Forbidden Love Chapter 9
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope this is the right way
He ran as fast as he could, ignored all taxis that passed him many times. His mind was blank and he couldn’t even digest everything. He couldn’t even think that riding a vehicle could be faster than his feet. He just ran, in hope that he would reach Takaki’s apartment as fast as he could.
Even when he reached the front door of the building, he felt that it was still too far from Takaki’s room. He breathed heavily while waiting for the elevator to come. Many times he took a glance to the stairs, feeling the twist about which faster the way he should take to Takaki’s room, but when he decided to take the stairs, the elevator came. He almost jumped in to it, and wished that it wouldn’t take too long to reach the third floor.
It was the longest fifteen seconds in Yamada’s life. He stared at the numbers upon the door of the elevator, and felt it was too long for number three to light on.
Yamada closed his eyes and wished that everything’s okay, that Takaki just got a light fever from the rain, that he would welcome him with his wide smile and warm hug.
He jumped out the elevator right after the door opened and ran to the very end door. Almost trembled, Yamada took the key from his pocket. He cursed himself when the key slipped. He stopped, closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and once again took the key, easily. Quickly, he opened the door and almost ran into the apartment, ignored woman’s shoes in front of the rack.
Yamada stopped. He stoned by the door. The picture in front of him like a very beautiful painting he had ever seen. A very beautiful girl was holding a spoon, ready to feed Takaki. His Takaki Yuya. The person he loved for who knows how long. The person he thought would spare his life forever with him.
His heart stopped beating for a moment. He didn’t move, and didn’t even breath for a while. Before his mind could digest anything, his feet stepped back and silently led him to the door and he went out.
He could feel his feet glued to the ground. It was very hard for him to walk. Every step he took needed all of his power to move his feet, but he kept moving. His heart screamed to stay but his mind betrayed him. He wanted to stay in the room, in the place where his love was laying helplessly. He wanted to stay beside his Yuya, but the place was taken. It was taken by a very beautiful girl. From every angle, they looked perfect together. They looked very comfortable with each other. They looked very comfortable to each other.
Yamada stopped and closed his eyes.
“Can’t we just stop this?”
The words rang loudly in his ears.
Don’t tell me that this is the reason why you want to end ours? Please, tell me that what I just saw was just an illusion. It’s only coincidence that she’s there.
Yamada opened his eyes and started to move again.
It’s just a coincidence. You love me, and you know how much I love you. We’ve been through everything to stay together for years. I know that we are crossing the line ...
He Stopped suddenly and didn’t move. His mind was suddenly blank. He couldn’t think about anything.
We are crossing the line. Yes, we did. We’re not normal.
The picture of his Yuya and the girl kept mingling in his mind. Tears dropped on his cheek. He wiped them quickly, and started to walk again, almost ran to nowhere.
He didn’t know how but he stopped right in front of the door of his own apartment. He stood there, and suddenly felt so lonely.
He closed the door silently. He walked weakly to the couch and almost dropped himself on it. All of his strength lost and he surrendered when his body forced to lay. He closed his eyes, tried hard to find a name. Now, he suddenly realize that the face was very familiar. The girl. He knew her, but he couldn’t remember a name. He tried hard to dig his memory, deeper than he had ever did, but still couldn’t find any name.
Yamada took a very deep breathe.
“We are crossing the line.”
The words kept mingling over and over.
I know it. Indeed, we are crossing the line, but I still don’t want to lose you. I love you, too much until I can’t breath any breathe without whispering your name. Too much until I’m not sure that I can live this life without seeing you everyday.
I love you.
Yuya.
I love you.
I can’t lose you now.
What should I do without you?
What is the meaning of life if I can’t see you everyday?
What life is for?
Yamada curled and opened his eyes. He took a glance around and suddenly felt that the room was too silent. It was suddenly felt too wide for him. The tears dropped once again and he let them. He closed his eyes and took a very deep breathe. He could smell Takaki from the couch. He turned around and touched it, tried to find the remnants of Takaki’s presence, hoping that he could touch him.
Even I know that we are crossing the line, I can’t lose you.
You look very perfect together with the girl, but I ...
Suddenly Yamada opened his eyes and didn’t blink for a while. A name flashed in his mind.
Shinkawa. It’s Shinkawa Yua.
