ahh Valentine's Day makes me sad. It's a stupid holiday that we have made up, but it makes me feel lonely and I hate that. I was just helping one of my guy friends with ideas for his girlfriend. I can think of so many things, and she likes sweet, romantic things the way I do too, so coming up with suggestions wasn't difficult. I know the kinds of ( Read more... )

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And the drama continues ( Read more... )

"Wishes that she knew how I really felt ( Read more... )

love me for all that I am


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I had an absolutely awful weekend. But some of it is turning into something good. The awful though - saturday night my mom had to go to the ER. I can't really go into detail about it too much, but I can tell you I have never been so scared or worried in my entire life. I got home from work and as I was about to pull into the driveway, my dad was ( Read more... )

I saw this on my way to work yesterday morning. It was probably the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen (my crappy cell phone picture does it no justice). It was a full arc (which I couldn't catch b/c my phone can only zoom out so far), and the clouds behind it were so dark, making the colors even more vibrant. It was so beautiful. It's amazing ( Read more... )

I need closure. Very very badly. I was talking to a friend about it last night, and I think this is the reason I am not moving on very well. I don't have any sense of closure at all. There are so many things that were unsaid, so many things I wanted to say to him and ask him (even before I knew we were breaking up) and so many things I wanted to ( Read more... )

That's it. I give up, I'm done. You don't realize what you do to me. Why wasn't I good enough for you? I feel like just a hollow shell of the girl I used to be, and it's getting too hard to fight it anymore. So I hope you're satisfied. You have broken that "warm, happy, positive spirit" that you used to say you loved so much. Congratulations.

sometimes I think it would be so much easier to just give up. I was fine yesterday, today I am a mess. I can't take this roller coaster of emotions anymore. Why is this so hard :(