Nothing went right today... i can't check my e-mail because yahoo is fucked up i have 7 viruses on my comp GRRRRR!

I am bored...and I don't mean the everyday I have got nothing to do kind of bored. I am simply bored with life. I am 18 fucking years old and I am already in a rut. I am emotionally detached from everything and I pretty much hate my life...in fact, I loathe my life. I fear myself for the seemingly inpenetrable darkness that I can create for myself ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a few days and maybe it is time for an update on my seemingly exotic life. I am working and sleeping not too much else. Going to Vermont to visit some friends at some point. That is cool. I lead a sad sad life. I do nothing all day my job is so fucking easy and i sit around at home all night....so g'night
DCM

I realized that i am an asshole. I completely blew off my friend Katie, because she was worried about me... I just can't stand when people tell me i need to eat. Or call me a masochist because I cannot afford to feed myself regularly. I am just going through a rough patch right now. I am not worried I know that things will work themselves out, so ( Read more... )

It is 12:12 A.M and Jay Leno is on TV. Could there be any person with less of a sense of humor on Television. I can't sleep, and for the first time in like a year and four months I miss sleeping next to someone. It is kind of sad. But I suppose that I can't complain too much. I have survived this long why not for another unknown amount of time? I ( Read more... )

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YAY! that is how i choose to start off this update on my livejournal update. I got sent picture of my friend Katie and they are soo adorable they made me smile. I miss her alot. My mood of last night has long passed by and I am in a manic mood (for once). I have not much to report though. I went to work, scouted some more locations for my indie ( Read more... )

I am slowing down
As the years go by
I am sinking
So I trick myself
Like everybody else

The secrets I hide
Twist me inside
They make me weaker

So I trick myself
Like everybody else
I crouch in fear and wait
I'll never feel again

If only I could remember
Anything at all
DCM

I AM SO INCREDIBLY FUCKED!!!!!!!!! I NEED AT LEAST 500 DOLLARS IN 16 DAYS SO THAT I CAN HAVE SECURITY UNTIL MY NEXT JOB. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!!

DCM

It is three o' clock here in West Philadephia and i am anxiously awaiting my visit to VT. I can't wait to see Suessical and a lot of my old friends. It will be a sweet trip, provided i can get the funds together, if this fails i will feel like such an asshole because so amny people are counting on me to come. I hope so much that my money situation ( Read more... )