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[darkeningnight]

I feel like crying. Like, I need a day to just do something I just don't know what...

i hate you, graham no, I really don't

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I am going to ramble now

[hollowlight]

I can partly understand what you mean. Our relationship paths have sort of diverged because of Derek leaving and Graham staying, since if that hadn't happened our experiences would probably be a lot more similar... but overall I understand the feeling of obligation and being unable to lose someone even if part of you feels you should. And the confusion. I sometimes feel resentful of Derek because of how he treats me and resentful of myself for treating him as I do. It's a struggle to make time for each other and feels like things are always trying to ruin it. Hopefully we (you and I) aren't causing trouble for ourselves by not changing anything or learning to let go... but I don't think we'd be better off without them, either. Hopefully some of what I just said sounds really familiar.

Re: I am going to ramble now

[darkeningnight]

I understand and it sounds very familiar. I think we need to sit down and talk... just, about stuff sense we seem to be similar things going on.