[sound of his voice and her face lights up with excitement, she nearly throws her arms around him, but his expression... doesn't seem very welcoming. Hurt colours her features and she hovers a second, mid-tacklehug]
[he frowns, and his voice is sharp, cruel] So have you slept with my boyfriend yet? I mean, that is what you're here for, right? Can't be bothered to visit otherwise.
[face crumples a little at his accusation, and tone of voice, she bites her lip, taking a second before she can find her nerve and puts her hands on her hips]
Okay, what the fuck, Jason? I got trapped back home, or I'd be back here in an instant. I missed the hell out of you. Both of you. [she's just gonna avoid the whole 'slept with my boyfriend' part... because. um...]
[hovers up to him, her eyes are watery and hurts pretty obvious but damn it she's still gonna stand up for herself] What th' hell happened while I was gone?
[That might be smart, because he knows how Kon is and that the answer is most definitely yes.]
Why should I believe that? Why should I even think for a second that anybody wants to be there for me when I need them, and not just because they want something for themselves?
You wanna know what the fuck happened? My goddamn family betrayed me again, and if you're about to do the same, why don't you just fuck off now!
*kicks LJ for eating my reply*bludhavenraptorJuly 12 2011, 20:29:57 UTC
[He startles when she hugs him, and tries to pull away for half a second, before the emotions just hit him again, as hard as ever. He sobs and hides his face against her neck.]
Kon got hit with Hub shit and slept with Jay. Bartender Jay, the one Dick and I took home with us t'be my brother. And... and then... and then afterward... [he tries without success to stifle another heartbroken sob]
[can't quite help the snort at that] You miss the part where he's crazy fuckin' in love with you? [brushes a hand through his hair and tilts his head up]
Listen... I ain't stealin' anyone... and you dumb as a sack o' hammers if you don't think I love you same as I love him. I know you guys got each other, and I'd have to be dumb as a sack o' hammers not to be able to tell how in love you are. [wipes his cheeks with her sleeve]
...but I'll still go kick the barman in the teeth if you want. I think there might be actual farm... ness. On my shit kickers. [smiles a little and kisses him on the forehead]
I know, but-- [He cuts himself off when she keeps talking, and yeah, she's definitely gonna come away with soaked sleeves because those words just made him cry more.]
It's... it's not just... he didn't tell me. Not right away. And then we'd just gotten everything okay again, and the Hub made him forget me. For, like, just a week, but it was awful. And I can't... I can't tell him how much it still hurts because I don't want to hurt him or make him think I doubt him... but I do. I'm awful because I do doubt that he'll stay with me.
[Jason makes a soft, broken sound when she kisses his forehead -- the kind gesture is just a little too much for him to handle.] I cut him up. Jay. When he wouldn't... he came into my house and wouldn't apologize and kept goading me... but we're supposed to be okay now... [whispers] I wouldn't stop you if you did want to kick him in the teeth, though. Could drag him to the hospital for his brain scans while he was unconscious.
[sighs softly and shakes her head, she can deal with soaked sleeves just fine, she wipes his cheeks again and hugs him close] I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, that must've been... I don' even know. [pets his hair gently and bites her lip] You c'n talk to me. I know it ain't the same, an'... and I'm sorry I wasn' there. You can talk t' me 'bout everything, I promise....
[hisses slightly and shakes her head, hugging him a little tighter] That's... [sighs] I don't have to be okay with him. [and she isn't, she didn't really know bar!Jay too well, so it's possibly a bit biased, but kicking him in the teeth is sounding like a better and better idea as it goes on] He still the most well connected man in the Hub? ...'cause I'm totally still willin' t' make that many enemies for you, darling. [kisses his temple lightly] Brain scans?
[He hugs her back, kind of curling up close to her.] You don't need to deal with my bullshit.
Yeah... everybody shows up at the Crow's Bar, and who wouldn't like the guy serving the alcohol? [He nuzzles her shoulder, wanting the comfort of her closeness.] He's still... even if I hate what he did, I can't help but worry about him as my brother. And he's been having bad migraines, so I'm trying to get him to the hospital to be checked out.
[softly] I still care about them both. I still love Kon so much. But it hurts and I couldn't tell anyone about it.
[nuzzles his hair slightly] I get t' make the choice of what bullshit I get t' deal with. And I'd way rather I get to deal with yours with you, than you gotta deal with it alone. So you are.... officially forbade from not talkin' to me 'cause you don' think I should hafta deal with it. [kisses the top of his head]
Mmm, true 'nough... 'guess I'm gonna deal with a rep of bein' the crazy girl who kicked the barman in the face? [winces slightly] Or maybe I should find another way t' knock him out? If there's a chance somethin's wrong in his brain...
I know... I'm sorry, I know y' do... Dunno if it'd be best if y' talk it out with him sometime or not, but for now you can talk to me, any time y' want. But, I know he loves you, too. You're allowed to love him and be mad at him at the same time...
Don't wanna talk about it in public anyway... hang on... [he Hubspaces them to his penthouse apartment, in the mini-gym (because no one else uses it but him right now). He slips out of her arms and plops down on the workout mats, near the uneven bars.]
You don't have to knock him out. You can kick him somewhere else to express your displeasure, you know.
I feel like I can't, Kora. I don't want to hurt him, and it's... things seem better when I pretend to be okay. That's how it's always worked.
