Forbidden Love
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and this is my first trying~~~
“I suddenly had this urge of watching our video makings, and just realize it.”
“What?” Yuto turned to Chinen.
Chinen pursed his lips and didn’t say anything for a while. He shook his head and smiled. “No. Maybe it’s only me.”
“What is it?” Now Yuto demanded with curiosity.
Chinen sighed and turned to Yuto. “The way Ryosuke and Yuya behaved in every making showed something. The way they talk to each other, the way they chat, the way they play around, even the way they avoid to each other. There’s really something between them.”
Yuto didn’t give any respond. He watched the recording again, and once again his heart wrecked for the nth time while watching them crying.
Chinen stared at him and watched the sad expression on Yuto’s face, then sighed again. “You’ve said you will delete the file.”
Yuto breathed heavily before pushed the ‘delete’ button in his camera.
“You’ve been watching it thousand times since that day.”
“And I still can’t take it seeing Ryosuke cries, and Yuya can’t say anything but the truth about their relationship. I still feel like watching a sad drama. A very sad drama ever.”
“And it will make you cry again after watching it. Come on, Yuto. Delete it. It’s enough. Someone will find it if you still keep it.”
“I did.”
Chinen turned to Yuto and questioned him in silent.
“The file. The video. The accidentally recording of them crying in that room that day.” Yuto showed his camera. “I just deleted it.”
Chinen sighed heavily. “Finally.”
Yuto looked at Chinen in awe. He didn’t look bothered at all with the fact that his friend was a gay. He narrowed his eyes when a thought clicked in his mind.
“Don’t tell me that you knew it.”
Chinen turned to him but didn’t say anything. He just stared at Yuto without words.
“I mean, You don’t look surprised when we found the video. You looked so calm. Even Hikaru couldn’t manage his mind at that time, but you looked very calm and didn’t look surprised at all.”
Chinen sighed again but still didn’t say anything.
“You’ve been very close to Yuya back then. Perhaps he said something to you, or even tell you everything.”
Once again Chinen sighed heavily. “You saw the video. Do you think Yuya will tell anyone about this thing?”
Yuto stared at Chinen intently before looked away. He did know exactly what Chinen tried to say. He grabbed his bag and straightened his body.
“See you.”
Chinen just looked at Yuto in silent. He didn’t even try to tell Yuto that he forgot his camera. He just looked at the thing and shook his head. He reached for the camera and stared it intently.
“You shouldn’t stay in that place that time. You shouldn’t stay in that room. Because of you, we’re so confused now. Why should you be ‘on’ mode that time? Why should your owner forgot to bring you out of the set and also forgot to switch you off that time? Why should you record everything? Do you know how hurt it is to look at them crying helplessly like that?” He put the camera back to his bed. “I hate you now.”
Chinen walked to the window and silently looked at Yuto who walked lazily. He looked like a man who carried a very heavy load on his shoulder. Chinen sighed heavily and turned again to the camera, and once again he just shook his head.
In another part of the town, in Yabu’s apartment, Inoo had invited himself in and behaved like he was in his own home. He took everything he wanted like it was his own, and Yabu didn’t even care. The owner of the apartment just sat silently on the sofa and didn’t have any intention to stop him. He didn’t move either when finally Inoo sat beside him.
“A part of me scream ‘let them alone’, but another part agrees with Dai-Chan.” Inoo stared at the moving ant on the table without blinking. “Once they found out about Takaki and Yamada, we’re really done.”
Yabu felt a pang in his heart so sudden. He gulped lightly and closed his eyes. “He should’ve told me from the very beginning.”
“I won’t told anyone else either if I have the same position with Takaki. I don’t want to risk anyone.”
Yabu opened his eyes and breathed heavily. “I feel like ..., I can feel his hurt. In my eyes now, Takaki is not smiling at all. Even in reality he laughs, but all I see is he cries.”
Inoo pursed his lips and closed his eyes. He could imagine what Yabu tried to say. He could see the tears were always hanging in the corner of Takaki’s eyes every time he took a glance to Yamada. Inoo sighed and opened his eyes, focused himself back to the ant.
Hikaru suddenly entered the room. He looked troubled and confused.
“What?” Inoo finally straightened himself and left the ant alone.
“And now Keito will leave us and heading to America.”
“What?” Both Inoo and Yabu said in unison.
Hikaru almost threw a magazine in Yabu’s lap and took a seat beside Inoo. Yabu grabbed the magazine and in no time found the news, that told Keito was sleeping with a girl. Yabu closed his eyes and put away the magazine.
“Johnny said it’s because Keito wants to study more about acting but I know that it’s just an excuse. The trigger is the news. I still don’t know about his real reason.”
Yabu massaged his nape slowly and stared at the magazine blankly.
“Have anyone of you reached Takaki?”
“His phone is off since yesterday.” Inoo focused back to the ant on the table. It crawled to the edge of the table but Inoo led it back to the middle of the table. “Probably he’s in his parents’ home.”
“Definitely. It’s so rare for us to get this long day off, so I guess he will definitely be there.” Hikaru opened his coat and simply threw it on a chair.
Inoo looked at him and sighed heavily. “I guess Chinen is right. We’re so pathetic. Look at us now. We’re gathering here, all boys, and there’s no story of love at all.”
Yabu and Hikaru looked at each other and smiled widely. Hikaru tapped Inoo’s head and sat beside him. “You’re just jealous to Takaki that no matter the fact is, he has someone he loved, aren’t you?”
“Shut up” Inoo pouted at the comment.
