Defeat

[delicatale]

I'm not memorable. People tend to forget my name, forget my face, forget that I exist, because I'm not one of these 'in your face' type of person. I have been left behind many times, so many times nowadays I'm paranoid of it.

And then there's the writing. My writing's not memorable, it's not something that sticks with people so much. It's enjoyable

Comments

[siehn]

♥ First off, all the hugs because it seems like you need them.

Aand second, for the meme, I'd pick this bit from 'Medals and Scars':

Danny clenches his jaw, trying to understand exactly how he’s feeling, through the irrational anger, how much sense it doesn’t make, all of this, his idea of Steve, what he knows of Steve, and this raid they witnessed a few hours ago. And he wonders how much of Steve’s energy it requires for him to function in normal society, how much it takes out of him to walk and talk and smile through this life. How much of it he fakes, how much of his stupid big heart was ripped out of him through training and classified missions.

It just. It spoke to me, in a way. I grew up around soldiers, and the stories they would tell, and the ones they would never talk about except when they drank too much, and couldn't keep it in any longer. And this is just so very real, and everything we would think, and it's sad, and beautiful, and this story will always be one of my absolute favorites. ♥♥

[delicatale]

See, I didn't even think Medals and Scars would come up at any point - it's one of these fics that I don't think people remember. So I'm glad :).

And thanks for the hugs - it's just been a weird week, and the fic I'm working on is sort of wrecking me emotionally, for some reason.

[witchy99]

I really have to say that I couldn't disagree more. Your writing - I can't even describe it. I wish I could do that. I have my own writing style, and I'm comfortable with it, but I read your works and wonder why I can't do that. I am always ecstatic to see a new post, or a new story, or the brilliant news you bring about every fandom. I can't tell you how much your stories have really helped - I get stressed and bogged down so easily with all the crap I do and reading is the one thing that helps numb out my brain. And your stories are just so beautiful and they flow so amazingly well that they're absolutely perfect. This sounds like it's sucking up, but it's really, really, really not. Sighs. So, in short, I know what that feeling feels like and I know that having someone (totally random, like myself) doesn't help, but your writing is memorable to me.

One scene: Months and Miles From Dreams, when Steve comes back to the gym to find Danny there and Danny's just so angry. That entire story got me, but that particular moment caught it

[delicatale]

I don't really know what to say besides thank you, because I really didn't write this to get compliments, because if I make anyone happy at any time, I pretty much have it good, don't I? I just want more than I can have, I guess, and I don't want to make it look like I'm not grateful of anyone who enjoys my writing. So thank you, really.

[stellarmeadow]

I was going to write something, but then I read this and it was almost exactly what I was going to say, so it felt redundant. :) I am actually in the process of reading Months and Miles from Dreams for, like, the millionth time right now and I just...you've never written anything that wasn't fabulous, but this is one of the ones that really hits me. Everything about it is so perfectly structured, and the flow...

See, there I go, being redundant... :)

*hugs*

[azziria]

Months and miles from dreams really got to me, the whole thing. And the coda you wrote.

[delicatale]

You write such intense fic, that's really special for me to know.

[deepbluemermaid]

I think of all your fantastic and inventive stories, the scene I'd pick was when Steve finds Danny in San Diego at the end of 'Months and miles from dreams' and tells him he's now a Reservist:

“Does that mean you’ve got nowhere else to be? I just want to make sure I get this right, okay, because I don’t want to get my hopes up but if I get this correctly, you’re not Active anymore so you don’t have to leave, right? Is that it? Are you - are you staying? For good

[delicatale]

Hee, that's quite a feat!

[wolwiegirl3]

Maybe it' kind of my fault, because I don't leave enough reviews, but you have no idea how happy I am every time I see your name pop up in my notifications ^^. I have a special fondness for your lengthy, angsty pieces, like The Darkness will turn to light or A fine mingling of letting go and holding on . But I also love the 'lighter' ones, like Stepping Stones . Make this dock my home is a personal favorite. It's always so evocative, and you got their voices down so perfectly. Oh and Months and miles from dreams|. I have all the feelings for your fics. Each one of them is so unique and I think you really did something interesting with the idea of fanfiction.
I hope you will feel better, because you really shouldn't doubt yourself when it comes to your writing. *goes back to reread a few*

[delicatale]

Oh, it's most definitely not your fault. It's nobody's fault but mine, really. It's something that I need to manage, my confidence swings when it comes to - everything. I believe self-doubt is also a source of improvement, somehow...