[nods, holding on as he hubspaces them and looks around quickly, when he ducks away she goes to sit by him, giving him space, but is still close enough to hug the bejesus outta him if she thinks he'll need it]
Well, yeah... but if he doesn't get knocked out you don't get an excuse to drag him to the hospital? ....Though I suppose I could just, say... kick him in the nads and sedate him while he's down? [strokes chin thoughtfully]
Well, sure... I mean, he's gonna be happier if he doesn't think youre mad at him. If he was mad at you would you be happy? But, like.. and I'm not sayin' go yell at him, or have an argument, but....like, you don't have to feel guilty that he hurt you. Maybe you shouldn't tell him, if he thinks it's settled, maybe you should... but... in the end you're still allowed to have your feelings. You can't let 'em control you, sure, but... bein' mad at him doesn't mean you don't love him. [sighs softly] I'm not the best for romance advice, an' I know it, but... it's okay to be mad? But... not mean? I... am not sure
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[His face goes blank, but for a second there was panic and fear there.]
It's you.
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...yeah? It... it is you isn' it?
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[he frowns, and his voice is sharp, cruel] So have you slept with my boyfriend yet? I mean, that is what you're here for, right? Can't be bothered to visit otherwise.
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Okay, what the fuck, Jason? I got trapped back home, or I'd be back here in an instant. I missed the hell out of you. Both of you. [she's just gonna avoid the whole 'slept with my boyfriend' part... because. um...]
[hovers up to him, her eyes are watery and hurts pretty obvious but damn it she's still gonna stand up for herself] What th' hell happened while I was gone?
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Why should I believe that? Why should I even think for a second that anybody wants to be there for me when I need them, and not just because they want something for themselves?
You wanna know what the fuck happened? My goddamn family betrayed me again, and if you're about to do the same, why don't you just fuck off now!
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Because I love the fuck outta you, you stupid jerk. You got any idea how much I fucking missed you? I'm sorry I wasn't here.
....Where, who, when and can I go kick them in the teeth? I got my shit-kicking boots on.
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Kon got hit with Hub shit and slept with Jay. Bartender Jay, the one Dick and I took home with us t'be my brother. And... and then... and then afterward... [he tries without success to stifle another heartbroken sob]
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[squeezes him lightly and cradles him a little with her TTK, hovering to hold him without him having to crouch to her level]
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[He's kind of rambling and not making a lot of sense, but Kora should be able to understand what he's scared of.]
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Listen... I ain't stealin' anyone... and you dumb as a sack o' hammers if you don't think I love you same as I love him. I know you guys got each other, and I'd have to be dumb as a sack o' hammers not to be able to tell how in love you are. [wipes his cheeks with her sleeve]
...but I'll still go kick the barman in the teeth if you want. I think there might be actual farm... ness. On my shit kickers. [smiles a little and kisses him on the forehead]
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It's... it's not just... he didn't tell me. Not right away. And then we'd just gotten everything okay again, and the Hub made him forget me. For, like, just a week, but it was awful. And I can't... I can't tell him how much it still hurts because I don't want to hurt him or make him think I doubt him... but I do. I'm awful because I do doubt that he'll stay with me.
[Jason makes a soft, broken sound when she kisses his forehead -- the kind gesture is just a little too much for him to handle.] I cut him up. Jay. When he wouldn't... he came into my house and wouldn't apologize and kept goading me... but we're supposed to be okay now... [whispers] I wouldn't stop you if you did want to kick him in the teeth, though. Could drag him to the hospital for his brain scans while he was unconscious.
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[hisses slightly and shakes her head, hugging him a little tighter] That's... [sighs] I don't have to be okay with him. [and she isn't, she didn't really know bar!Jay too well, so it's possibly a bit biased, but kicking him in the teeth is sounding like a better and better idea as it goes on] He still the most well connected man in the Hub? ...'cause I'm totally still willin' t' make that many enemies for you, darling. [kisses his temple lightly] Brain scans?
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Yeah... everybody shows up at the Crow's Bar, and who wouldn't like the guy serving the alcohol? [He nuzzles her shoulder, wanting the comfort of her closeness.] He's still... even if I hate what he did, I can't help but worry about him as my brother. And he's been having bad migraines, so I'm trying to get him to the hospital to be checked out.
[softly] I still care about them both. I still love Kon so much. But it hurts and I couldn't tell anyone about it.
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Mmm, true 'nough... 'guess I'm gonna deal with a rep of bein' the crazy girl who kicked the barman in the face? [winces slightly] Or maybe I should find another way t' knock him out? If there's a chance somethin's wrong in his brain...
I know... I'm sorry, I know y' do... Dunno if it'd be best if y' talk it out with him sometime or not, but for now you can talk to me, any time y' want. But, I know he loves you, too. You're allowed to love him and be mad at him at the same time...
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You don't have to knock him out. You can kick him somewhere else to express your displeasure, you know.
I feel like I can't, Kora. I don't want to hurt him, and it's... things seem better when I pretend to be okay. That's how it's always worked.
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Well, yeah... but if he doesn't get knocked out you don't get an excuse to drag him to the hospital? ....Though I suppose I could just, say... kick him in the nads and sedate him while he's down? [strokes chin thoughtfully]
Well, sure... I mean, he's gonna be happier if he doesn't think youre mad at him. If he was mad at you would you be happy? But, like.. and I'm not sayin' go yell at him, or have an argument, but....like, you don't have to feel guilty that he hurt you. Maybe you shouldn't tell him, if he thinks it's settled, maybe you should... but... in the end you're still allowed to have your feelings. You can't let 'em control you, sure, but... bein' mad at him doesn't mean you don't love him. [sighs softly] I'm not the best for romance advice, an' I know it, but... it's okay to be mad? But... not mean? I... am not sure ( ... )
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