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and this is my first trying~~~
“I suddenly had this urge of watching our video makings, and just realize it.”
“What?” Yuto turned to Chinen.
Chinen pursed his lips and didn’t say anything for a while. He shook his head and smiled. “No. Maybe it’s only me.”
“What is it?” Now Yuto demanded with curiosity.
Chinen sighed and turned to Yuto. “The way Ryosuke and Yuya behaved in every making showed something. The way they talk to each other, the way they chat, the way they play around, even the way they avoid to each other. There’s really something between them.”
Yuto didn’t give any respond. He watched the recording again, and once again his heart wrecked for the nth time while watching them crying.
Chinen stared at him and watched the sad expression on Yuto’s face, then sighed again. “You’ve said you will delete the file.”
Yuto breathed heavily before pushed the ‘delete’ button in his camera.
“You’ve been watching it thousand times since that day.”
“And I still can’t take it seeing Ryosuke cries, and Yuya can’t say anything but the truth about their relationship. I still feel like watching a sad drama. A very sad drama ever.”
“And it will make you cry again after watching it. Come on, Yuto. Delete it. It’s enough. Someone will find it if you still keep it.”
“I did.”
Chinen turned to Yuto and questioned him in silent.
“The file. The video. The accidentally recording of them crying in that room that day.” Yuto showed his camera. “I just deleted it.”
Chinen sighed heavily. “Finally.”
Yuto looked at Chinen in awe. He didn’t look bothered at all with the fact that his friend was a gay. He narrowed his eyes when a thought clicked in his mind.
“Don’t tell me that you knew it.”
Chinen turned to him but didn’t say anything. He just stared at Yuto without words.
“I mean, You don’t look surprised when we found the video. You looked so calm. Even Hikaru couldn’t manage his mind at that time, but you looked very calm and didn’t look surprised at all.”
Chinen sighed again but still didn’t say anything.
“You’ve been very close to Yuya back then. Perhaps he said something to you, or even tell you everything.”
Once again Chinen sighed heavily. “You saw the video. Do you think Yuya will tell anyone about this thing?”
Yuto stared at Chinen intently before looked away. He did know exactly what Chinen tried to say. He grabbed his bag and straightened his body.
“See you.”
Chinen just looked at Yuto in silent. He didn’t even try to tell Yuto that he forgot his camera. He just looked at the thing and shook his head. He reached for the camera and stared it intently.
“You shouldn’t stay in that place that time. You shouldn’t stay in that room. Because of you, we’re so confused now. Why should you be ‘on’ mode that time? Why should your owner forgot to bring you out of the set and also forgot to switch you off that time? Why should you record everything? Do you know how hurt it is to look at them crying helplessly like that?” He put the camera back to his bed. “I hate you now.”
Chinen walked to the window and silently looked at Yuto who walked lazily. He looked like a man who carried a very heavy load on his shoulder. Chinen sighed heavily and turned again to the camera, and once again he just shook his head.
In another part of the town, in Yabu’s apartment, Inoo had invited himself in and behaved like he was in his own home. He took everything he wanted like it was his own, and Yabu didn’t even care. The owner of the apartment just sat silently on the sofa and didn’t have any intention to stop him. He didn’t move either when finally Inoo sat beside him.
“A part of me scream ‘let them alone’, but another part agrees with Dai-Chan.” Inoo stared at the moving ant on the table without blinking. “Once they found out about Takaki and Yamada, we’re really done.”
Yabu felt a pang in his heart so sudden. He gulped lightly and closed his eyes. “He should’ve told me from the very beginning.”
“I won’t told anyone else either if I have the same position with Takaki. I don’t want to risk anyone.”
Yabu opened his eyes and breathed heavily. “I feel like ..., I can feel his hurt. In my eyes now, Takaki is not smiling at all. Even in reality he laughs, but all I see is he cries.”
Inoo pursed his lips and closed his eyes. He could imagine what Yabu tried to say. He could see the tears were always hanging in the corner of Takaki’s eyes every time he took a glance to Yamada. Inoo sighed and opened his eyes, focused himself back to the ant.
Hikaru suddenly entered the room. He looked troubled and confused.
“What?” Inoo finally straightened himself and left the ant alone.
“And now Keito will leave us and heading to America.”
“What?” Both Inoo and Yabu said in unison.
Hikaru almost threw a magazine in Yabu’s lap and took a seat beside Inoo. Yabu grabbed the magazine and in no time found the news, that told Keito was sleeping with a girl. Yabu closed his eyes and put away the magazine.
“Johnny said it’s because Keito wants to study more about acting but I know that it’s just an excuse. The trigger is the news. I still don’t know about his real reason.”
Yabu massaged his nape slowly and stared at the magazine blankly.
“Have anyone of you reached Takaki?”
“His phone is off since yesterday.” Inoo focused back to the ant on the table. It crawled to the edge of the table but Inoo led it back to the middle of the table. “Probably he’s in his parents’ home.”
“Definitely. It’s so rare for us to get this long day off, so I guess he will definitely be there.” Hikaru opened his coat and simply threw it on a chair.
Inoo looked at him and sighed heavily. “I guess Chinen is right. We’re so pathetic. Look at us now. We’re gathering here, all boys, and there’s no story of love at all.”
Yabu and Hikaru looked at each other and smiled widely. Hikaru tapped Inoo’s head and sat beside him. “You’re just jealous to Takaki that no matter the fact is, he has someone he loved, aren’t you?”
“Shut up” Inoo pouted at the comment.