Sometimes I really wonder why I stay friends with people I know. Because then you realize one day that you are not like them/have nothing in common with them/they are losers headed in no direction anyway/etc. And it just makes me wonder; because when hanging out well I don't really have that much fun depending on who it is because we aren't even ( Read more... )

I've spent so long trying to move on from everything. And then you called me. And now I don't even know what to do ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I love you but I wonder if it's just misplaced wanting and lust. Then I think: would that even be so bad?

Sterling Croft: I DO love you but will you ever come back to me?

I haven't had my period in like a month. Great.

Life is not a metaphor ( Read more... )

I cried today. In the middle of khols. Well in the towels anyway. For no apparent reason. Everything building up I guess. Sad thing is I feel like I could do it again.

Also I hope I wouldn't be carrying. But I guess anything is possible cause I/it can be careless and stupid. I should really stop.

I do hate drama. And I do want to be friends with people sometimes. Just that I don't always have that much in common with people and then there is the lonerness and then people always think I am angry and whatever. It may be true but that's the story of life. I guess you have to deal with it. Or not. I mean we don't really have to be friends ( Read more... )

we carry the damage with us from childhood
then to adulthood
eventually ultimately we all cause damage
but then the damage repairs itself

boys are not like that. they are few adn far between. and I don't know if there are ever really any out there. I don't think I could ever really be that intimate.

sometimes I hate to write about it all and spill my life.

Blogger always makes me so pensive. But I like it. It's not a bad thing I guess. It's always good to have emotions. Just not an overload. And not all the time. That's the part that needs control. Sometimes it's all so overwhelming that I can't even move. I just have to exsist. But that's what life is all about I guess ( Read more... )