Frustration

[deirie]

I noticed I'm not where I would like to be. I haven't improved much in anything, especially drawing. It frustrates me. I now know that my  art block or whatever laziness I've had has stopped me from improving my works, my style and technique. I need to start again. 
I need to draw more. Maybe not everyday, but.. often. I have to. I need to be

Comments

[solanyxe]

I think there is quite a big difference between the two drawings. The new one is definitely better; the body proportions, the posture, the perspective

[deirie]

Aww *hugs thighs*

Thank you so much for giving me some hope :'D
This is why I love you so much. You tell me exactly what I know is true (but just haven't been able to tell to myself) and.. then I see it.
It is true, I am a bit too hard on myself. I wish to.. relearn to just draw for the fun, not because I want to create something that's awesome.

But guess what? Last saturday I painted. I don't usually paint at all, but I felt like doing some "rage painting". Meaning that I just.. put some paint on my brush and started painting without thinking :'D With rage.
And I think it's turning out pretty well. I also enjoy this type of painting... With a bigger brush, without meaning. It's very... soothing, in a way.

I'm not doing too well, but still alive. :'D I can't remember if I have told you that I have two internships, so I work a lot.. And some projects are still hanging there unfinished, because I haven't had the time or will to continue them...