, you know you don't deserve to be dead. Stop it.