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storytell in desolutionlogs

do we ever stop? no.

Mar 23, 2008 23:47

who: Jonathan & Andrew.
where: Rule 42, Monday afternoon.
what: Possibly a ~tearful reunion~ complete with lesbian hugs, possibly just more melodramatic fighting, who knows. Incomplete.

( i refuse to use kayne west lyrics, caitlin. )

andrew wells, jonathan levinson

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magicboner March 23 2008, 13:11:40 UTC

"It matters," Jonathan counters quickly, his voice cracking a little on the words. "I care. I wouldn't ask if I didn't." He trails off, though, because it's not what he really wants to talk about. He just needs some sort of leverage for when he does eventually square off with Warren, but he knows he's getting ahead of himself, too. There's enough in the here and now that needs to be fixed, let alone the legion of issues that Jonathan and Warren share.

None of this is fair. He's tired, so tired of everything backfiring in his face. Therapy taught him that he deserved happiness, but Babylon is teaching him that if he admits he's happy, things will inevitably blow up. It's sick, but Jonathan misses the month and a half he lived in the hospital, if only for Andrew's faith that he would be there whenever he woke up. If only for being the good guy, for once. Before the empty sadness had set in, most everything was twisted up in disgusted exhaustion - tired of always being the one making everyone mad, getting blamed for every ( ... )

storytell March 23 2008, 13:47:37 UTC

There's a little three-step ladder at the end of the shelf for when they rearrange the figurines and Andrew sinks down onto it, stares at his hands and then looks at Jonathan. He's not used to looking up at him, and his faith is sad and scared and earnest. "I'm not even upset about Cordelia," Andrew says, his brow furrowing a little. "I mean, you can be friends with whoever you want to. Or not friends with, I guess," he adds, and his eyes shift away. Warren again; that's the real reason, that there are sides to be taken and he's chosen and he can't just pretend everything's okay when Jonathan really shouldn't have told Cordelia about stuff or tried to go off and just abandon them when everything was so good ( ... )

magicboner March 23 2008, 14:10:03 UTC

He can't control the flush on his cheeks, or that his hands automatically run through his hair and stay there. "I shouldn't have told her that stuff," Jonathan admits, a little horrified and a little bitter. "It's just- when you don't have anyone to talk to about, um, that kind of stuff. You know? But I shouldn't have." And he regrets it, he does. Secrets are meant to stay secret. There's a reason he never told her about the bell tower. If he can keep his own, then he should be able to keep the ones that belong to the Trio as a whole. But somewhere along the line, there was a logical disconnect, and he's been paying for it. "I just want to be friends with all of you, okay," he mumbles, sliding off the counter and onto the floor, pulling his knees up under him as he settles there ( ... )

storytell March 25 2008, 11:33:28 UTC

Jonathan pre-empts him; Andrew always runs by past experiences, and even if through Mexico he'd come to grips with the fact that siding with Buffy hadn't been betraying him personally, there had still been this lingering thought, that maybe Warren would have lived and all their plans would have succeeded if Jonathan didn't have an endearing yet slightly frustrating weakness for the cute, blonde, completely unavailable superpowered girls. Or girl ( ... )

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