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And the sky was made of amethyst
It's cold. I feel it. I feel like a rock with water freezing inside it, breaking the rock from within. I always hibernate in the winter, I think I'm becoming boring. Maybe it's time I become too busy with my own things. Maybe I need to not notice time passing, Maybe I need a second job. I do need the money. I hate that I always use work as a crutch ( Read more... ) -
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so far I've gotten everything i could have wanted for xmas, but im sitting here kinda bummed. want a family, I mean all this running around and sharing time, and what I till wake up alone on xmas morning. I'm so jealous that my brother still live with my dad. Last night as I came home alone all I could think about was how much I wanted to be ( Read more... ) -
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List of complaints, because its therapeutic ( Read more... ) -
retail may indeed be hell
Dear Livejournal,
I'm more exhausted then I've ever been. ever. I still halfta clean and cook for tomorrow, but all i wanna do is watch Voyager and sleep. Today is lame and I still have 23 more to go. -
why do i o this?
so some very bad things might have happened. on sunday night played around with things I havent done in forever and I got all weird and broken and couldn't piece together myself or my feelings and everything got all jumbled and I didnt make sense and couldnt connect. usually when im with john we have this natural rhythm, and I feel like both of our ( Read more... ) -
dreams
so awhile ago I mentioned to John that I never remember dreams. He suggested I add some calea to my before bed cigarette because Calea is suposta help recall dreams. Well currently Ive been remembering EVERY dream I have, The problem now is that my dreams arent that pleasant. The most common dream and less stressful is I'm at work (sometimes its ( Read more... ) -
Anna Begins
My friend assures me "it's all or nothing ( Read more... ) -
Goodmorning Starshine!
It's early. lately I've been seeing lotsa late nights and early mornings. Catnaps have been key. Recently I re-watched "An American Haunting" and although its not a great movie, it always inspires me to learn more about the bell witch ( Read more... ) -
coloring and candy
I'm meeting Johns kids tomorrow and am crazy amounts of nervous. I put together a fun bag, its mostly coloring books and gummy candy. I figure kids like candy and coloring. I think ima all dress colorful and fun, but maybe a little more grown-up then usual ( Read more... ) -
just an odd note
I find hands fascinating, often when I'm typing I get distracted by my hands. I wonder if anyone else notices them as much as I do?