Comments | defiler_wyrm: fresh blood through tired skin. new sweat to drown me in.

defiler_wyrm

fresh blood through tired skin. new sweat to drown me in.

Feb 19, 2011 02:28

Being my friend must be completely exhausting. I'm lead to wonder if maybe my habit of completely disappearing after 1-2 years isn't partly to spare others, in addition to my own issues. But no, the reality is more than I'm a selfish nomad. Ease in, get comfortable, jerk back, panic, flee underground again until the cycle begins anew ( Read more... )

fail @ life, mental illness

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defiler_wyrm February 19 2011, 08:36:45 UTC

No. Was just thinking about the pattern.

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defiler_wyrm February 19 2011, 09:19:02 UTC

The closest I've come to figuring it out is that maybe it's my sole means of affecting radical change. Can't just drop everything and run away IRL, so I do so in social circles instead.

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mpd_84 February 19 2011, 09:11:19 UTC

i cant even recall when/where we met but im glad we did...

defiler_wyrm February 19 2011, 09:19:50 UTC

You know neither can I? But it was a happy chance, IMO.

mpd_84 February 19 2011, 09:26:52 UTC

i know its been quite a while.i was still on my old da account back then...

vinarian February 19 2011, 16:24:15 UTC

I understand ( ... )

defiler_wyrm February 20 2011, 00:40:14 UTC

That seems to be a common theme with people who grew up in military households: a certain comfort level with transience in general that those who had more stationary upbringings might have. This might have something to do with it in my case though we didn't move quite THAT often. IDK.

The 'net makes socialising so much easier. Safer, in many ways, and easier to pull back - but that's a mixed blessing.

Catching back up with you again has been an interesting twist on the pattern. We didn't know each other very well back on MG but it does seem we've opened up a lot more now that we're on WrA, with some allowance for prickliness because I am a spiny wyrm. Sort of the reverse of how it usually goes.

vinarian February 20 2011, 21:51:31 UTC

Yeah, I didn't expect to wind up where we are now, but that's not a bad thing. I just knew to try to watch where I step, because even back on MG, I knew that you were quite reserved and very private. But I also wasn't going to fall back on what I knew via Rasat--after all that was years ago and people change (she never spoke poorly of you, and didn't really say much at all about you, fyi), and it's not fair to make up your impressions of others without even really talking to them first.

But whatever it is, I'm glad for it. All those years on MG...but I've never had as much pleasure and pain as I have had on WyrA. It's cool though. I don't have any plans of going anywhere any time soon!

midnightlynx February 20 2011, 19:18:07 UTC

I know internet-friends aren't exactly as exposed to you as RL friends, and me especially so with my tendency to hermitize and drop out of touch with everyone for a year or two once in a while...
But I've been around for... what, ten years now? I still think you're just as awesome, and you're still on a short list of people I still hope to visit in person some day. (When I can afford shit like airplane tickets.)