Say Goodbye
Title: Say Goodbye
Author: dephi
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer : Title is taken from S Club 7 song. I don't own the people... :(
Summary: Do we really know who the people we love really is? Sometimes we even have to say goodbye for better.
A/N : Un-betaed. This is dedicated to mizuno_hikaru, I'm so missing you now dear... =)
Am I that naive if I believe in whatever people tell me?
You told me that it was wrong, trusting people that easily. ‘Not all people have good intention’ you told me. I looked at your face, demanding some explanation to come out from your mouth. I was so confused of what you had told me. ‘Why is that?’ I asked you. You set your eyes upon me, stared me intensely. I didn’t know what you seek from me at that time. Maybe you wanted me to realize what you really meant by that, maybe. ‘Don’t trust people easily’ you said. ‘Even you?’ I asked you. For a second, I thought I saw a hint of loneliness from your eyes, then I saw your smile, though I’m not sure whether it came from your inner heart. ‘Yes, even me. I may not be that good man you though I am.’ You kissed my forehead then left me. But I trust you…
Am I wrong if I couldn’t understand you that easily?
You were mysterious. That’s the word which could describe you best. You could be so hyper at one time, demanding me to accompany you around or distracting me from focusing on my jobs. In other time you were so gloomy. You didn’t listen to whatever people told you, didn’t laugh at those jokes, didn’t show your energetic self like usual. Not many people realized that though since you were faking your smile. It was bitter, the smile was. They thought you were just feeling unwell, that’s all. But I saw that through your eyes. I saw no life inside it but it came out for a second and you lost it again and then the same patterns happened again. I came to you, ‘What’s wrong with you’ I asked. I was so worried about you. ‘Nothing’ you told me, faking those smile again. I hate that smile so much. ‘Don’t lie to me’ I insisted. You said nothing about it. You walked closer to me ‘It’s none of your business’ you whispered to my ear. ‘It is.’ I told you. ‘Then what did you know about me?’ you asked me. I was at loss of any words to say so I remained silent instead. You sighed, ‘Just as I’ve thought’ you muttered. You smiled for the last time to me, it was so bitter, I could feel it. Then you turned around, walked away from me, didn’t even bother to look at me anymore. Why don’t you tell me more about you?
Am I not worthy enough to be by your side?
I was so nervous when I confessed my feeling to you. ‘He will definitely reject me.’ I thought. But then, I was happy at the time you said that you wanted to be with me. Our friends told me that I was so different at that time. They even said that they could feel the happiness aura around me whenever they were around me. They might only me mocking me, but I didn’t care because I was too happy by everything. But I saw that guy coming out from your bedroom that night. I thought I must have been too tired until I was seeing things. I rubbed my eyes, blinked it for some times, then anger filling my body. I confronted him, demanded him to explain what the heck was happening there. You came out at that time told that guy to leave your apartment immediately. He rushed out from your apartment door. It was the two of us only. I had so many things to ask you but I was too furious to ask anything. I thought you would explain everything to me even without me asking any question, but that was proved wrong. You sat on your sofa calmly, wasn’t even bothered by my existence. ‘What was that?’ I asked you. ‘Nothing’ you still answered it calmly, I didn’t even thing that there was any guilt from your voice. ‘I deserve an explanation’ I demanded. ‘Explanation?’ you laughed, ‘And why is that?’ you asked me. I didn’t know what was so funny about my question. ‘We are dating right? How can I take it if I saw a guy coming out from my boyfriend’s bedroom this late?’ I threw my anger towards you. You were just stunning there, kept silent. ‘Why didn’t you say anything? You.. you are just like a-‘ I lost my mind already, I didn’t even realize what I was going to say anymore. ‘A slut? So what if I am? I’ve told you not to trust people easily, right?’ you said. I didn’t remember what had happened after that or how did I be able to reach my apartment since when I had realized, it was already morning. Why don’t you say anything to me?
“Ryo - chan?”
“…”
“Ryo..?”
“Ah, Jin..” Ryo muttered.
“What’s wrong with you? Are you okay?” Jin asked worriedly.
“Yeah, I’m okay. I was just remembering things that had happened in the past.” Ryo answered, he smiled bitterly.
Goodbye Tatsuya, if you thought that it was the best for us.
