Comments | desertprince04: [private, EXTREMELY difficult to hack unless you know his style]

desertprince04

[private, EXTREMELY difficult to hack unless you know his style]

Jul 25, 2008 00:32

I'm worried about Quatre. He doesn't seem to be himself. Someone told him something about how he handles his emotions, and now it's like he's cutting them off, pulling away from everyone into a shell. It's not right. It'll only hurt him more if he holds things in.

Maybe being emotional isn't the best way to handle something, but not everyone ( Read more... )

au: quatre raberba winner, *private, pulling away, empathy, emotions

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[hack'd --'cuz Ed is awesom hacker_ed July 25 2008, 16:56:38 UTC

QUATRE-RE! Are you OKAY? Whoooo.

Re: [hack'd --'cuz Ed is awesom desertprince04 July 25 2008, 17:40:28 UTC

I'm not sure, Ed. I'm not really sure at all.

Re: [hack'd --'cuz Ed is awesom hacker_ed July 26 2008, 01:01:16 UTC

Whoooo. QUAT-RE. What's WRONG? Cheer up!

Re: [hack'd --'cuz Ed is awesom desertprince04 July 27 2008, 05:19:29 UTC

Thank you, Ed. But, it's something I need to deal with on my own.

How do you like staying with Duo now?

[Screened] l3puffy_pants July 25 2008, 17:11:37 UTC

So...that happened in your world too. Quatre, I...I'm guessing your Trowa came out of it fine too? Please! Forget about it. Me and Trowa wouldn't like our Quatre hurting like this and I'm sure your Trowa wouldn't like to see you hurting either. It was a mistake, but you don't have to think about it now. Please don't relive those awful times...

I'm--I'm getting better at the flute. Would you like to try playing for Quatre now?

Re: [Screened] desertprince04 July 25 2008, 17:19:37 UTC

*sad smile* Thank you, Triton. I know he doesn't blame me for what happened, that he knows why I acted the way I did. It's just been difficult because I know I should have been more thoughtful and less selfish in my actions. I just didn't know what else to do at the time.

And, he survived what happened... but... he lost all his memories for a time. I know I hurt him badly.

I think playing some music would be a good idea. It will help me clear my head.

Re: [Screened] l3puffy_pants July 26 2008, 18:42:59 UTC

Everyone has times when they are weak, Quatre, and people tend to make mistakes. It just so happens that you were all alone and didn't have anyone to help you in time. But ma and Trowa and Heero, Duo, Wufei and our other friends are here now. That's why--that's why I can't just leave you alone to sulk like this.

I had amnesia too. It wasn't so bad...My brother found me and I was able to live peacefully for awhile until you and Duo found me again. If your Trowa experienced something similar, I'm sure he was glad for that little bit of a break.

I've been cleaning up the music room. It was kind of hard to play the flute with all the dust in there, but it's fine now. Do you want to practice playing together tomorrow?

Re: [Screened] desertprince04 July 27 2008, 05:30:16 UTC

Thank you, Triton. *weak smile* I appreciate your words. I think I just need to convince myself of that as well.

I would love to practice together tomorrow.

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[Screened] l3puffy_pants July 25 2008, 17:18:33 UTC

Quatre...

It was a mistake, one that you've already atoned for, or will atone for, in the war. You might have taken many lives but you have saved and will save more than those. Don't dwell on these dark thoughts. If you continue to do so, you wouldn't be able to save anyone no matter how hard you try.

And. It might not be everyone's but, for what it's worth, Triton and I have forgiven our Quatre completely. I'm sure your Trowa has forgiven you too.

Re: [Screened] desertprince04 July 25 2008, 17:21:22 UTC

Trowa...

He... I know he has... I just... the blood of those people is on my hands, Trowa. They weren't fighting in the war, but I killed them all the same... I destroyed that colony completely.

Re: [Screened] l3puffy_pants July 26 2008, 19:11:48 UTC

And do you really think I haven't killed civilians myself? I've killed many, and in cold blood, and without having to go through anything like the one you had gone through.

You've...you've always been too kind for war.

Re: [Screened] desertprince04 July 27 2008, 06:30:33 UTC

Trowa... I'm sorry. I hurt you in your world, too, didn't I? *puts his hand over his face* I'm so sorry. I don't know if I can ever get rid of this guilt that plagues me... the nightmares... I know I shouldn't feel it so badly, but... I can't... I can't help it...

I feel like I need to make things right again... but I don't know how or what to do...

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desertprince04 July 28 2008, 03:51:58 UTC

I'm... just thinking, Quatre.

I'll be okay.

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desertprince04 July 28 2008, 15:40:13 UTC

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I know... I'm sorry.

It's not that I don't trust you. I just... I've been thinking... about how you've been lately, and it just reminded me of some things.

That's all.
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