Haircut

[brosedshield]

Title: Haircut
Author:  brosedshield
Disclaimer: If anyone owns anything in this relationship, Supernatural owns my heart. And won't give it back. And won't pay me for it. (i.e. Don't own, don't profit)
Characters: Sam, Deanna, John
Rating: PG
Word count: 1170
Spoilers: none (preseries)
Summary: Deanna (11) cuts her hair.
Author notes: This is the first ever Deanna

Comments

[littlebites111]

I was a little apprehensive about this fic, since it was mentioned that this was connected to the head-shaving scene in "Don't Call Me Daughter,"which had given me a particularly vicious heart-stab (for some reason John thinking about how much more exposed she looked without her hair got me more anything else ... I think it was something to with the description of "the parent he had been" escaping a kind of tortured imprisonment in response

[lavinialavender]

*creeps in like a stalker, especially since Brose is in the middle of relocating to Spain*

I know that Brose uses "Deanna" more than I do; I'm pretty strict with adhering only to Dee in my narration. Our Dee 'verse isn't nearly as unified as our Freak Camp 'verse is; we write our Dee stories almost entirely separately, and they don't always match up (I know for a fact femslash is going to be more integral in my stories than it will be for Broes's), but I love the Haircut story so much that it is part of my Dee canon too.

[brosedshield]

Heh, I'm happy both that the head-shaving scene made you happy and that I got you in the end. :P I'm fond of the heartwrenching sorts of things.

I think that used Deanna much more in this story (and the others) just...because? I wrote this one well before Lavinia's story, so it seemed much less strange to have her thinking of herself as Deanna, and using that more often in narration. And it really shows the difference between her and Dean, because Dee and Dean could almost be mistaken but DEANNA adds a weight and an undeniable femininity to the name that you can't avoid.

Or maybe it has just amused me since S5 that Dean was named after his GRANDMOTHER. :P

(also, sorry this comment is so delayed, and especially if it's incoherent. I am in Spain, and have been sleeping all day! But I always love your comments, so am trying to do my best :D)

[littlebites111]

Well, consider my hear thoroughly wrenched, on all counts ( I also read "Deanna is Eight" and spend a good ten minutes with "What the ever-loving FUCK, John Winchester?!?" on a loop in my brain ... )

I think I am getting it. Although you guys cooked her up together, you're interpreting her independently? Makes it that much more interesting :)

I'm totally with you on laughing at grandma's legacy Dean. One of my never-fail happy thought is to picture Sam finding that out and going, "That's going to funny later ..." (when Dean is least expecting it!) :DDD

My only negative feeling about your sleeping all day is the rabid jealously of, "That's what *I* want to be doing!" D: Oh well, hope Spain is amazing!

[saltyavocado4]

The Dee verse that you and Lavinia have put together never fails to make me pause when I realize just how much of Deanna's identity is wrapped up with the two important males in her life. Obvious feminist nightmare aside, it adds a whole new level to Dean's canonical difficulties with seeing women as actual people on the same level as he is a person, rather than another potential one night stand.

I once read an interesting character analysis on Dean and Lisa's relationship that put out the theory that, due to his extremely skewed upbringing, Dean only ever saw a woman as a sexual partner or a mother, unearthly saints who were to be put on a pedestal and kept unsullied, explaining Dean's sudden change in attitude towards Lisa when he realized his old one time fling now had a son. I wonder how Deanna deals with this. She's been seen before in this verse to show a contempt for things she considers 'girly' or 'gay', but does this extend to treating other girls with less respect than she would if they were male? When she starts

[lavinialavender]

*jumps in*

You left fantastic comments to my stories too, but THIS is actually what I specialize in. I have a whole series of stories planned dealing in Dee's evolving sexuality through her teenage years and the incidents that form it. I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND STORIES TO SHARE WITH YOU. In short, though: yeah, she has a ton of self-hatred for girls, especially those who embrace femininity. As I've written, she plays around a lot with seeing how well she can pass for a boy, and I have one particularly disturbing scene in mind when she corners an innocent girl (who's maybe 14, while she's 15) outside the bathroom of a bar and plays like she's seducing her, when Dee's really much closer to hurting her. She wants to hurt her so badly, her teeth are on edge, she wants to show this girl how stupid she is, but she finally makes herself pull back and leave, because she's starting to unnerve herself

[saltyavocado4]

Oh, far be it from me to distract you from Freak Camp, the epic that brought me here in the first place. Ugh, I have such complicated feelings about that torturous piece of literature that you two have cooked up. It's like... ugh, it's like A Clockwork Orange, or Lolita or Native Son for me -- I can't say that I like them because then I feel like a horrible human being, but I'm fascinated by them and drawn to them and have so much respect for the writers for portraying things the way they do, even if its sickening and brutal and makes me feel wretched at heart sometimes, to the extent that I just need to walk away for a bit to clear my head. It's... it's all very complicated and I can't figure out whether I love or hate you guys for doing this to me

[brosedshield]

long babbling comments = love

please never stop

And also, being compared to Lolita (I haven't read the others, though A Clockwork Orange at least in on The List [of books I think I ought to read someday]) makes my heart do strange, intense pattery things because I love that book. And less for the content than because Nabokov is a damned genius and the way he uses English just makes me pant.

And so to be compared...yeah. Awesome. I'll be over here squeeing for a while, then. Later!