Sigh...

[darkentwisted]

I've come to realize maybe LiveJournal isn't the nice friendly place I thought it was.

I'm kinda disappointed.  I've never defriended anyone before but when someone responds to a supportive message I leave with a less than genuine response, well then, they really weren't friends anyway.
Yes, I get it.  I'm dumb, stupid, my opinion doesn't count and

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[lankyguy]

I have deleted people, and had people delete me. Sometimes there is a reason, some times it is just time to move on. As I sometimes talk about private stuff/job stuff I reserve the right to limit access to my LJ, through friending. I let others do the same.

Any chance you could have misunderstood he response? Text is open to interpretation. I've misinterpreted things at times.

[darkentwisted]

Probably so. But I'm just in that kind of mood. I'll be over it tomorrow and very sorry I overreacted.

meh! Us moody Cancers. :P

[roh_wyn]

Aaaaaw. *hugs*

I've been lucky in that I've never had to defriend anyone, and so far, I've been spared the reciprocal "privilege" as well.

Plus, the internet is a hard place to have meaningful conversations anyway.

[darkentwisted]

Well, I really overreacted as I always do. But it does have me thinking.

Yes the internet is a hard place to have meaningful conversations but it makes the ones that connect that much more meaningful.

*throws sad confetti at his own pity party*

[multred_a]

I have few friends online, but the ones I have I treasure. Don't let the bastards get you down.

[precious_rosie]

Aww, sweetie! {{{{{{{{{big hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Try not to let it get to you. What you have experienced is horrible, but for every ignorant person on LJ, there are about quillion lovely people who genuinely care. Of course we aren't always going to see eye to eye on different things, but on the whole we try to support each other the best we can. You're certainly not dumb or stupid, you're fabulous, treacle. *more hugs* xxx

[darkentwisted]

Thanks for that. I guess I just had this big fantasy about being in a community of like minded people who help each other to become better writers by sharing both the positive and negative viewpoints about each others work.

I don't feel like I fit in and worse I don't feel like i've grown as a writer.

Packing it in, taking my toys and going home seems the best approach.

I've often said that I write to please myself but I also do it to get feedback from others. Good or bad, as long as it helps improve my writing.

As I told the person who got me going on this, it wasn't just her or the one incident, just the one that tipped the applecart.

As someone smarter than me once said. "If it stops being fun stop doing it."

[roh_wyn]

I'm so glad you're resolved your crisis with this person! *hugs*

And while I know the reply above was not to me, there was just something I wanted to say:

I don't feel like I fit in and worse I don't feel like i've grown as a writer.

This is exactly how I feel, and pretty much in every fandom. I feel like there's no nice that I fit into, and I feel like my writing, while probably marginally better, isn't all that improved. I think it's just a thing that writers go through all the time...and it does blow over.

I think your writing is perfectly lovely, even though I don't leave comments as often as I should.

[darkentwisted]

Awww thanks.
Yeah, I think I was just having the start of what has panned out to be a very dark day.

Should have just avoided commenting or posting at all today till my mood sweetened.

No one is going to like everything I do I realize that and I do have a small and loyal critique of friends who do ask the tough questions and make me justify every punctuation mark. I value them and you.

So yes, time to pop the sad black party balloons and move on!

(Mumbles about really needing to see about getting tested for bipolar disorder.)

[aliciabmanley]

I think you're right. There are a lot of crappy people online here. I'm very sorry you had a bad incident.

But I'm your friend - if that's any consolation.

You are not dumb. You are definitely not stupid. You opinion DOES count, and your fanfic is anything but awful.

You just let me know if I need to yell at anyone for you.

*mwah*

[darkentwisted]

Are ya kidding? Your friendship is the grand prize!
MWAH!
*loves you!*