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope this is the right way
He ran as fast as he could, ignored all taxis that passed him many times. His mind was blank and he couldn’t even digest everything. He couldn’t even think that riding a vehicle could be faster than his feet. He just ran, in hope that he would reach Takaki’s apartment as fast as he could.
Even when he reached the front door of the building, he felt that it was still too far from Takaki’s room. He breathed heavily while waiting for the elevator to come. Many times he took a glance to the stairs, feeling the twist about which faster the way he should take to Takaki’s room, but when he decided to take the stairs, the elevator came. He almost jumped in to it, and wished that it wouldn’t take too long to reach the third floor.
It was the longest fifteen seconds in Yamada’s life. He stared at the numbers upon the door of the elevator, and felt it was too long for number three to light on.
Yamada closed his eyes and wished that everything’s okay, that Takaki just got a light fever from the rain, that he would welcome him with his wide smile and warm hug.
He jumped out the elevator right after the door opened and ran to the very end door. Almost trembled, Yamada took the key from his pocket. He cursed himself when the key slipped. He stopped, closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and once again took the key, easily. Quickly, he opened the door and almost ran into the apartment, ignored woman’s shoes in front of the rack.
Yamada stopped. He stoned by the door. The picture in front of him like a very beautiful painting he had ever seen. A very beautiful girl was holding a spoon, ready to feed Takaki. His Takaki Yuya. The person he loved for who knows how long. The person he thought would spare his life forever with him.
His heart stopped beating for a moment. He didn’t move, and didn’t even breath for a while. Before his mind could digest anything, his feet stepped back and silently led him to the door and he went out.
He could feel his feet glued to the ground. It was very hard for him to walk. Every step he took needed all of his power to move his feet, but he kept moving. His heart screamed to stay but his mind betrayed him. He wanted to stay in the room, in the place where his love was laying helplessly. He wanted to stay beside his Yuya, but the place was taken. It was taken by a very beautiful girl. From every angle, they looked perfect together. They looked very comfortable with each other. They looked very comfortable to each other.
Yamada stopped and closed his eyes.
“Can’t we just stop this?”
The words rang loudly in his ears.
Don’t tell me that this is the reason why you want to end ours? Please, tell me that what I just saw was just an illusion. It’s only coincidence that she’s there.
Yamada opened his eyes and started to move again.
It’s just a coincidence. You love me, and you know how much I love you. We’ve been through everything to stay together for years. I know that we are crossing the line ...
He Stopped suddenly and didn’t move. His mind was suddenly blank. He couldn’t think about anything.
We are crossing the line. Yes, we did. We’re not normal.
The picture of his Yuya and the girl kept mingling in his mind. Tears dropped on his cheek. He wiped them quickly, and started to walk again, almost ran to nowhere.
He didn’t know how but he stopped right in front of the door of his own apartment. He stood there, and suddenly felt so lonely.
He closed the door silently. He walked weakly to the couch and almost dropped himself on it. All of his strength lost and he surrendered when his body forced to lay. He closed his eyes, tried hard to find a name. Now, he suddenly realize that the face was very familiar. The girl. He knew her, but he couldn’t remember a name. He tried hard to dig his memory, deeper than he had ever did, but still couldn’t find any name.
Yamada took a very deep breathe.
“We are crossing the line.”
The words kept mingling over and over.
I know it. Indeed, we are crossing the line, but I still don’t want to lose you. I love you, too much until I can’t breath any breathe without whispering your name. Too much until I’m not sure that I can live this life without seeing you everyday.
I love you.
Yuya.
I love you.
I can’t lose you now.
What should I do without you?
What is the meaning of life if I can’t see you everyday?
What life is for?
Yamada curled and opened his eyes. He took a glance around and suddenly felt that the room was too silent. It was suddenly felt too wide for him. The tears dropped once again and he let them. He closed his eyes and took a very deep breathe. He could smell Takaki from the couch. He turned around and touched it, tried to find the remnants of Takaki’s presence, hoping that he could touch him.
Even I know that we are crossing the line, I can’t lose you.
You look very perfect together with the girl, but I ...
Suddenly Yamada opened his eyes and didn’t blink for a while. A name flashed in his mind.
Shinkawa. It’s Shinkawa Yua.