heres to clean slates...i want something so big for this year...and i want to change. I'm too much of a mess for even myself to understand.

New years resolution: To try and be truly happy with myself...no matter what that means.

I'm in a different place right now with my life..and where i want it to go. I don't know if it's a good or bad place...just a place. I almost wanna cry non-stop but then i'm completly content with myself. I think it's time for a change. i just don't know what i really want to change...

i have a date tonight...i'm nervous..because he is a really nice guy..and we all know i don't know what that feels like...

Can we talk about how i hate people on Livejournal who DON'T know you and comment shit on your journal that they DON'T know anything about...i hate people like that...I write what i want on my journal...last time i checked thats why it's MY journal. Now i know why a lot of people make their journals 'friends only'. Which i think i might have to do ( Read more... )

i hate my mom...i'm out of money and i don't get paid until next week. I still haven't gotten anything for my dad and she is "too busy" with her friends to take me shopping tomorrow..the one day i can go. I can't help it that i have to work everyday this week and i can only go at certain times. I have to get my dad something...my best bet now is ( Read more... )

I miss Murray so bad it isn't funny. I hate coming home...my mom thinks she always has to bitch at me for something. i get tired of everything always being about her...i mean she doesn't even call me while i am at school..shows she really cares and misses me. A lot of stuff happened while i was gone and she didn't tell me any of it. Just pissed me ( Read more... )

my brother hooked my journal UP!...i think it reflects me wonderfully...most def some huge props to painlessrelease

I'm going home in two days...i still have one final left.which is math tomorrow at 10:30..which means i'm gonna have to study tonight..and i still have to finish writing my english paper..i already have a page and a half..and only three more paragraphs to go...yay me ( Read more... )

"I played a quick game of chess with the
salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
slipped out and what went wrong"

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so i got some news tonight that makes me wanna jump off a very tall bridge. it makes me wanna cry....and i think i might. To jenny...the answer is no..on what we talked about in your room the other night...i told you it wouldn't work out in my favor..and it didn't. If you have no idea what i'm talking about just ask ( Read more... )