Andrew Kim convinced me to go to the boat last night. Best night ever at penny slots which put me $40 up. I took that to the black jack table and turned into $80.. lost it all and left only losing $10... it makes sick that i kept playing.

Today i just think about the person who gave me every ounce of life he had since i was born. He did so till he couldnt go on any longer. I was his second chance of being a good dad. He gave me more strength and knowledge than hell ever know in the 12 years he was with me.. everyday i think of him and i know hes with me everyday. Thank you for ( Read more... )

Last night lily vior approached me and said the sweetest and kindest words to me ever. She told me that it shows how much of a positive and good person i am.. im still pretty much speechless. Shes absolutely beautiful. Ugh.

Broke not getting to go to florida next week.

Sick of being alone

Made contact with dee dee again. Shes going through a divorce and now has two daughters

Cant concentrate to work on art

Have an art show august at haymarket

Nothin new

Just ready to be someone better

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Going from spending my last 4 dollars at taco bell last week to having a month like june coming up where every weekend is booked solid and then some is quite a relief. Lets see if i can make it to the beach at the end of the month. Woes of living this rockstar life.

Emanuel- make tonight

Best memory of this song is seeing it played in a packed basement drunk as shit as my friends mom served cookies and punch upstairs the bass was vibrating the whole house to where the very expensive vintage neon beer signs that once hung were falling and shattering around us. Good times man

just had such an awesome dream.
Riding in the van there was a girl sitting next to me. We werent doing anything but running our fingers up and down each others arms. Hah playing footsy. It was so real. She said "come back to me"  then told me to wake up.
Just felt nice to have someone like me for a minute.

On my way to Tempe, AZ. Theres a Spinellis out there and were not sure how much the Super Bowl will impact it. So a few people are getting sent out. Im along for the ride. I may have to work. None the less a free roadtrip and get to check out a new Spinellis.

As many sweet words i waste on you youll never be mine.