Writing blabbers and all the words

[delicatale]

I want to be a writer. I want to be able to say "I'm a writer". Once upon a time I wanted to be J.K. Rowling - not for the fame, but for the talent, and for the love she cultured and grew with her fans and HP fans.

I still want to write the story, the one that moves and gets people all over writing about it. In a smaller scale, in fandom, I want

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[tailoredshirt]

I was gonna say, just buy a book on writing! Whenever I read about writing, it always makes me want to go write immediately, and just keep getting better. It also tends to make me put my ego aside and not care what people think, which is for me the hardest part of writing and sharing my writing. I think I told you once, the best place I've ever been, writing-wise, was about a year ago when I dropped out of fandom for a bit (like two weeks lakdj) and read books about writing. I feel like there's this myth that people are born with natural writing talent and it's all instinctive and you don't have to learn anything, and I think it's true that a lot of writing is instinctive (mostly with avid readers) and some people have natural talent, but so much of it is hard-fought skill. At that time last year, I finally just came to the conclusion that I was a bad writer and that's okay. I didn't feel down on myself, it was just a realization that I wasn't the greatest thing since sliced bread and that I had loads of room to improve if I'd let

[delicatale]

That's the thing - I live by the shadows of people better than I am at writing, people that inspire others, that make them want to write, make them feel so many things. And I don't do that, and it destroys me when I think too hard about it. It's a slow going thing but I really want to get there, to that place where I'm happy with the way I write and just try to improve myself, for myself. I get so stressed when I'm proud of something, and I'm putting it out there, as you've been the witness of, and I don't want to feel this way so much. In a way, it makes me feel alive, in another, it makes me so stressed when it doesn't have to be this way. I need to grow into my own style, my own writing, even more than I have in the past, and it's this process I want to go through.

*makes note* I have never heard of it! I am interested.

[kitmerlot1213]

Good for you for wanting to explore this amazing gift you have and for wanting to keep improving--YEAH! :)

[delicatale]

There's always room for improvement. Always always. I'll never believe otherwise!

[finduilas_clln]

I'm an average fanfiction writer

Honestly? You are WAY above average. I only wish I could write like you!

[delicatale]

Taking into account so many other people, I don't really stand out that much. I mean, don't get me wrong, I am humbled and honoured at every comment, every bit of praise I get, and I am so proud and that's all the more reason for me to try and get better and better and be able to give you better, too. That's all I want - never to disappoint those that read my stuff.

[finduilas_clln]

Trying to be even better is always a good thing, of course! But I really mean it that I think you've well above the average. Every time I see a new fic of yours pop up on my flist, it makes me truly happy. :D

[delicatale]

I'm so glad, seriously, you have no idea ♥.

[thegrrrl2002]

I think you are a fabulous writer and I love the stories you tell. You already are pretty darn special.

That stinks about not being able to afford to take that course. Are there any writer's workshops out there you can participate in? Because you ARE a writer. Something like a short workshop might be less expensive than a full course. The way to get better is to keep on writing, which is exactly what you are doing. Yay you!

[delicatale]

But you, you're too nice to me, always ♥.

I was pretty fixated on this course for a while, because it leads to a ~proper diploma and all that, you know? But I've taken a few workshops when I was still in France (mostly poetry stuff, which I've always been terrible at), and I enjoyed it. My sort-of crippling social anxiety keeps me from going for small workshops where people would make me read things out loud, or something.

[gothikmaus]

I think a lot of fanfic writers (and writers in general) feel the same way. I know I do! We all want people to love our stories and remember them long after they've read them.

I write for a tiny local magazine in my free time and I can't deny I always feel insanely proud when someone tells me "Oh, you're the one who writes on the newspaper? I love your articles!" I mean, I know my articles are nothing special and I'm not planning on becoming a full-time journalist anytime soon, but I'm using this opportunity to improve my writing skills (and to stroke my ego a little, it feels good to see one's name printed in a magazine, even if it's just a tiny local one).

[delicatale]

I wanted to be a big name blogger, once upon a time! I gave up quickly enough, because I didn't have the time, but I get what you mean. Being recognised for this, it's special. It's definitely something else.

[gothikmaus]

Oh, I played with the blogger idea too, but I'm way too inconstant and lazy for that.