♗ 002 ] [ now that I'm free... what do I do?

[not_myfirstday]

[Suffice it to say, Elle's been in space, apparently for the second time, and she's still not really sure why, let alone what exactly she's supposed to do. She's doing an okay job in surviving, even did a tiny job for a few credits just in case she needed the money. Of course, the tiny job didn't pan out and she ended up just heading back to the

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[intuitivelyapt]

[Now with his powers intact, he feels more inclined to talk to his good old pals from home. Especially Elle. She has something he wants, and he has unresolved emotional issues to work out with her. :') ]

Hsving some trouble finding your place? It's hard without Daddy holding your hand, isn't it?

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[intuitivelyapt]

No. I was waiting for the longest time. Waiting until the time was right. When I could have my chance. Take everything that I wanted. And then? I got lost. I thought maybe, maybe, I could have another chance.

You and I both know how foolish that is.

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[not_myfirstday]

[Talking is good. Well, she thinks it's good. She's not so sure because the talking is slightly manic and she's not exactly positive that she can even help. After all, he feels this is her fault. Maybe it is. Maybe pushing him with Trevor, forcing him to feel that competitive edge...

She takes a breath, not wanting to think too much about that.]

It's not foolish. We're on another planet, different rules, different people, and we've been pulled away from everything we knew. I've been sitting here trying to figure out why I'm here, but maybe that's it. Maybe it's because back home I don't get to leave, I don't get to tell Bennet that I won't do it anymore.

[She pauses, unsure of a lot of things, but mostly of her own choice of words.] Peter said that he knew me, that he was at Hartsdale, kept prisoner. I don't know the things that he does, but if that's the direction things head back home...

I don't think I belong there.

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[intuitivelyapt]

So, what? If you don't belong here, and you know what happens in the future, does that mean you want to leave and go back to being the perfect little company girl?

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[not_myfirstday]

That's not.. that's not what I said, I said I don't think I belong there. Back home. I mean, I don't know -- I'm just confusing myself.

[Truthfully, being given this much free will is still difficult for her to manage. Everything's been on her father's timetable for so long that she spends most of her day waiting to see if anyone has something for her to do. Of course, she doesn't know anyone to tell her to do anything...]

And I was never perfect... I just tried to be.

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[intuitivelyapt]

So did I. And look at where it got me.

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[not_myfirstday]

At the moment, though, you're on a different planet. It could be a start, at least.