This is not a white lie (drabble challenge 15: honesty/dishonesty)
Title: This is not a white lie
Author: thevignette
Word count: 200 (double drabble)
Concrit?: Go ahead
Pairing: Jaejoong/Changmin
Author's Notes: I wrote this two days ago, but it completely slipped my mind to post this until now. My memory is failing, really.
Changmin’s lips are kissed swollen, and when his eyes flutter open like nervous butterflies, Jaejoong’s face is in front of his, eyes bloodshot. Their hands are entwined together next to their bodies, trembling, temporary.
“I wish,” Jaejoong’s voice cracks. He clears his throat, Changmin holds his breath. “I wish you weren’t you.” Changmin doesn’t know whether that means I wish you weren’t male, or I wish you weren’t a member, or I wish you weren’t supposed to be just my younger brother, or I wish you were Yunho. He doesn’t know which one would hurt more if it was uttered out loud.
Changmin ducks his head so he doesn’t have look at Jaejoong cry, so he doesn’t have to stare truth in the face and find himself lacking. There are some things in life you cannot force, but Changmin wishes he could have his way, just this once, and Lord I will be resigned to my fate. “I love you,” he says, but really he means please love me back. “Just this once,” Changmin whispers. “Lie to me.” Please.
Jaejoong’s tears are smeared across his cheek as he presses their faces together. He says the words. Changmin closes his eyes.
Author: thevignette
Word count: 200 (double drabble)
Concrit?: Go ahead
Pairing: Jaejoong/Changmin
Author's Notes: I wrote this two days ago, but it completely slipped my mind to post this until now. My memory is failing, really.
Changmin’s lips are kissed swollen, and when his eyes flutter open like nervous butterflies, Jaejoong’s face is in front of his, eyes bloodshot. Their hands are entwined together next to their bodies, trembling, temporary.
“I wish,” Jaejoong’s voice cracks. He clears his throat, Changmin holds his breath. “I wish you weren’t you.” Changmin doesn’t know whether that means I wish you weren’t male, or I wish you weren’t a member, or I wish you weren’t supposed to be just my younger brother, or I wish you were Yunho. He doesn’t know which one would hurt more if it was uttered out loud.
Changmin ducks his head so he doesn’t have look at Jaejoong cry, so he doesn’t have to stare truth in the face and find himself lacking. There are some things in life you cannot force, but Changmin wishes he could have his way, just this once, and Lord I will be resigned to my fate. “I love you,” he says, but really he means please love me back. “Just this once,” Changmin whispers. “Lie to me.” Please.
Jaejoong’s tears are smeared across his cheek as he presses their faces together. He says the words. Changmin closes his eyes.