Notes : I'm writing a fic while I shouldn't have.. :D
Thanks for reading, comments are so appreciated...^^
Author: dephi
Pairing: RyoDa
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer : Title is taken from S Club 7 song. I don't own the people... :(
Summary: Do we really know who the people we love really is? Sometimes we even have to say goodbye for better.
A/N : Un-betaed. This is dedicated to mizuno_hikaru, I'm so missing you now dear... =)
Am I that naive if I believe in whatever people tell me?
You told me that it was wrong, trusting people that easily. ‘Not all people have good intention’ you told me. I looked at your face, demanding some explanation to come out from your mouth. I was so confused of what you had told me. ‘Why is that?’ I asked you. You set your eyes upon me, stared me intensely. I didn’t know what you seek from me at that time. Maybe you wanted me to realize what you really meant by that, maybe. ‘Don’t trust people easily’ you said. ‘Even you?’ I asked you. For a second, I thought I saw a hint of loneliness from your eyes, then I saw your smile, though I’m not sure whether it came from your inner heart. ‘Yes, even me. I may not be that good man you though I am.’ You kissed my forehead then left me. But I trust you…
Am I wrong if I couldn’t understand you that easily?
You were mysterious. That’s the word which could describe you best. You could be so hyper at one time, demanding me to accompany you around or distracting me from focusing on my jobs. In other time you were so gloomy. You didn’t listen to whatever people told you, didn’t laugh at those jokes, didn’t show your energetic self like usual. Not many people realized that though since you were faking your smile. It was bitter, the smile was. They thought you were just feeling unwell, that’s all. But I saw that through your eyes. I saw no life inside it but it came out for a second and you lost it again and then the same patterns happened again. I came to you, ‘What’s wrong with you’ I asked. I was so worried about you. ‘Nothing’ you told me, faking those smile again. I hate that smile so much. ‘Don’t lie to me’ I insisted. You said nothing about it. You walked closer to me ‘It’s none of your business’ you whispered to my ear. ‘It is.’ I told you. ‘Then what did you know about me?’ you asked me. I was at loss of any words to say so I remained silent instead. You sighed, ‘Just as I’ve thought’ you muttered. You smiled for the last time to me, it was so bitter, I could feel it. Then you turned around, walked away from me, didn’t even bother to look at me anymore. Why don’t you tell me more about you?
Am I not worthy enough to be by your side?
I was so nervous when I confessed my feeling to you. ‘He will definitely reject me.’ I thought. But then, I was happy at the time you said that you wanted to be with me. Our friends told me that I was so different at that time. They even said that they could feel the happiness aura around me whenever they were around me. They might only me mocking me, but I didn’t care because I was too happy by everything. But I saw that guy coming out from your bedroom that night. I thought I must have been too tired until I was seeing things. I rubbed my eyes, blinked it for some times, then anger filling my body. I confronted him, demanded him to explain what the heck was happening there. You came out at that time told that guy to leave your apartment immediately. He rushed out from your apartment door. It was the two of us only. I had so many things to ask you but I was too furious to ask anything. I thought you would explain everything to me even without me asking any question, but that was proved wrong. You sat on your sofa calmly, wasn’t even bothered by my existence. ‘What was that?’ I asked you. ‘Nothing’ you still answered it calmly, I didn’t even thing that there was any guilt from your voice. ‘I deserve an explanation’ I demanded. ‘Explanation?’ you laughed, ‘And why is that?’ you asked me. I didn’t know what was so funny about my question. ‘We are dating right? How can I take it if I saw a guy coming out from my boyfriend’s bedroom this late?’ I threw my anger towards you. You were just stunning there, kept silent. ‘Why didn’t you say anything? You.. you are just like a-‘ I lost my mind already, I didn’t even realize what I was going to say anymore. ‘A slut? So what if I am? I’ve told you not to trust people easily, right?’ you said. I didn’t remember what had happened after that or how did I be able to reach my apartment since when I had realized, it was already morning. Why don’t you say anything to me?
“Ryo - chan?”
“…”
“Ryo..?”
“Ah, Jin..” Ryo muttered.
“What’s wrong with you? Are you okay?” Jin asked worriedly.
“Yeah, I’m okay. I was just remembering things that had happened in the past.” Ryo answered, he smiled bitterly.
Goodbye Tatsuya, if you thought that it was the best for us.
Notes : I'm writing a fic while I shouldn't have.. :D
Thanks for reading, comments are so appreciated...^^